kewl

hey i think i might run away from home, go to brooklyn.

Maybe i'll take @Peanuts_547 along for the journey :/

My family's falling apart and everyone blames me because Mom put words in my mouth.

@Peanut547*

So uh WOW 7 PEOPLE IN MY BLOCKLIST WHAAAAAAAAT NO WAY!!!!!!! It was genuinely so shiny recently i couldn't resist :heart_decoration:

o.o @shadow_ d-do you two need to talk about something? feel free to vent to me here

actually what am i doing i can draw while listening to music wetdwtgswgeteejeyetwetettsrsshhrh

@CalicoC10V3R i would but i don't even know where to start. I feel like me venting is just a form of self-pity. My mom's had numerous medical issues throught her entire life, always says "This house is absolutely trashed.". My dad always comes home tired from work, disappionted to see a messy house. My older brother has narcolepsy, ADHD, and severe anger issues. He hits me all the time- as a joke. Hitting people isn't funny.

My little brother has dyslexia and ADHD. My younger brother is picky, won't eat his food and complains that he's hungry later.
All of my brothers have minial chores. My older brother? It's simple, feed animals, do laundry, finish your homework and watch your little brothers. Easy.
My younger brothers? All they have to do is their homework and picking up every now and then.
Me? I'm the only daughter. My responsibilities are: Dishes, Meals, Floors swept, Counters wiped down, Carpet swept!

@shadow_

geez where do i even begin.
One, as a fellow Christian to another, running away isn't the answer, alright. Just because things are rough now doesn't mean it won't get better later.
Two, I'm DEEPLY sorry you're going through this, but just know you aren't alone.

Three, I'm not sure what to add regarding siblings since i'm an only child so i cant really give any input there

Four, I'd have to assume everyone (including you) is just severely stressed out. Sometimes when i'm stressed out, i take things too far (for example the several friggin dramas i was a part of on cl) and i act rash. maybe everyone's stressed because of your mother's condition? Regardless, I hope all of you will be okay

AAAUUUGGHHHH. All i wanted is for my brothers to have SOME sort of responsibility, but they get away with everything. It's annoying. Mom and Dad got into a fight, and my brother keeps shoving me and stepping on my feet saying "This is all your fault." Like he had nothing to do with this! So i wanna run away. Not forever, just until they learn some appreciation, so like, a month.

Have you tried consulting your pastor about this in private, @shadow_?

two weeks ago i confessed to my pastor about my sųıçıďáł thoughts and the şéxųáł harassment and he helped me through it pretty well

@CalicoC10V3R (lol i pressed ok right after you reponded) Yeah, you're probably right. I mean, this isn't the first time this has happened. It's just the first time it was supposedly my fault.
Also, as for siblings, it's like if you lived with an annoying roommate you couldn't punch (even though you may want to lol) that occasionally comes into your room, farts, turns the light on and leaves the door open. Then you hear the yelling: "MOOOM SO AND SO IS ON THIER SWITCH!!!"

All in all, it is a SEVERELY dangerous world out there, @shadow_, and running away would only amplify the problem, not make it better. Someone could kidnap you or worse...
for my sake, could you just try hanging on a bit longer? maybe try praying to God to help you get through this?

Also everyone around my church would immediately tell my mom and then i'm in BIG trouble.

Also i know all the pastors in my church, any they probably think i'm perfectly fine. The only person i'd tell is my chat group leader, bc you can write down a prayer request and put it in this little box no talking required :3

and yea it's really bad out there

my plan for self-defense? KNOIFE

@shadow_ in regards to that, I usualoy personally ask my pastor if the conversation could just be kept between the two of us

frig my grammar

usualoy lol

Hey Apple!
what?
k n i f e

i don't think i'll run away now tho

i'm always thinking everytime this happens "Yeah, i'm fed up. FED. UP. I'm running away TO. NIGHT. Yep, I'm doing it."
Also me the next day: "yea i'm pretty dumb. That was a dumb idea. What was i thinkng? i am insane. The cats would wonder where i'm at."
seriously tho i ALWAYS flake out :/
I did have a friend tho whose sister ran away and she was caught a couple days later

NO. NOOOOOO

How could you summon that voice from my memory bro TwT

noise...
oh i hear a voice...
Say...
Would you like... TO PLAY?!
COME WITH ME
WE'LL KEEP ON ZOOMIN
WHY NOT SPREAD YOUR ARMS AND FLY
YOU KNOW YOU HAVEN'T GOT A THING TO FRET CUZ
IM RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE
I ALWAYS SEEK
AND YOU NEVER HIDE
WHATS WRONG NOW YOURE LOOKING GRIM
NOT SEEN A HEDGEHOG WITH THOSE EYES
MIGHT IT BE YOUR OLD PAL SONICS
HARD FOR YOU TO RECOGNIZE
IF YOU THINK A FAKES THE ONE WHOS SINGIN
ILL REMIND YOU THAT YOU MIGHT BE
FORGETTING JUST A THING

sorry im listening to churgney gurgney subterfuge y4ufjfnesghfysgrydctd3

kewl

aight ima go listen to linkin park baiiii