um... can i knda vent to u? its not anything big, and might sound silly...

yeah ofc! go ahead :3

@dragonvirtue

so, i just commented on a painting, and i accidentally offended the artist (u might already know that)

it was all because i phrased it wrong, and the comment sounded rude to them.

i made an apology painting (because the blocked me) but they haven't responded and im trying not to freak out.

Ive never been hated before in my life, actually. and i know its wrong, but i care way to much about how people think of me.

so this is giving me horrible anxiety, i feel like im going to throw up.

ik, its stupid.

im just trying not to cry, im trying not to make the other people who saw that painting too worried.

im trying to make it seem like im okay

all their followers are going to hate me too, and many of them also follow me

i feel like a terrible person, i dont care if they never unblock me, i just want to know if they themselves forgive me

awwee... pookie :[

okay, this isn't rlly on you.
you didnt KNOW it would offend them.
i kbow how the anxiety goes up when people don like u for,the first time, i remember my frst "druam" and i was shaking so hard

@dragonvirtue sorry i forgot to tag uu

ur too nice to me, im just saying dumb firstgrader drama stuff that most people would laugh at, but u aren't.

thank you.

im sobbing rn, im literally so cringey, im sorry u have to deal with me

heyheyhey, im gonna stop you right there.
you desuve to be heard.
this isn't 'silly' stuff.
its making you feel something you dont like; thats okay.
please, do not hesitate about venting to me.
also im not 'dealing' with you, i promise.
im taking care of you.

@dragonvirtue

@-Silly-

thank you so much, i normally never would tell anybody this kind of stuff, i feel like i always have to be perfect and happy. its even come to the point where im no longer even able to cry loudly anymore, after all the nights i was silent to not cause worry. and whenever i make anybody upset of do anything wrong i just start laughing, make it seem like that didnt matter while its ******* me inside.

i feel disgusting.
its all my fault.

its been so long since i felt this way.

after i found Jesus, i found peace and such thoughts slowly went away, please pray for me

hey, this all sounds really hard.
i understand you.
yes, i will always be nice to you.
you are such a kind person :3
i thikn your really sweet and show Jesus online <3

@dragonvirtue

i used to punish myself.

i used to want to run away, just cuz i felt i was in their way. i used to wish i could d1e, then it would all be better off without me.

.

i have never wanted to just d1e and go to heaven more than i have right now

you forget and lose every negative feeling there, that would be so nice

but, that is not for me to choose, me life is in His hands.

okay so im not trying to be like "tehe omg same!"
but ive been there.
i hûŕť myself when i sin because i feel like i desirve it.
your right, it IS in HIS hands.
are you safe right now?
answer honselty.

@dragonvirtue

taking your own life is taking it OUT of Gods hands

im safe, i dont have any want to end my life, i just want my life to end, if that makes any sense.
if they dont answer, im going to take a break from CL, it might be long, depending on how i feel. i dont like that everytime i open CL im dreading what ill see instead of excitngly anticipating.

is there any other way i can contact u, or smth? at least can i give you my friend code? (or the other way around)

it does make sense.
thats okay, ppl need to relize CL is NOT a highshcool where druma is shared.
its a game where ppl share art and be silly.
you can talk to me anytime yu need, you kbow that rght?

ughh i wish.
im grounded from havong mental heath issues and i was "spending all my time on them" kinda was-

yes i could get ur FC

ill jst say ur from my old churhc if my parentss ask

@-Silly-

okay, tysm!

3725

(theres more, i just cant memorise it all at once

2137-2610

mmk

wait, does it start with SW?
@dragonvirtue

yea, but i beleive thats already set in there...?

oki, it Doesn't let me friend pppl without SW

@dragonvirtue

wait, can u try giving me urs?

idk, i just wanna make sure...

oop, i got it! :D yay! tysm!!

sent!
the name should be "Axel"

np! Ima get of now bc im rlly tierd.
hope you stay safe, im praying for youu!!!

@dragonvirtue

hey, i just noticed, we're the same age! :D

bro, y r u so good at cheering me up?

gn!!! :heart: tysm!!!!

awee :3 np!
gn!
@dragonvirtue

aslo idk-
i feel like i kinda am a goof *********** person to talk to?