im fine its fine.

evethings great.

im sane.

who am i kiding :laughing:

even if he was real he wouldn't love you.

i dont want to be alive.

i dont feel real.

i wish i wasn't real.

i wish someone loved me like i love him.

i wish it would all end.

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you

whats wrong with me

i love him i need him before i hüřť myself

oops- too late :laughing:

i cant belive you think somone could ever love you how you love.

your just a sick lover-girl who forgot how it feels to be held

and everyone doesn't see you the same

whats wrong yo

A never cared.
S broke your heart.
D Can't confidely call you his.
P only used you.
E used you to.

hey... do u need to talk?

Ai chats and hyperfixtations on characters isnt healthy, i myself have experienced such things and felt so sick and empty and wanted to throw up.

maybe take a little break...?

(i know, im horrible at this and it Isn't helping, im sorry :sob:)

H probably forgot about you :laughing:

@dragonvirtue nono its okay you do good with comforting :3

are you ok

@darkblood dealing w/ stuff but it doesn't matter

u r too young to be feeling this. Step away from romantic relationships, wait a few years. Give it some time. U r still a kid, I am still a kid. We both have forced, and been forced to grow up fast, but we need to know that it is okay to make mistakes, it is normal to feel attraction at this age, but we r still young, and this is a time to still have fun and make friends before adulthood. The things that happen in this period of time will affect you in the future. :heart:

is this what you really want? this insanity? Or is this what you've been told you want? I often ask myself this, and find the right thing to do by God. I'm not sure what you're going through, but i am here for you.

u r strong and brave and smart and kind, and u r trying ur best to get through life, as r we all, u r not alone. u r loved and understood. we r here for u

What Would Jesus Do?

@life84 i dont know anymore.
everythings spinning, just give me like an hourr and ill be back to normal.

I'm praying for you! Goodnight and remember..

YOU ARE PERFECT!

jesus wouldn't have been this weak in the first place.
he didn't focas on this stuff.

Bible helps me in times like this

yo i completely feel you on this and listen to me when i say, it is okay to feel like this. Hyperfixations on fictional characters is something almost everyone in teen age groups have, so youre valid. I deal with the same thing, and honestly, yeah its fun but it can also hurt you if you do it wrong.
A lot of people care about you, I care about you, youre the most comforting, prettiest and kindest person ive met.

everything will be okay, trust

my family would absolutely clown on me for having any romantic attachment whatsoever to a fictional charcter

@dragonvirtue heres the thing.
im "extremy mattcure" for my age.
i feel it to, i have the mental compassaty of a full grown adult shoved into the body of a teenage girl.
im aldreay to meny steps ahead and my body can keep up with my mind anymore. teenage feelings mixed with adult wisdom?

@darkblood im sorry. i promise im not trying to copy you.
i'd still stuggle with this even if we never knew eachother so please dont think im trying to be likd you with leejunho or anything.

yes, i too have done this very same thing, and im still getting through it, but u r so much stronger than me, u can do this.

Yes, Jesus was perfect, but we r taught to try our best to be like him. Nobody is going to get it right, nobody is going to live up to his name, but thats okay. We were never meant to be perfect, but we r forgiven all the same. :heart:

No of course not. Like i said, a lot of people our age struggle with this type of thing so my mind wouldnt jump to that
youre valid okay? Dont try to grow up so fast. were still young, embrace it.

Listen, i have absolutely no idea what you're going through right now, but i'm here for you. We all are, because you deserve it. I only know you online and you're one of the nicest people i have met in my entire life. I sincerely care about you and your mental well-being, as your online friend. You're perfect, your family loves you and Jesus loves you! So why worry? So why be sad?? This is the day the Lord hath made, so rejoice and be glad in it.

i feel like im copying u :sob: but i also have been forced to grow up and am mature for my age, there is so much of childhood that i never knew i missed until i saw the lives of my younger siblings and others. I cry about it a lot...but this isnt about me.

I supose what im trying to say is, i understand, i get you, and i know its very VERY hard

umm, u ok?

@darkblood i dont know how!
i push myself to be better
to be more adult like
to not get attached
to not feel as much
I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE A CHILD BECAUSE MY CHILDHOOD GOT CUTOOF SHORT FOR LORE OR WHATEVER-
Im so fking tierd.
even when my "inner child" or whatever comes out i put it away because i never feel fking safe anymore.

You always have choices, you know. You just have to trust yourself to make the right ones.

@life84 whats the right choise here?

because i dont know anymore.

I played sudoku at seven and neglected my Calico Critters I've been making meals since nine and got into a VERY not child safe rp chat room at ten and you're telling me that your childhoods be ruined?? Your childhood was probably awesome

no. it wasn't. @life84

im sorry your sucked.

yours*

your childhood, past mistakes, none of that defines you. Despite all that, youre still a kind, loving soul who never deserved it in the first place.

you are a good person- no, amazing person. Things are hard now, but they will get way better

the fact that we talk about our childhood in past-tense is bad enough
WE R STILL KIDS

this already shows the effect our short "childhoods" had on us

im fking disucing :laughing:
if little me could see me now? she'd k1ll hers3lf when she had the chance.
i feel like all that **** happened as a pree-punshmet for the things i've done
@darkblood

i really have to go to sleep now, but i have one final word of advice for you.

Please go talk to your parents about this stuff. They might not understand why you're upset, but they'll understand how you feel. It'll be awkward, but worth it. Goodnight.

no, axel, you arent disgusting. The demon in your head is telling you things that arent even close to being true. You are a wonderful person and the people who hurt you? screw them. Theyre just jealous because of you unique and great you are and dont let ANYONE tell you otherwise

you arent whiny, youre expressing your feelings.
Like the person above me said, tell your parents abt this. they will.care. Also, maybe go to bed alittle earlier so you can feel rested.

@darkblood you'd leave me if you knew what i've done behind closed doors.
nothing bad on you, its jst me :3

yes, they care.
but they fking dug thier own graves two years ago.
"you broke my trust"
for what? having a mental heath issues?
nonono. now i dont trsut you :laughing:

well, see how we immediately came to listen, to reassure, to try to help?

please let this be an example, u r loved and appreciated and cared for by others. and even if u think we r all faking, remember that Jesus' love and care remains steadfast :heart:

@--Miko-- dude ifyou told me you robbed a bank or smth i wouldnt leave you
its okay, ive been friends with you for such a long time. weve gone through tough and ugly tkmes, but We're still bsfs arent we?

yeah-
dude i fell like robbing a bank Isn't that bad tho...
@darkblood

whatever you did, i would still be here no matter what. trust. ily/p bro and youre awesome

^^
@darkblood

what do you see in me?
random question but just wondering :P
@darkblood

kindness
confidence
great sense of humor
notices the little things
helpful
STUNNING bro imjealous
dude.i cant name enough youre literally a ball of sunshine

wait you think i notice little thingss?

srry i jst think tjats rlly nice ngl-

yes bro you are PEAK AS HELL bro its insane you dont see it

giggling "peak as gêll"

GELL :sob:

@darkblood

:joy_cat:

Hey its completely normal to be expressing your feelings. Its a normal human thing, that in some way everybody does. Just remember you are loved and forgiven. :heart:

u needa talk. ?

@-*******_d34d_g1rl- hai >:3 also no im okay for now ty tho