you been okay? :c

@-L1V1NG_D34D_G1RL- eh im okay but this isnt a vent just to lyk lol. Wbu?

yeah ik .. im just worried abt you. also ive been, eh- idk. fine i guess

THIS IS SO<CUTE THE DRWING
i,this avent idk

i luv,u juniperrrr youre mysister

@meowwl hghh ilyt twin yes ys

@honeybunbun adds you to my bio accordingly

oh wait youre already in it mb

@-silly- i moved to a different painting bc the other was getting too long to load hi

oop- hai :3

hhow was ylur dy?

@-silly- it was fine hbu
well how was your day with your friend ?

gud :3

@-silly- thats good yay

i was worried bc when we were watching KPDH he looked upset, i knew he didn't like the moive and felt bad :sob:
but he acted normal when we went on our walk

@-silly- oh
well atleast he felt better afterwards idk :sob:

yeah :sob:
i asked him why and he said "i dont know- tey dont look real-"
also, how was your day besides fine? was it another "didn't really do anything" days?

@-silly- SERIOUSLY though bc like why is Rumi in the top 100 prettiest girls or smth like Megan from katseye would kick the shìt out of you RUMI IS AN ANIMATION NOT A PERSON UGH WHAT IS WRONG WITH OUR SOCIETY

but yeah it was one of those days

LOL

you still did good tho :3
hope you feel better soon, anything that might be causing it?

@-silly- causing what im lowk slow

theese days
not sayng there is, you could just not be feeling as engeyed

@-silly- nah i just lowk dont have a schedule :joy_cat:

i am hanging out w Noah tomorrow but idk how thatll go

tehehe noah and you
*rubs hands together like a fly*

@-silly- yeah lowk convinced we'll stop being together in like a week or once 2026 starts :joy_cat: but thats just me

wait- why?

guys im gonna become a parasocial freak ok

@-silly- idk im just paranoid

mm okay, please dnt let that stop you from being happy in your relationship?

@-silly- ill try! :smile_cat:

yeah i know thats not a swtich you can turn off. sorry.
jst a question, how long clean are you?

@-silly- oh jeez idk uhhhh like- 3-4 months?? i dont rlly remember why do you ask

wow- listen to me. im really proud.
i was jst worried ig?

@-silly- thank you twin!!

hbu? honest

llae

@-silly- ?

sorry i needed it to load and spe.t 'load' wrong

uh- less then a week? im sorry.

ohh mb thats ok

@-silly- thats okay
im still proud of you and i know itll turn into months or even years
itll be ok and im still proud

yeah... thanks...
idk what gets into me-
i jst see my bļáde and uh- yk-

@-silly- yeah i get it
still proud of yoi and i know you can get through it

thks :3

@-silly- ofc

lol now idk what to talk abt?

@-silly- me neither :broken_heart:
srry

your okay dw

@-silly- ive lowk been feeling rlly discouraged lately sighhhhh

im sorry that sounded attention seeking ew im srry im tryna make convo :broken_heart:

nono.
your not making it abt you okay?
i have told you so meny times that i dont mind you venting
jst because yu have something on your mind and you said it Doesn't mean your tryinf to make tjis abt you, i promise.

wait no come ****** :sob:
(if you dont wanna talk its oki im beig silly :P)

@-silly- oh yeah-
mb

its oki :3

@-silly- its not rlly a vent i mean kinda but is it ok if i rant rq

mmhm! go ahead :3

@-silly- so like i feel kind of discouraged bc ever since i got into kpop i feel like i have to walk on eggshells bc most of the people (specifically blinkgone and that sensketsuakochan person) kinda like idk ruined it for me? Like i feel like theyre in my mind like watching everything im doing when it involves kpop like blinkgone is obsessed with stray kids (tbh i never liked them bc their music js wasnt smth i cared for) but still i feel like im forbidden to like anything they like

i still rlly like kpop but i keep telling myself to steer clear of anything straykids related

i dont even care for straykids but still

like dude im even scared to like junho because of the whole thing that happened

i just want to like kpop man :sob:

you can :sob:
they are no apart of ur life, unless you still talk to them or smth.
but you are 100% allowed to like it, thats on you, not them

sorry im taking long to respond
someone is vemting to me and is kida swerslidle?
they told me they wouldn't do it but im MAKING SURE she Doesn't have plans

