Wait so am i but not as many things, maybe it's the season? Idk

@MC_CREEPS

Ok. But I cant help but be worried. This hasnt started at all. Its been all downhill since school.

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3-
Im a bit worried too; i have (had before this happened to me) VERY good memory and now my memory not as good

@MC_CREEPS

My memory has always been like this. Im pretty sure its STML or something

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3-
ohhh :/
mabye search up the syntoms your having and try to figure it out? I'd also tell an adult

@Story_clan

Ok. But the fact is.

I cant sleep well at all. I go to sleep at 8 PM and wake up at 6:35 AM.

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3-
are you public schooled?
I figure yes, but in that case, the environment in the school system is (extremely) toxic, maybe ask your parents for a mental health day? I know a lot of the same things happened to me when i was in the 'school year'
(i was the one commenting through @Story_clan btw)

the environment is quite litteraly traumatic

@AnonymousAndUnknown

I cant have mental health days thats the thing.

When I was diagnosed with depression my Christian grandma yelled at me for answering truthfully and not lying like she wanted me too.

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3-
well... thats... problematic, in the very least
I know for a fact that the school system is a horrible place to be, having been there myself (homeschooler here), but i Wouldn't blame it on your grandma or her faith if she got upset
her generation was pretty much told to suck it up and deal with it, so thats pretty much generational trauma

And even if you have to fake sick, id just give it a shot

@AnonymousAndUnknown

True that. But I cant shake the feeling she hates my fücking guts.

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3- Ok. I know you don't know me well, but listen. I know the symptoms for a lot of different mental disorders, so maybe I can help. Not to mention I have a lot of the same symtoms, and I know what I have.
If you feel like it, could you tell me more about how you can't calm down?

Also, can you give me some examples of you feeling violent?

@_MsMario_

Violent as in like.

Plotting on beating the absolute shït out of something until its dead or unrecognizable.

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3-
And if she doesn't like you shame on her, but i know that with the 'peer regulation' in school (lets be real, administration does nothing) it rubs bad behavior off on even the best. It could be she thinks your being disrespectful due to natural and learned behaviors
(and as a Christian myself I would reccomend you pray on it, but thats just me)

@AnonymousAndUnknown

Im pagen. Or Atheist.

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3-
and while i may not approve or 'support' i won't try to demean you for it, or have any negative feeling :3

@AnonymousAndUnknown

Thanks.

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3-
np! its the proper thing to do
in my opinion, forcing someone into your belief just makes them push against it

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3- I see. It looks to me like you are suffering from Burnout & POSSIBLY Bipolar. You can look up the symptoms of either one online to be sure, though. Does your school have a counselor? If so, I'd talk to them.
If you are struggling with sleep, I would see if your parents can get you melatonin. It can help regulate sleep and help you fall asleep faster.
I struggle with a lot of the same things you do, so if you ever need someone to vent to, I'm here, ok?

@_MsMario_

Ok. Thanks. Ill write that down.

@_MsMario_ @MC_CREEPS @AnonymousAndUnknown

Ty u all 4 ur help.

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3- no prob! tag me if u ever need sumtin :thumbsup:

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3- Of course! I wish the very best for you, and I really hope you feel better soon.

Yeah.. I feel the same way so I can relate and try to help in some way for the depression part it does help to just lay outside when its warmer or beat up your pillows
And im here if you need me too kid I always will be

If you need to get your mind off of anything just ask like I said im here for you *hugs*

advice: try really hard to breathe slowly when u feel violent. just remember you have friends online and in person, so i can hope for u. god loves you with your sins but He'll be proud of you with less.

it could be the stress

the dizziness could be from lack of rest and over exertion

@-_SUN_-

And maybe from me starving myself.

@-G0LD3N_CHE3S3-
yea... eat more even if you cant stomach it,eat. im in general violent so im not sure about that one inability to calm down can be pent up emotions this is all school related the air is bad which can affect your asthma and stress does that to

hey you alright?