god knows exactly what you need at everytime, he knows how to provide for you. hes not trying to take people out of your life for no reason he has a reason! he knows the pain it will bring, and thats why hes by your side the whole time. jesus cried too. he hurt too. with the pain youve been feeling wont even compare to the laughter he will bring you. he gives back twice as much and more. all the pain is worth it i promise. i know from so much experience. stay strong babe god has you always.