this genuinely made me cry. I feel so bad for you i'm so sorry you had to deal with that

tysm i just dont know how to cope without listening to music because all my playlists are filled with his favorite artist. @JuniperStar

its not ur fault I promise

i feel like it is. @bluebow_

Its not
he cared about you a lot, but the bad outweighed the good in his life. so he ended it

i feel like i couldve helped but i feel like i didnt care or he felt like i,didnt but i really did, i really love him he means alot to me i just wish i couldve done different @bluebow_

yeah I get that, we all wish we'd have dine stuff differently after a death
but you just have to focus on the happy memories w/ him, and never forget them

i just want him to be alive, i miss him and every second hurts without him @bluebow_

I know :( I wish I could help,,

i dont know how to feel anything but just overwhelming fear and sadness i dont know what to do with life or where im at i just feel like ive hit a hole in life and im stuck @bluebow_

I know its hard, but you CAN get out of that hole
if you don't have anyone at home to reach out to, maybe do it when you go back to school

just anything to help you make progress

yea school lives my life meaning and structure, its why idk if ill make it past 18, i need to stay preoccupied all the time, its why im always online, @bluebow_

honestly me too, maybe when you can, get a job to stay more preoccupied

also when you're stuck at home try cleaning, keep yourself busy any way you can

Take a break from Colors (even tho we'll miss you) bc I find that i'm more productive away from here

ill take a break during school because this is the only place i can open up because nobody irl talks to me and i distance myself from everyone @bluebow_

yeah that's a good idea, I'm gonna be a lot less active during school too

im so tired but my eyes burn so much @bluebow_

take a small nap...

ok ill try, ill tell u when i wake up ok ily /p @bluebow_

ok good luck :pray: I'm gonna go offline in a bit, so I might not be on when you wake up

Ilyt :heart:/p