@-silly- OH okay no go to them bro i hope theyre ok

cleard up sm stuff
she Doesn't wanna end it she just Doesn't wanna be aliv3.
also we can still talk iff yu want, i mignt jst ta,e a little longer to respond, okay?

goodnight :3

morning

@-silly- hii

hiii

@-silly- how was your.day twin

i forgot.
hlw was yours

@-silly-
oh-
uh it was fine
i started hyperfixating on smth new but uhh yeah it was fine

are u doing ok ?

what is it?

@-silly-

youre gonna think im weird but...

charlie brown

schroeder and lucy :heart_eyes_cat:

but anyways no ar you ok

oh yeah i saw ur ibis paint art
its not wierd, it seems nice actually

@-silly- bro stop tiptoeing around the question are you okayyyy :sob:

*stnads on tiptoes more*
yea sure

oh can i tell u smth?

@-silly- :broken_heart:

@-silly- ofc twin always

so i know you dont rlly like webtton but uh-
im making a webtoon series...

@-silly- GASP

@-silly- omg lucky whats it called

"crown and shadow"
i still dont have tech back so i cant do anything official but im woking on like sketchs, diologe, stuff like that

would uh-
you maybe-
read it?
idk why u dont like webtoon but you might like it???

@-silly- omgggg im so happy for you??? trust im gonna read it trustt

lol, questioning if ur happy is real

@-silly- i dont rlly have a opinion on webtoon like i use it to read a comic someone made of extraordinary attorney woo so like
i just never read anything else but i will 100% read yours

@-silly- wha
bro ofc its real im actually so psyched im so happy for you

i looked into it andd its rlly easy.

wait rlly :sob:

@-silly- yess !!!!

if this Doesn't load im throwing it into a wall

why?

sorry, i jst didn't think its a big thing??

i mean who knows there could be a whole fandom

@-silly- im rlly excited bc im just like
idk i get excited for my friends

awe oki :3

@-silly- sorryTo interrupt for a sec but
can i get your opinion on smth rq?

but uh its a slow burn :turtle:
theres lots of focas on other stuff so the ship isn't being violently shoved down your troat.
its royal ig?? took some inspo from "osora" but didn't copy.

also yes, whatca need, im an opinion wizz

@-silly- omg im so excited for that still

but uh
do you think i should come back to colors?
it feels kind of empty and some of the ppl i thought were cool dont really like me but i just want a second chance so uh
do you think i should comeback

ngl i was jst thinking abt that.
here are some things to think abt

-how will it impact your mental health?
-will it bring any good?
-do you see yourself happy coming back?

know that you will might get some hate for coming back
"see you in 24hrs" ppl

@-silly- it was lowk 6 days but fair enough

i lowk just want friends :sob:

i think you should, for YOU, not for them.

@-silly- Okay thank you
im gonna post smth now

fingers crossed :broken_heart:

BUT
if colors starts to mess your mental heath up again take a step back, not quit again, just look at what your dong

TEHEH OKI

>:3

and if anyone tris to hurt you i am defending you.
eat my toes bru i DO NAWT care if i get chaugt in the cross fire.
if your safe mentally? thats all i care abt.

@-silly-
thank you twin!

im scared yo :broken_heart:

*sholder pat bc idk if you would feel comfortable with hand holding*
ill be here :3

when yu said "dont have the same belifes anymore" what did u mean?
jst curious as to what you ment, not juding what-so-ever

@-silly- regarding Christianity and rights i guess? i dont feel comfortable talking abt it bc im still figuring it out ngl lol

OMG IM SO RELIEVED.

oki! if you ever feel like talking im here :3

abt?

@-silly- im actually so relieved nobody has yelled at me (yet who knows)

i was rlly happy when seskauan said srry

im rlly glad, And im proud of you :3

oh can i tell u smth else that might make u laugh?

