myabe if you actually had the guts youd pull the trigger

fuсking *****

kys

i just want to be loved and to be cared about but once i get that i dnt know how to react and i ruin it all

im so useless

and pathetic

your dad is right you have 0 reason to be crying you never went through anything that bad

ok ew shut up

ok you are not ok,, talk to me

also I made an alt

idk what to say just everything is so overwhelming and everything hurts @_THURSDAY

did you ever sleep?

yea @_THURSDAY

how long?

3 hours @_THURSDAY

i usually dont need much sleep

okay,, have you eaten or drank today?

yea i,had some toast and eggs for breakfast and i have mac and cheese in my kitchen im just 2 scared to go get it @_THURSDAY

okay, If you can go get some water you should, and If your feeling up to it you should rest, when you wake up you'll feel better. But if you can't then you can keep talking to me

i cant sleep i feel like relapsing @_THURSDAY

@PinkB0w okay I understand, I know it might be a hard question to answer but what is it that you'd be relapsing?

sh or drinking . @_THURSDAY

I don't really know much about drinking but I'll try to help, sorryy
do you have anything near you that could be used as a tool to relapse?

yea 3 knives, a pair of scissors and a razor, i also have a gun in my closet @_THURSDAY

can you try to put them somewhere you can't reach them? like a different room or somewhere you can lock them

i dnt even want to touch them @_THURSDAY

ok thats fine, do you wanna vent about whats wrong

so basically i was telling my dad i was hungry and he was saying something bt how there was food on the table, and there wasnt so i argued with him and he got mad and told me to go into my room and starve and later i was making food and i say "im gnna skin myself" alot and he started saying how i was being weird by the fact i was offended and hurt by the comment earlier and he was all like "it was a joke" and how i joke bt skinning myself and i said its not something to joke about

since i used to have problems with starving myself and he said well you have problems with cutting yourself and you say your going to skin yourself and i just started sobbing and went to my room @_THURSDAY

I don't want to say I know your dad, I don't know what he would or wouldn't do, and I don't know what his tone was like, or what your history is with him. And I would DEFINITELY be upset if somebody told me that too, but Maybe try to look at it from his perspective? Did it seem like he was trying to upset you? He's prolly just worried about you

yea it was obvious he was trying to hurt me and he hasnt dealt with sh in his past @_THURSDAY

Well I'm sorry that happened to you, Do you think you could talk to him about it?

Like why it made you upset I mean

no im scared of him and ill end up crying mid way @_THURSDAY

are you scared of him because he might get you in trouble or smthn?

no just that he'll hit me @_THURSDAY

oh ok, I honestly don't really know what you could do about that then. I have trouble telling ppl when they make me uncomfortable, usually I bottle it up until I get home where I have a notebook that write EVERYTHING in, I write for hours, letters to people, Why I'm upset, ways things made me feel, things that happened in the past that I still think abt ect. I write until my hands are cramping so bad I can't write anymore. It probably isn't the best thing to do but it kinda helps me cope with it

i, suck at writing and just expressing emotions, the only thing helping me cope is radiohead, nature valley granola bars and water @_THURSDAY

Dude I also suck at writing, everything is so corny in there and my handwriting is all wack.

rip but i draw alot but i just havent had motivation @_THURSDAY

me neither, I think I need to take a lil break from drawing on here

i took a 8 month break last year @_THURSDAY

lol me too,, except I wasn't posting so it didn't matter

:broken_heart: @_THURSDAY

you feelin better now?

yea ty for talking to me @_THURSDAY

np,, just happy to help

yippie! @_THURSDAY

yippie!! I'm tired,, my socail battery is at an all time low :broken_heart:

go to sleep then :broken_heart: @_THURSDAY

no :broken_heart:

what time is it for you @_THURSDAY

7:36pm vro,, I'm just tired cus I did a lot today :")

wby?

woag same ! @_THURSDAY

oh kool

ru a Californian @_THURSDAY

lol what if we live really close together and like know eachother or smthn

yes vro I'm in California :pray:

waoh!! what county @_THURSDAY

Usa
MY PRONOUNS ARE U. S. A.!!!!!! (CAW CAW)

HELP MY FRIEND SAID THAT ON FOURTH OF JULY @_THURSDAY

I am secretly your friend

penor @_THURSDAY

nah, poosay :thumbsup:

HELP? :sob: @_THURSDAY

I'm hungry o.0

iwant some moremacandcjeese @_THURSDAY

I haven't had mac n cheese in SOOO long :sob:

i love mac and cheese @_THURSDAY

it's to many calories :broken_heart:

id gladly be your average 300 pound American, for macandcheese @_THURSDAY

vro I'm literally 20 pounds underweight but I look like a fat аss :broken_heart: :broken_heart:
I don't understand

im 134 pounds and 5'3 :ribbon: @_THURSDAY

load or I will sue colors

tear tear tear tear tear drop

i sneezed @_THURSDAY