imactually shaking imso mad quit it quit ot uocant like thzt ok

also my ex is like lying about missing m e cuzhelike has a crush on hisfriend even like braaaaa

i kind of wish my bpd wasnt so demonized by the people im close to because the majority of my splits couldve been handled if you didnt refuse to communciate even. i tried to soothe myself each time but you like didnt care youd just say i was mad at you but i wasnt even inwas in an episode i was SPIRALING because i have a lot of yhings that can trigger me that i ohysically cant control and when id ask you to do sometjing tjay would syop that trugger from happening youd refuse so like what did you expect me
to do

its very hard to deal with when your own brsin is actively working against uou in recovery and coping so its Common to go to outside people for help or reassurance Whoch i do. but i never got it even its like u didnt care even like i dont gget whats so hard to be like im playing with my friends i love you. you did it once at thr end why was it sooo hard allthe other times gosh. im highleu in an episode but theres nothint i can doooo i ven i hate everuone i haye allmy friends and fsmily theyre annoying snd thru SUCK anf they dont care aboitme

im exhausyed snd im so Mad. Ok. i wish eveyone didnt hate me i wosh uou guys careedddd or liked me Lol Ok bhe

also allof you guys commenting on my clearly ventd have no form of human decency like genuinely my so called friends dont comment shit here but a bunch if braindead twelve year olds do i haye you all sorry you cant go to my boyfrienf and tellhim to help me because im too much of a burden for everyone rlse i haye uou all