I'm not doing well at all by CalicoC10V3R

It's not clinically diagnosed, but i think im most certainly depressed. My self-hatred and anxiety has gone to the point where i see ZERO worth in myself. I wish i could smile and be happy, but i cant, it feels like a lie.
What does this mean for my art? no clue. I'll work on stuff whenever I have the time, just know I DO NOT and CAN NOT enjoy anything I do anymore.
keep me in your prayers, lets hope my life turns around for the better.

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23 Feb, 2026, 8:51 am
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CalicoC10V3R

23 Feb, 2026, 8:55 am

im just so tired each day, i hardly ever wake up happy, and ive been so irritable lately

Kyle-The-Alien

23 Feb, 2026, 11:13 am

ik how u feel my parents dont belive in mental health so-
but yea- it sucks alot i hope u feel better! < 3/p

shadow_

23 Feb, 2026, 10:18 pm

Hey. . . Sorry you're going through all that. I can't imagine being depressed. Sure, i might feel like life's going nowhere or like there's nothing out there for me. Sometimes i overthink at night when i should be sleeping, and my head doesn't work properly the next morning.
But then i remember every birthday card i got, every thank-you, every signal of appreciation. Every hug, every smile, every "I love you!".

Do you have a cat? You need a cat.

You need a fat old cat that loves you :3

shadow_

23 Feb, 2026, 10:22 pm

(anyway)
Then i remember that there are a lot of people in my life that care about me. I remember that my mom says i love you, and my dad compliments what i do, and my brothers actually get along with me half the time. I remember that life is so much more than tomorrow, or next week, or next year.

Life isn't about how your day will go about you. It is about how you will go about your day.
And if you let other people decide that you're going to be upset, remember that emotions can be a choice.

shadow_

23 Feb, 2026, 10:23 pm

There is a song i would like you to listen to. Literally cures depression lol

The song: Goodbye Yesterday by Hillsong Worship

CalicoC10V3R

24 Feb, 2026, 12:26 am

@shadow_ i do have a fat cat hes a goober lol

thank you for all the kind words

also i dont really listen to contemporary christian music TwT

-_Kit-Cat_-

26 Feb, 2026, 3:10 am

ik this isn't the post to say this, but FAT CAT CLUBBB!!!

and isn't DEPRESSION & ANXIETY SO FUN!!
i have anxiety i think

soon i have to spend 4 hours in a room with someone who is gonna ask me questions to see if i have adhd :P
ahhhhhh

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*** bye pookums

-_Kit-Cat_-

26 Feb, 2026, 3:11 am

i said im not ok
kk

-_Kit-Cat_-

26 Feb, 2026, 3:12 am

and goodbye yesterday is by Elevation Rhythm

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