and like i literallyhate it so much to th point where i brsk down and scream and cry whenever i indulge into thoese thiughs and s many of my irls lik hate nsfw and im just like yeah me too bt my stupid evil subconsciousis lik noo,,, be evil /nf and im lik its gottdn so bad that i like sh bc of it

nd i haven recetly okay im clean but its so had to jst be normal especially when like,, i was exposded to that sh.it when,i was young but genuinelythe thught of any physical touch other than a hug makes me lik sick but my stuid,ash brain is like no.. f.cuk simeone SHUT UOO SHUT UP SHUT P,, I HATE HAT E YOU DIE

IM LITERALLY SHAKING I HATE MYSLF WHY I JUST WANT TO BE LIKE SEMI NORMAL I HATE IT LIKE OKAY YEAH ITS NRML TO "EXPERIMENT" BUT LIKE IT MAKES ME FEEL SO GROSS AND EW AND I WANT TO DIE BUT ITS LIKE A FCKING DRUG AND I HTE IT DIE DI DDIE,,, pleadd dont hate me fr ths plesde.. im normal im fine i zam

istg if someones says "oh youre a teenager its normql to feel hormonal somitmes' I WILL LITERLLY HURT MYSLF.

SHUT UP,

like, and i feel so shameful bc like,,, i onl rlly do it to fictomal chars and that makes me feel worse bc THEY ARENT FCKNG REAL???!!!! i hate my body so much...,,,,.. literallythis past week ive been contemplating picking up the blade again... oh! i need to make a post abt tht too bcthats a whooole other thing that i hat abt myself

lierally pain is like non excistnet in my brain and like you could be cutting my arm off and id think its hot and like fckgm goon to it idk fck i hate myslf why,,. im such a ma.sochist and not in a "oh i like being choked a little and get slapped sometimes" NO IN A "pleasd burn me and cut me and stab me" KIND OF WAY

watch me lose all my friends over one post,,, lmaoooo

@puffy1226 sigh lowk,,,!!!

@puffy1226 yes=!!!!!!!!=====

@deweymelon lmao hormones + exposure to r34 when i was in 3rd grade :joy_cat: :joy_cat: :joy_cat:

i mean!

who said that!

@deweymelon lowk,,,