Oh were you put the color the black then erase sorta like skratch art^-^

ya it kind of hard to draw like this i think it is and ya its a devil dog chibi im not good at chibis so im drawing them so i can get better.....o no i forgot his ears lol o well i will remember next time : )

Uhhh my parents religion has been a pain in the but lately and I don't know what to do... maybe I'm just stubborn I never really beleaved there was a god... cause... cause well what god would sent us here! To this hell hole! Knowing what will happen to us! I mean what father or person or thing would do that to it's children! God wouldn't have had to sent his only begotten to die, if he'd just kept us with him! Uhh it's just so frustrating I'm tired of being used like some tool!... I'm tired of wearing a mask cause of others expectations... I just I uhhh!!! I'm sorry I'm getting really frustrated with things lately! I suck at math, science, my writing skills are horrible my dad's aways telling me I'm a stoopid runt I can't write worth a da.m, my art is easyly out done by everyone... What am I? I'm just a stoopid sixteen year old boy who hides in his room all day!!! Oh that's the life... get to sit in bed all day sribleing stoopid drawings onto paper, got my shadow to talk too... then got work then bed then school were I get reminded how different I am how I'm a freak a inhuman monster... then is back home were I go down in my room and do my home work! Then it's up to dinner were my dad tells me how I'm too fat, or too skinny, too stoopid, too weird, not good enough! Then it's back down to the dark hole were I sit in front if the mirror, and I look at myself and see what everyone else sees... then it repeats and repeats nothings changeing! I got two more years of this never ending sykle only it gets worst and worst each day. I wake up more tired more angry frustrated! I I'm sorry I'm just really- really tired of it all... Your the only one I can really talk about this... everyone else is absorbed in their own troubles and I don't want to add to any of it... so if I'm bothering you I can just go away...

no dont go away i told you i would help and yes im sideing with you what kind of god puts us here with crime,abuse and sickness i got tired of being his pawn i broke free everone follower like lambs about to get ki.lled Van i dont know if you hear this from me enother or not but you are not a monster you are a human that holds a place in my heart with my other ppl i care very deeply for you hold a place in this world we all do you just need to find it...i have not found my place yet but i know i will find it if i keep looking dont give up your dad is mean im sorry to say that fat or skinny you are still you dont give up so easily ok o and sorry if what i said about god upsets you but that how i feel and a lot of ppl get mad at me for saying it and if im wrong may god srike me with thunder..........o realy must be true i did not get thundered again sorry if i upset you but you are still you stay true to yourslef no one else hang in there lil bro : )

i like your drawings your writeing is very nice and lol my math grades were allways f- or c- and i stink at speling.

I just feel really lost right now like I'm the stoopid lame that no one bothered looking for... I swear my relgion wants me to go on a mission for two years to bring in new members! It's like teach the ones you already got! They're just like my parents they could barely handle me and my siblings and they wanna get more! What am I chop liver! You fail with me so you get a replacement to do better with... that hurts... to be replaced like that... I mean as much as I love my sibling and as much as I want them to do better then me... it's like wow what happened to me aren't you going to even try... your just going to get another one and let the old one fend for its self... is that what god did!?! He got more kids then he could handle so he dropped the ones he didn't want here and kept his favorites with him!... were's the wolf why can't it just quit playing with me and come eat me...

thanks but someone will always come along and take my ideas and do them better...

what are you plaining to do dont do nothing crazy ok i worryed about you now and being the oldest and for me its yes i do want something better for my sisters and brother i have been replaced four times and my moms grandkids from my sis i have been replaced 6 times a lil peace of me dies evertime and im left with a tiny hole in my heart that grows and grows i replace that hole a lot but i never want some thing bad to happen to them i stay happy for my sisters and brothers i stay strong for them i stay alive for them and other ppl i care for thxs btw : ) just find something to feel the holes in your heart dont force things in there let it the things heal you but dont do any thing crazy after all there is only one you!

is some one on here stealing your art work and no it would not be better if some one else took your art becouse it not your feeling going in to the painting it some poser i would like the real person drawing and that person is you!

...I died along time ago so what does it matter...

it matters a lot and if it dose not matter too you it matters to me and im sure other ppl on here it matters to them too you realy are a great person

you are not dead to me you are not a runt and your not choped liver to me you are a friend

and if you say you died a long time ago and im talking to a dead you? i think your alive and i realy would miss you if you did die but that feeling of being dead inside and dead to the world it hurts dont it that pain of it all trying everthing to stand out sl ppl see you he.ll even haveing some one look at you in a nice way without hate in there eyes it hurts so bad it can all be changed for the better it takes a while but it gets better it realy dose so plz live even if you feel dead and other think you are i think your alive

sl i ment so

yes it hurts so much... I keep trying and trying but it always ends the same with failure... I feel so dead with these holes they're just so big... I mean no one knows who I am but you guys... other then that I'm dead to the world... like I was never there...

maybe when you move out of your house you should move to a new city or something like that start fresh but be yourslef when you do but yes its very painfull but it well get better Van im just so sorry no one should be treated like this it makes the person fell like a life less shell well you not you deserve better im going back to bed soon i got a real bad flu it hurts plz remeber i em here for you just dont give up.

Oh I'm sorry get better okay... ya I've thought about going to idaho good temperature nice senery small state with small towns I don't like crowded places it makes me very uncomfortable so big cities aren't for me... thanks for all the support I'm feeling much better now thank you

lol im quite scared of big crowds myslef Van i realy do mean everthing i say to you well im not thowing up a whole lot now so i must be geting better

O_O yum don't you just love getting a second taste of your food?

o dont say that lol i might thow-up again this flu i hate it so much

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