This looks great thanks Messy... you know that pic with him in it I drew him look like me... I do have cloths like that but my hair is blond and it's curly... I wanted to make him look like me but in my drawing style...

thats what i wanted to do to the girl i think the pic looks cool i never had tryed to draw me

K schoo started out pretty bad... My teachers gave me crazy homework right of the bat then when I was in art class... this girl came up to me and said "Why do you draw nothing but humans? Can't you draw anything different, not like your good at them anyways." I wanted to screa.m in that girls face for saying that to me... the truth is that the reason why I draw mainly humans is... well cause I've always been looked at/ treated like a primitive animal... ppl call me a inhuman monster... I draw humans cause I want to be human... not a monster... Those words that that girl said to me hurt cause... one I could answer her cause of my mask, that and the girl would've just called me a freak... two cause she said I wasn't good at it... you know you think I'd be used to have my art crateacted, and called shi.t... my own parents do this to my art... so I should be used to it, but I'm not... it hurts... Thats when I start thinking and I get these voices in my head saying... You have no future someone will aways out do you... what ever you can think up, or even do someone can do it better! No one will want to hire you they'll just get someone better... Your dreams will never come true, your future was writen with failure and no matter what you do it will always end in failure!... I can't get these stoopid voices outta my head they're driving me insaine... I didn't want to bother you with this cause I didn't want to spread the dark feelings... I don't want to drag anyone down... I'm sorry if I seem depressing I don't mean to be... it's just I try so hard only to fail... I mean my dad called me fat so I stopped eating then what does he do... he calls me skin and bones... I keeping doing things for him but he only sees the bad in me... I get so angry and want to explode on everyone!... but that wouldn't be right I'd be looked at differently, so I hide it I hold that stoopid knife to me, and think of how easy it would be... to just die... I'm going to heal one way or another...

I don't try to draw myself often... itjust reminds me of what I am...

...so I don't like to do it to often...

ok now im going to say what i want to tell you and i suck at spelling so here it is there is allways a new begining after an end becouse the end tells the begining what to do from doing everthing first the past is allways in the thats what makes the future fun becouse you can rememer the past and the first part of a book draws you in and the other books tie into the past as for your drawing be proud of them. Yeah a lot of my drawing stink but im slowy geting better after being told i cant draw this i cant draw that by ppl i will em proving them wrong and im proveing it to my self too! I love all of my drawings i can look back on my past ones and see how to draw like i did i know a lot of ppl are better than me at drawing but you know what im happy with what i can do i think thats the best kind of artist in the world some one who likes there art just the way it is. i hope you dont get mad at this next part but i look at your past drawings sometimes for help on the skys,space and ppl. I feel happy even though its a drawing i just did it would have never happened but it did happen and its all thanks to ones past tied into my painting. My parents are both skiny my sisters and brothers skiny one of my sisters have a family of there own. Im kind of over weight i wear glasses and i leave in a apt. my mom treats me like sh,it too saying im a misstake all of the time saying im a failure too she says i need to be more like my lil sis two years diffrants in our age but i smile at her and say im happy with my life the ups and downs of it. It made me who i em today i respect my flaws i can learn from them i may be a misstake too you even a failure in your eyes but im still me and i will live this life the way i chose lol i told her that last week. Van you are nice,funny and you care about your friends. A lot of ppl will be mean to you and you will feel pain but your still human if i could be by your side to help you out i would be and im sure Dragoness,RavenFlight,sundra

and many other would help you out too ppl will call you in human but i will see past that mask and see the real you the nice funny person i call a friend who i think of as a lil bro i will see you van. stay true to yourslef

you are going to heal with your friends help and how many likes to you have on all of your pics in your gallery you dont have zero you have a lot of likes so you have a few that think your drawing are crap well count your stars the ppl who like your drawing out number the ppl who dont they will all ways be a yin and yang part to life learn from both and you will be fine i know you can make it as for the voies in your head dont let them win you only have one life they will only be one van you are fine the way you are everone is not the same it would be boreing if we were all the same you are not in human

you have curly hair thats so cool i kind of wish my hair was curly sometimes but no its flat boreing : (

Beleave me curly hair is annoying XD it takes for ever to com and when it drys you got hair stiking everywhere. I'm sure your just being hard on your self I let what my dad said to me get in my skin... I taut myself to hate food for him... he's impossible to pleaze... Messy thank you for this advise and more importaintly Thank you for being here for me. Your words do help alot and they mean alot. Thank you it's nice to to have a big sister like you^-^. ya I'm five years older then my brother, seven more then my sister, then fifteen years older then my younger sister. Younger siblings can be such a pain XD but it's nice to have an older wiser sister like you that I can talk too

any time just stop keeping it all to yourslef ok im here for you if you need someone to talk to! : )

Okay I promise^-^ thanks big Sis

thank for telling me lil bro : )