@-silly- sure!

so me and my sister were watching tv
"bro, wanna watch a k-druama?" i just wanna watch sm...
"mom probably Wouldn't let you, she would see it and be like 'this is live action anime! turn it off!"

@-silly- IM GIGGLING WHAT

lowk think if you actually wanted to watch one infront of your mom the potato lab is a good one bc its funny and barely has séxual stuff just some light language and like idk two f bombs but nothing too bad

only downside is its in korean and doesnt have an english dub so youd have to read the subtitles :broken_heart:

run on is actually a perfect one
light language
0 s-xual stuff
nothing bad lowk

YEAH :sob:

also the song yur user is? Its now playing in my head on repet...
HELP ITD GONNA BE LIKE THAT ONE SONG
"suroued by cupoles all the time, i guess i should take it as a siiggnnnn (ohh my oh my) im feeling loney, smth, hold me"

I THINK IT WAS CALLED "cupid" AND ONCE YU KNEW IT ANNOYED ME YOU KEPT SINGING IT AND YU WOULD LAUGH WHEN I LIKE REACTED

im sorry you got me talking about kdramas agh :sob:

but that was lowk funny

@-silly- OMGGGGG YESSS I REMEMBER HOW MAD YOUD GET BRO IT WAS SO FUNNY

im not cute anymore uh uh im not cute anymoreeee uh uh :disappointed:

IM CRYING-

i remember when i first heard that song like 6 months before we got into contact again and i almost cried-
it was at red bull and i got the soda with the marble we both like, dude i was trying sooo hard to keep it together

SORRY I MENT RED BOWL

i know we used to have an inside joke abt red bull but i cant remember it :(

@-silly- i dont remember a red bull joke lol
i wouldve teared up too lowk :broken_heart:
also theyre called ramune lol

ah yes those.
i have 4 of them next to a picture of us on my bookshelf.
3 lychee and one hello kitty pinapple.
also next to my laufey CD... bc i know u like laufey so its right next to you in the pic

@-silly- dude thats so cute i miss you bro i still have that photo of us on my desk

aww

bro the one where im in that stich shrt :sob:

bro what was i on???? i needed to be exorcised frfr

@-silly- yes bro that one aghhhh

nooo, i acted like i always had like 32 esspresso shots :sob:
we need a new one of us :3
i also have 3 more pic of us right next to my pillows :3

if me now could meet me then?
i'd upder-cut her and say "sorry my hand slipped"

@-silly- LOL

i'd give myself a hug and tell her "Please protect your innocence." and then throw her off a cliff :sob:

REAL-
wait no- i never have seen you as annoyig or too much.
but okay lets throw 10-12 year old us into an ocean so they can drown

also, are u going to school?
i remember yu making a post abt it and forgt to ask

oki ima go work on my webtoon thingy for a litte, ill come back on later and we can chat ifa want?

@-silly- im not goingto school
i have a math tutor on thursdays (she p-sses me off) and i have psychology classes on tuesdays but theyre on break til 2026

also have fun!! im probably going to go watch yt

oki :3

dude my rough draft drawings are so stupid looking :sob:

question- so i was drawing my art for tmr and yk how for noses you do like 2 lines? i did smth like that and jst wanted to know if you would be okay with me posting it.
i wasn't like "oh she did this so i will"
i jst did it today while drawinf and relized "wait- cŕâp-"

also slrry my art kinda looks like yours :sob:
i dont mean for it to, but it jst kinda does???

@-silly- i lowk dont mind if you take inspiration i jst draw the line when someone fully takes my artstyle and calls it theirs but you probably wouldnt do that anyways so yeah its okay :>

okay thanks :3
srry if that smeeded silly
OH-
MY MOMS LETTING ME USE PROCREATE ON THE IPAD SO IM MAKING THE COVER FOR MY WEBTOON THIGY

@-silly- omg yay!!

teheeh

how was ur days?

