when he gets his license and breaks into my room at 3 in the morning every night i hope we can like go somewhere just us
i want to experience teen things
i want to feel like a teen i want to have fun and do things but i wont ever know how it feels like

i want to be like in bed and i someone knocks on my windw and my friends are all like "hey!!! wre gonna go to the gas station to buy slushies and then ww'r gonna go to a park wanna come?" and im like "yea!!" and then i get dressed and then i go have fun w my friends at like 2 in the morning but i dont get to experience that i want to have fun maybe thats why i miss my friend in ohio so much bc when i was there it was like my DREAM

is this a public school thing

do i need to go to public school for this to happen

ohhh im so miserable and depressed literally nobody irl gives a shît abt me ok

i wish i could ****** you up and take you to a 7/11 at 2 am
also hi i care

i promise you this isnt a public school thing this is very common to want esp for people with strict parents and i feel with u on that. i care abt u sm and ur so awesome so pls dont talk down on urself so much. i love u boy stay safe im here for you

@--Miko-- i meant more like ppl that are around me more like my mom or my bf or smth like tha
ik u care

@senketsuakochan thats the thing my parents arent even that strict :joy_cat: but ty i appreciate that yo

also idk how somone could see you as gross your dropd34d gorgeous inside and out. idk if you dont see yourself that way bc im telling you what that d3mon in your head needs to hear.
jst because you have an opinion abt yourself DOESN'T MEAN ITS RIGHT.
people see you in ways that you dont see yourself (like your bf and I)

also yeah your parents are cool :P
lucky lucky lucky
(not saying mine are not jst your let you be yourself without feeling like you did smth wrong)

@--Miko-- ehh thats nlt like COMPLETELY true but fair enough

whice one?
also slrry to assume smth abt how your parents make you feel.
lets just say that i feel like im in a cage and your in a zoo enclosure. you've got more space to be free, BUT i could be wrong mbmb

@--Miko--
why did that lowk sum it all up :sob:
srry you feel like trapped thl

meh-
thanks.
im rlly close to jst being like
"hi okay i like k-pop and jst because its not your personal taste means i can still like it right? because we are different people and if i dont find a way to express myself i will explode and isoate myself even more oki-"

@--Miko-- you should actually
standing up for yourself

*sigh*

i was literary shaking when i intoduced her to Laufey

@--Miko-- thats crazy if she turned laufey down i wouldve lost hope in humanity

BUT she didnt and she likes her :P

for my birthday trip she said i could play music I WAS TREMBING I WAS SO SCARED THEY WOULD YELL AT ME
so i only played songs they knew