Surmounting the past few weeks, almost over a month now, the harassment and awful things said about/toward me have really played a card in the effects of my mental health, and yes while I understand I kind of deserved it for being a nosey piece of cr**, it doesn't negate the other things im going through that i DO NOT deserve.

Those things being the cr** i had to deal with back in the beginning of the pandemic with my psychotic emotional abuser, the lingering effects that had on me (no longer affects me anymore but i bring it up because this is where i first started having thoughts of death), and most recently my demonic neighbor driving us to move out of this death trap of a condo complex

I never talk about it because i dont want to lol, but also because i dont wanna look like im trying to gain sympathy

But here i am tonight.

I've developed a case of PTSD from loud (irl) banging noises, and depression that has been building up for several years now

People tell me to get off CL, and now im starting to consider it.

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE the community I have built. I love all of you and the support you've shown to me, and it was most certainly a major morale boost that i needed.

But today, art doesn't feel like an escape anymore. It just feels meaningless in an odd sense i cannot explain to you.

Just to be clear, im not really "quitting" anytime soon, but the moment my life advances and i start putting myself out there by graduating, getting a job, starting a youtube channel and what-not, im ending my CL journey, because this place has brought me nothing but strife and frustration for as long as i've been active.

Once that day comes, I'll announce it right then and there so all of you can still keep up with me outside of this awful platform.

Aside from this, Artwork will begin to slowly cease from here on out, as well as regular posting. I'll try and stick around to chat, but I've reached my FRICKING limit with this site, and im tired of dealing with people who just want to put me down all because their opinions matter more than mine.

I've got more important things in my life to deal with right now than losers on an art social media platform

I'm too numbed and frustrated to even bother with the idea to introduce AKA ONI or do more Lucky and Friends stuff here, so im going to politely and respectfully ask you not to ask me to do anymore content related to those. I'll do it on my own time and terms.

I'm not gonna bother burning or rebuilding any bridges either, im too fed up with myself to try.
I'm giving up.

I've been pushed past my limit, and i can't go any further.

Well done. You've broken me. I hope you're happy with yourselves.
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hey, i hope you're okay. I'm very sorry about such things happening to your life outside and inside cl. I really really want to say that, feel free to take a break or maybe go and find your comfort zone. Also, you should post some "How to keep in touch" like sharing your socials or something.

@ruustyzthe67guy

all my socials are private, but once i turn 18 i'll make them public

the only way people are probably most likely going to stay in touch with me is on youtube should that day ever come

and instagram but im not sure

i really felt bad for you especially going through uncomfortable things and ptsd (i have some too.) and i really want to hope that those loud noises that traumatizes you should stop. And i hoping that your hellside of your life would come to an end, or maybe your life will change because i can see that you are suffering through these things that you can't handle to yourself.

hmmmm youtube will be okay though. i have one

Again, i'm super sorry about these things happening to you and i hope that these suffering stuff would stop. i'll pray for you twin, ilysm/p my artpalz :heartpulse:

just pray that we move out of this condo into a home thats right for us, thats our main life focus rn

as your art pal, if you need to vent or need some comfort, you should def call me. I do not want my buddies to feel heavy pressure to their life!

and also, that condo you went is actually worse and you need to move into a different place that gives you comfort and peace.

@ruustyzthe67guy hurhur pressure roblox hehehe-

oh yeah, do u still play roblox

ok im going to sleep now, im exhausted

my roblox is also private lol and it's probably gonna stay that way

@CalicoC10V3R thats fineeee also good night, im not gonna sleep

Clearing up the bloat from my page because I can

have I played any part in this... I dont want to hurt people I dont want to prove what my friends think about me please say I havent played a part in this...

@My_DandysWoF24 not your fault dont worry im just getting tired of this unmoderated childish site

okay. thank you I feel a little better now :thumbsup: