response by roofhowse
disclaimer: I am not defending any of my past actions. I want to take responsibility, explain any further context, and apologize.
Late last year and early this year, there were two instances where, at seventeen years old, I interacted inappropriately with people who were thirteen. Looking back, I feel deep regret and shame for these actions. I have thought about them daily for the past few months, and the weight of knowing I hurt others has stayed with me.
At the time, I didn’t fully grasp the seriousness of age gaps between minors, especially in terms of maturity and power imbalance. Because of my cognitive and developmental challenges, I often need concepts to be explained very directly, and until it was clearly explained to me, I truly did not understand why or how what I was doing was harmful. Once I did understand, I felt deeply disturbed and ashamed of myself, and i still do, as i should.
Part of my confusion came from multiple past experiences of being groomed and forcefully sexualized since i was eight years old. The last time I was groomed took place from July 2024 until February 2025, during the same time that i was in these highly innapropriate relationships. i was groomed into an enviornment that changed what i did or didn't see as acceptable. Those experiences skewed my morals in ways I didn’t realize at the time. But I know this does not excuse my actions. Regardless of my own trauma, only I am responsible for what I did, and I have to live with that. (1)
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12 Aug, 2025, 11:44 pm
I want to apologize directly to those I hurt. I have reached out privately to them before, but I feel that when I did, I still hadn’t fully grasped how much I had ffucked up. and I know my words cannot undo the harm. My intent was never to hurt or manipulate anyone, but I understand that intent is not the same as impact, and my actions had the potential to cause very real harm. That will always be on me.
I understand if some people no longer want to interact with me. I accept the consequences of my actions and only ask that people avoid harassment. Please block and try to move on with your own lives. I wish anyone and everyone who chooses to leave good luck with their lives.
I am getting help and taking an indefinite break from posting or interacting publicly on any social media. I will post on my art account every now and then, but not for interaction, purely because i'd like to still make art, it helps me process things mentally and it's one of my biggest hobbies.
I am committed to growing as a person, and becoming someone who will never make these mistakes again. I know it will take time and consistent action to show that I have changed, and I’m prepared to do that work.
Once again, I’m sorry for what I’ve done, and I’m doing everything in my power to change myself.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. (2)
13 Aug, 2025, 12:31 am
@cabbyinsanity_ ???????
13 Aug, 2025, 2:57 am
wow
14 Aug, 2025, 2:06 am
dont delete my comments bro
14 Aug, 2025, 5:57 am
Why did you delete my comment
14 Aug, 2025, 5:58 am
youre literally silencing victims too by deleteing tvtimes comments??
14 Aug, 2025, 6:01 am
i will keep commenting it everytime you delete it bro -
The thing is you DID know and you said that in your dms between you and meowi i have screenshots, NEVER contact your victims EVER. Nobody here can accept this apology other than the people you've harmed. You are a gro'omer
Anyone here seeing this i have proof ill DM it to you just tell me your discord account or join my server its all there https://discord.gg/sa2savajkJ
14 Aug, 2025, 6:02 am
dont delete comments that only incriminates you more
14 Aug, 2025, 8:39 am
@LYCAN what did they delete
14 Aug, 2025, 8:42 am
also @roofhowse your old drawings on this account are veerrryy familiar did you date my boyfriend at some point
14 Aug, 2025, 9:34 am
@iPadMini chesk the comments on my post abt this it should be the last post i made
15 Aug, 2025, 8:30 am
@iPadMini no bro i have standards
15 Aug, 2025, 8:30 am
minus berri
15 Aug, 2025, 9:51 pm
@wowzeriiffiic ohh ok,because i remember y had an ex that drew theirself like very scratchy and stickman-like and they would vent a lot i think