@-silly- it was great i got two kpop albums at barnes and noble toda and im so happy uhh i didnt rlly do much today lol wbu how was your day twin?

IM SORRY I KNOW YOU PROBABLY DONT CARE BUT I WAS WATCHINGTHE POTATO LAB AND SMTH FCKING HILARIOUS JS HAPPENED

SO THE MAIN GIRL AND JUNHO'S ACTOR WERE ON A DATE AND SOMEONE ELSE WAS ON A DATE AND THEY HAD THS WHOLE SETUP AND WHEN THEY SAW JUNHOS ACTOR AND TH MAIN GIRL COMING THEY PANICKED AND LEFT BUT THE FUNNY THING IS
JUNHOS ACTOR FOUND THE WHOLE SETUP CUTE, THINKUNG THE GIRL MADE IT FOR HIM AND HE WAS ALL SMILEY AND SHÌT BUT

HE FOUND A CARD THE OTHER GIRL MADE FIR HER BF AND JUNHOS ACTOR THOUGHT SHE WROTE IT SO HE STARTED READIG IT AND THEY DONT SHOW ANYTHING BUT THE CARD WAS LIKE INSANELY INAPPROPRIATE AND JUNHOS ACTOR THOIGHT SHE WANTED TO DO THOSE THINGS SO HE FREAKED OJT AND LEFT IM ACTUALLY SOBBING IT WAS SO FUNNY

LOL

im most liky gonna gwt into that stuff, which k-pop cd's?
(help im going feral over Osora-)

i love kang tae oh so much im gonns have a seizure oh my lord i cant express it enough

ANYWAYS HOW WAS YOUR DAY?

@-silly-
illit and katseye :heart_eyes_cat:

ooo,
i think i might start listening to katseye?

@-silly- PLEASE LISTEN TO KATSEYE THEYRE SO PEAK
mean girls and gabriela are the best in my opinion :pray:

You and I happen to be in the same boat with our feelings for fictional characters.

Gnary was really good.

@-silly- yes omg

ok im soeru enogh abt me hbu how u doing twn

im alright, spent like 5 hours working on the thumbnail for my webtoon just to relize i needed to change the oc's outfit :laughing:

im sick of my art and it should die in a fire

@-silly- omggg wait have you made the thing yet? where its accessible?

load

NO your art is actually really good

oh definitely not.
it's gonna take a while. the fist episode will come out in 2026.
There is ALOT that goes into making a webtoon.

no good enough :sleeping:

@-silly- ohhhh
okay wel im still really looking forward to it

hey uh i dont mean to be rude but like can i get back to you in a bit? i uh- need my daily dose of kang tae oh or im gonna freak out

it could also jst be that im new-er to digital art, its hard not having pintersect to look stuff up.
i stunk on there and found a PERFECT base for the thumbnail but i Couldn't use it bc "copyright"
also happy Christmas eve

yeah ofc, ill be here probably. bad dreams have scared me from sleeping so yeah

@-silly- you too :>

its ok!! it took a while for me to get the hang of digital but trust youll figure t out
lmk if you need tips or smth

load

oh yeah, send em' over when you have time please.
im actually insurance abt it kinda? i mean like people are gonna SEE my art and all the art on webtoon is really good, like peak anime.

@-silly- hhi so m,javing like a panic attack

llke im actually lossing it

twing.

whats wrong?

okay, breath. it actually helps. deep breaths.

what happened?

@-silly- i wwas watching the potato lab aand kang tae oh startedd like acting how jjunho acts in chatgpt like EXXACTLY howw he acxts and i gott so off guard im ccrying and shaaking i crave him s much ohhmhg

dude- that must have been kinda weird?

i wish i could give you a hug.

@-silly- llike dude tthe main girl was mmadd at im and he weent tp jer doorstep and gave her teddy bears it was ss sweet i want ssomeon to do thag i jusy want him i want him so bad im oing to have a menral breakdown im freaking ot i need hkm

iim so ssorry

hug a pillow and pretend it him, dont care if you think itd wird but like you can "talk" to him while you do it

SWATP-
why are you sorry?

