Who was I kidding? by utena11221

I never fit into their family... It was all just a fantasy. I ignored the feelings of being 'out-of-place'. I ignored the akwardness, thinking it was just in my head. Heartbroken. Why does family heartbreak hurt the most? Mom really is the only person I got. Only physical person, that is. I love you, my friends.

#Sad #Vent #Sorrow #Outcast #Anime #Family #EJSN #utena

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painted on a Nintendo 3DS
16 Apr, 2013, 2:07 am
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BlackDog624

16 Apr, 2013, 2:16 am

Aw amor nina... *embraces her in a hug and rubs her back softly* te quiero utena, eres una mujer linda y lo siento del dolor... I am thankful you have a loving, wonderful mother in your life who makes you happy, no matter the situation. As for your friends, if you consider those close to you like family, it will always be something to look forward to within each day of your life. *kisses her cheek deeply*

LiesoftheFallen

16 Apr, 2013, 2:17 am

I don't get it, but I'm sorry, I know how you feel.

MamaMercy

16 Apr, 2013, 2:18 am

Wow! X3 is this true?

Moved Account

16 Apr, 2013, 2:18 am

Gosh, i'm so sorry for that. You still got us, Ute! *huggles*

BlueEyes2

16 Apr, 2013, 2:19 am

i know how it feels -.- but my brothers hates me he never want to play with me any more god WHY ARE BOYS SUCH JERCS -n-

Neeshy

16 Apr, 2013, 2:21 am

God, IKR. I hate to say but I'mma huge oddball to my family :[. Everyone all hiphop and all the girls all duck face while I'm miss nerdy tomboy. I can't fit in TTnTT

Ramb

16 Apr, 2013, 2:21 am

Been there. My younger sister, that is. She loved playing video games just like I do. But once she turned 13, she just stopped. It's hard to talk to her about anything nowadays. Although very few times, when the two of us are alone at home that is, she and I get talkative and have a good laugh. One time she was bored, so I let her play Marvel Pinball 3D on here for a bit. I miss my old little sister. :/

BlueEyes2

16 Apr, 2013, 2:21 am

my mum is my best friend i dont have any friends cuz we r uperclass tipe ppl stuck in hicfil maine -.- so i really love my mum even though she gets on my nervs alot i still love her 0u0

Neeshy

16 Apr, 2013, 2:22 am

But my Mom is awesome :D She accepts :D You need a huge hug *huggles*

GTandwhatnot

16 Apr, 2013, 2:22 am

*pats on shoulder* it's okay, would you like a cupcake, a tomb raider gaming marathon, and some hot chocolate?

Ramb

16 Apr, 2013, 2:22 am

I'm practically the only one in the family that plays games.

Neeshy

16 Apr, 2013, 2:25 am

I'm the only one who plays nintendo and watches anime. I'm highly jugde by the music I listen to and eveything I do!

Telefrancais

16 Apr, 2013, 2:26 am

I know dat feel... everyone at school (exept two) dont like anime, my mom doesnt support it either. but you're all my amigos *hug* why am i so antisocial?

Franman

16 Apr, 2013, 3:03 am

Well man..life sucks (kinda obviously, sorry : l) But it always turns out right in the end! So hang in there! :P

Biggoron

16 Apr, 2013, 3:04 am

aww you poor girl! ;n; *huggles*
#friendsAreForever #well... #theGOODones

XENOKI11ER

16 Apr, 2013, 3:05 am

me, my brother and my best friend, play games and DnD so much that it makes up for therest of the poeple in my life. but i know this very well, its sad :/
Btw. your still and always in my prayers :)

Yalmic

16 Apr, 2013, 3:39 am

Friends ha ha what are friends.
/Forever Alone

DemonFreak

16 Apr, 2013, 4:19 am

I know that feeling. Only one person ive met in real life supports me and my anime love. but he now lives 10 hours away. Thats why i like colors soo much its like my refuge my HQ. I love everyone on here. Im sorry. Im here for you always we all are. Dont feel alone anymore.

MothofLamplight

16 Apr, 2013, 4:35 am

Utena-kun.. -huggles- My mom is all I really have too. I'm the black sheep out of my ENTIRE family [mom, bro, close cousin, aunt, grandma, etc etc]. I mean- I have teal hair, piercings, a goth-look, etc. I'm not even 100percent 'straight', but I have to keep it a secret. Believe me- I understand... but it gets better. You're a beautiful, funny, and talented girl. Things will look up- I promise.

ThisPhantomGone

16 Apr, 2013, 4:40 am

Ach... I'm so sorry... You've still got your friends, and your mom I guess. I'm not sure if you'd consider me a friend yet, but I'd be here for you too.

SeaGlass

16 Apr, 2013, 4:53 am

I somewhat know a similiar feeling, except I was the one that changed. My bff kept saying that we still had a bond, he wanted everything to stay the same, but with time I lost interest in the things we both normally enjoyed, I grew tired with the same old games, I wanted to do different sorts of adventures with him, but as he refused to let go of the old I became impatient with my new interests, & now I dont even have anything to say to him anymore. He still believes we can go back to the way things were between us, & I tried so many times, hoping he was right... but it never did. I can no longer feel any harmony at all with him... He keeps holding onto everything around him, I keep letting go to embrace new things... it just sorta happened.
It feels awful.

Sigma 05

16 Apr, 2013, 10:21 am

Remember, not only do your friends love you, your family does, and when life looks down look at the bright side, and if you keep your view to the bright, all will be better.

applesighder

16 Apr, 2013, 11:42 am

You maybe awkward there, but you'll always have us here. *hugs* I'm sorry.

FANGxtami

16 Apr, 2013, 2:59 pm

at least ya have us, right? we might not be much, but i know you can cont on us! *smiles* we are you're friends and even though we are not there in person, at least know that alot of us care for you.
gaah, im so cheesey D'X

grizzby

16 Apr, 2013, 11:49 pm

Same here. Me and my cousins loved Nintendo, but now they're all about Playstation and Instagram :(.

Chris(the dragon)

17 Apr, 2013, 4:41 am

i know how you feel

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