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@STARYZX meow
i published this in feb im kinda reuploading it because it still applies to me

cute

you

hi

ive been crying im sad

@heIIoworld why

i dontknow

im lonly no one talks to me

bad things happened today

@heIIoworld oh

dude get online

why

i dont think anyone cares

@heIIoworld why

im hurting myself more

.

@heIIoworld dont

i care ok

because what do i really do for anyone i feel useless i want to end it

i know kayy doesnt actually like me either she is pretending

all my online friends dont like me that much my irl friends ignore me and hurt me and i dont see my family and laci is getting too busy for me now,so who do i really have

no.one wants me anymore and i dont do anything so i think i should die

i think i made you mad goodbye

@heIIoworld how??

dont die pls

i literally was helping my mom with groceries

how what

i make everyone angry at me when i talk about how i feel i am just selfish and self centered i only care abour myself

@heIIoworld you arent selfish

i am

im just worried, you say no one cares when ive still sticked with you through those times

theres no reason for me to be alive

@heIIoworld nope, i do this too sometimes

theres a lot actually

idk why u did

most people here want me to die im a horrible person

@heIIoworld because i care for everyone no matter what
you shouldnt do anything to yourself especially when your arm is broken

@heIIoworld thats because most people here are immature. while you have done pretty bad stuff i dont think it warrants death threats

u care for everyone theres nothing about me in particular that makes u want to keep me around

no one actually likes me anymore

@heIIoworld honestly youre just special, you arent afraid of being cancelled or anything thatd make you lose popularity and we actually talk often unlike most of my other friends (discord ... i cant really use it)
also bunny

@heIIoworld thats a lie ok

no one liked me in the first Place whenever i feel like someone genuinly cares i just get used by them

i,made a 18 plus account on aliexpress they sell scalpels for 50 pence i dulled all my oters so,im buying new ones

i dont even nedd to cut myself to use them all i do is put it gently on my skin and a small cut appears i cant wait to use,them full pressure on me

im going to go for my inner thigh and neck

@heIIoworld dude.

youre gonna get paralysed and stuff i cant even think of it

no ill die

riley you really dont have to do this

inner thigh is vital spot with artleries in it if they get cut youll most likeley bleed out way before medical help can get to you

@heIIoworld dont say that please

im not a good person so i want to

ive been with you since january i dont want our friendship to end so sudden

@heIIoworld you have a girlfriend, a few other friends, and me
i was literally jealous of you for a while

if i was completely a bad person i wouldnt do people the favour of removing myself but i think doing this will make people happier so its me being generous

why were you jealous of me what do i have that someone else wants

@heIIoworld art skills, pets, a gf, basically what i want

i feel like a really horribke person for ventng you dont understand the guilt i should stop

@heIIoworld you arent being generous you're just dying at a cheaper price

u have better art skills than me and u have a boyfriend and u can get pets when youre older

@heIIoworld no you arent , i can deal with it

@heIIoworld yea but i still dont have that much talent

wanna just play roblox to get your mind off of all this stuff

ur better at drawing i donthave any talents i cant do anything everything about me is just a waste

i dont do anything im a waste of money and id be better off dead i dont deserve anything not even a funeral i think itd be best if i ****** myself then my body was burnt in a dump

@heIIoworld i feel like that too but we have to understand everyone has something specific about them that others want

@heIIoworld just dont die you have WAYYY too much to live for

im gonna go on the game now you can join

im sorry

goodbye

im back

i dont have anything to live for tho

i want to hurt myself more i ruin everything

@heIIoworld you do

js dont

we can play now

like what i dont even have my family really or any friends

im scared to stay alive i dont want to

@heIIoworld dont have that mindset

youre my only friend i dont have any others

your pets will miss you #ok i will too

i want to draw but i cant because im a useless **** who,should be ****** i wish someone would stab my brain and gouge my eyes out and rip my body to pieces i cant,do anything im so useless

im so useless oh my god

i want to pull my skin off

can we play now im scared