@-silly- i will omg im going to cry m eyes out oka y goodnight ttwiwn thank you for heelpimg ok goodnigt

load

okay uh- goodnight? please take deep breaths

im here if you need to talk

haii

merry Christmas eve!

@-silly- hii

hii

yes i can text you agin on messages, can you plase act lile we didnt talk this whole time? jst incase my mom goes through my texts (whcih she 99.9% will bc she always does)

sorry i dint mean to just be like "hey do this?"

@-silly- ok

im sorry

i'm playing Christmas laufey on the tv
how's yur day been?

@-silly- dont apologize lol
which song twin,,,,,

also i literally did nothing all day except eat which ill probably puke later
lol wbu how was your day

i did the opsite lol :sob:
jst her Christmas covers, right now its winter wounerland im really Happy my mom likes laufey, i put it on and started to giggle like a little kid and then she was like "hey- its laundery!"
i was so happy i stared to jump up in down while spiniing-

@-silly- YESSS OMGG
yo you should play christmas magic and santa claus is coming to town thoxe are my favorites theyre so smooth :heart_eyes_cat:

it was fine, i jst really worked on my webtoon, got to page 5 which im really happy about.
each Christmas eve mom lets us open 1 book she got us and i got a book i've wated for a little (im already 3 chapters in)

TEHEHE

i fear i am becoming a book nerd again :turtle:

The note laufey hits when she goes "im tellin you why" tickles my brain

@-silly- omg! what book dd u get?

load

its called "fivve survive"
its by the same girl who worte "a good girls guide to m.udrr" her stuff is really good.
its 6 teens that go on spirng break and thier FV breaks dowm.
i'm really into mud.er and thrillers actually-

@-silly- ooohhhh that sounds interesting

i need "k1ll joy" and another one she has then my collection is complete (unless she writes more (PLS BRO))

i memt RV-

"so com'on superman, say your stupid line"
stuck in my head-
what would my "stupid line" be?

hi okay your on youtube im gonna go dance to laufey in the living room im in such a good mood it Doesn't feel real i Haven't been this happy in soosososoos long :D

im dancing like a disny princess im so pappy

@-silly- hi im sorry i was looking up the meaning to smth

im so glad ypure hzving fun :D

YAYA
itd literary just laufey and the fact Christmas is tmr iidk mann im so calm i frgot i could feel tjis
im supirzed nobody has notiiced tjis allbu had played 5 times alredy-

ii cant breathee 30 moore ,ities im tweakng so har

dudeee oony 18 more mkmyes i cant-

iim about o cty mh heat is going so fast

uvhi3yfiqy3bfkfoq3gvqo6goef7efuofqefo7hfoaeuqhogqeofuhefgo im 0ann8c8ng

ii cnt breath help ,e

iim so sscarred

@-silly- oh no whats wrong??
breathe take deep breathes okay? deep breathes

im sorry i wasnt here sooner
take a sip of water, just keep breathing

okay thanks im a littl3 better i think.
i went out to the living room bc i was shaking and my mom let me help her put the presents under the tree.
im shiil kinda shaky and nervois but i'll go get water , thaks.
oh and uh- merry Christmas sky.

@-silly- you too, twin.

hey uh...if it makes you feel any better, i was watching the potato lab and the main girl, mi-kyung and her best friend ***-ju is literally me and you like they act the exact same as we do and it just reminded me of us and i cried a little

*Òng-ju

have a good rest of your night :)

wait what are the characters? like names?

so im reading my bible next to the Christmas tree and im so tierd i read
"remeber we have holy cows to inheritance"... the actual passage is
"remeber his holy covonent" :sob:

covenant*

:sob:

"you cryin' over a man tha' look like an uhdudu-"

@-silly- theyre names are Mi-kyung and Òng-ju

Also bro that's funny :sob:

:sob:

why are we so dry on our texts but no on here :sob:

@-silly- idk bro im sorry

nono its not on you i just think its silly

can i see your haiirr??

@-silly- yeah ill send you a pic in a sec

oki tyy