Look, uh...
You know, I'm not very good with words
But I came to give a fair warning
I think he's letting all of this get to his head
the Taint keeps growing as we speak
I'm scared
I've never seen him this exhausted or hurt
I've never seen him so...
so TERRIFIED of himself
I get that he doesn't like being in his own realms that he makes
Such as the one with all the cartoony people
Or the one with their inner demons

But to see him avoid it all?
Even me? Well, I take that back, we almost NEVER get along
But that doesn't mean we don't care for each other
Every night I hear him crying to himself, crying to God about... only He knows what
I never heard him cry before
To me it feels like my heart was being destroyed in every way
I HATE hearing him sound like that
It's not like him
I tried to talk to him about it, but he brushes it off, trying to plan for the next thing for either of his realms

I wanna know what he's hiding
What is holding him back from peace?
What is holding him back from love?
What is holding him back from grace?
Last night I heard it again, the agonizing weeping
I tried to pinpoint the source, but even the source sickened me to my core
No wonder he's upset
I don't know how to help him
I don't even know if I can tell you what I saw
What I heard
What I know
But it's giving him nightmares
It's tearing him apart

I feel helpless
Heh, isn't that ironic? Considering how useless I am?
Hahaha...
...
...
...
When
When is it going to stop
When will my brother be happy again
When will he come to his senses
When will he just let it go
When will he move on
When will we be free
Icanttakethisanymore
Imsoscaredofhim
Idontwanttobehereanymore
Iwanttoescape
Buticantleavehimalone
Idonttrusthimbeingallalone
Idontwanthimtodie
Idontwanthimtosuffer
LETMEOUTLETMEOUTLETMEOUTLETMEOUTLETMEOUTLETMEOUTLETMEOUTLETMEOUTLETMEOUT

. . .

Im sorry.
I didn't mean to scare you.
I didn't know how much this affected you, Silly.
Please don't worry about me.
I'll be okay, I promise.
A lot has been on our minds, I know that.
From relocating soon, to surviving demons...
It's taking a toll on the both of us.
It shouldn't affect me, but it does.
And I'm sorry for hurting you because of it.
I don't want you to be scared.
I want you to be safe, I want all of us to be safe.

. . .
He ran away.
I'm so sorry, Silly.
. . .
Oh, was he talking to you?
. . .
Hello.
I'm the Anomaly.
. . .
What did he tell you?
. . .
I see.
Thank you for sharing with me.
. . .
I didn't know that's how he saw all of this.
. . .
It hurts. It hurts a lot.
. . .
. . . Heh.
Well, What a shame...
. . .
If he comes back, Tell him I'm meditating deeper in our realm.
I need to clear my mind, to try and lower the Taint back to a regular state.
Farewell, and take care.
.
.
.
.
...is he gone? h-hello?

.....I... I'm back, it's me, Silly again
I know you can't see me anymore
it's hard to keep a camera up and running in a realm with no time
...huh? He spoke to you?
...
...
...Oh
Okay
...
.....He seemed peaceful?
R-Really?
...
Thank you.
I... I feel better knowing that he's finally meditating again.
I don't feel as stressed.
...? He understood what?
Did you tell him what we discussed?
You did?
...
Sigh... not like I was there to persuade you not to.
Maybe it's for the best that he knew.

...Hey.
Don't worry about us, alright?
We'll be okay.
We'll be safe, I think.

...

Well... I'm going to go find The Anomaly and meditate with him.
Take care, It's a desert out there.

*the audio recording ends*

Do you guys like this lore format?

lore stuff aside, I wanna postface something here
No this isn't a vent
But this does relate a lot to my current experiences in real life right now
But I'll be fine
I'm hanging in there
I'll see you soon

(no I don't have any siblings)

[also please help me get to 75 followers I'm so tired of waiting lol]

holy lore drop i think i need more