great why d i do this to myself i miss gigi

i feel like a horrible partner

i just wanna talk to her pls dont comment unless yer @sillyz_143

gosh i feel like im annoyin cuz everytim she leaves i start cryng like a 2 year old who misses their mommy
i feel disgusting
i had ta lie to my mom sayin "it feels nice to cry" when she caught me cryin while doin the dishes. i hate crying i hate crying sm.

why cant i be normal
i dont think its normal to cry after yer gf leaves to LIVE LIFE FER A LIL BIT. she leaves to go have fun an i act like im goin to her funeral. i hate it.

great now i lie to my dad.

whats wrong with me i dont know what to do. play banjo? i dont freakin know how to be NORMAL. normal ppl draw. normal people dont obsess over cartoons. normal ppl do cry sm that they cant stop. normal ppl dont refuse to be sad. normal ppl have all emotions. normal ppl cuss. normal ppl don't quote stuff all the time.

oh ya!! uhm i likw heard one of tose friggin fireworks shoot off [yknow illegal ones] anlike did ya now alie on colors live dot cm has a deathly fear of their house catchin fire???!! ya!!! they do!! so liek thats why they acted like a crybaby when they got an evactuation notice last summer!!!! :laughing:

when i heard that one singular firework i dropped like a friggin gacha character an started sobbing hysterically uhm ya guys this is why you dont fake happiness kids dont lie to yer self!!!! im still going to!!!

i dunno wht to do my neighbourhood is friggin STUPID PLS I WANN GO TO WHEREVER GIGI IS PLS :pray: idc if there's fireworks there too i just want gigi sm then i'll stop crying then i'll be happy pls pls pls

shes happy rn i shoudl behappy fer her!!! hahha Kimberly akimbo ref!!! shes at a party she said shes havin a good time WHY AM I ACIN LIKE A FRIGGON TODDLMR

how am i gunna sleep how do i hide me cryin to my parents

i need to goi need to go to sleep gn guys.

wow ferget wht i said abput sleeping
sleepin s fer LOSERS uhm ya but im stalkin my notifs fer the rest of the night if gigi comes back i WILL know.

@-1nf3ct3d_banj0-2 hey do u need to talk??? im not forcing just worried abt you, feel better <33/p

@apple_coreee
ya i just feel like a cruddy gf rn thats all, an theres fireworks goin on rn outside an i have a major fear of my house burning down so illegal fire in the sky in a desert doesnt make me feel the greatest, an i've been cryin all day [a lotta ppl that knows me well enough that i told them, know i hate crying i like to be positive to a unhealthy degree] so i havent been feelin the greatest tuday

@-1nf3ct3d_banj0-2 that sucks :pensive: i used to have neighbors who would set fireworks off right next to my house so me too. i hope you feel better and i know that even though it may not feel like it rn you're not a bad gf!! try to stay positive and maybe get some sleep it'll be better in the morning

@apple_coreee
yea rn im makin smores so im a bit distracted, thx broski <3/p :yum:

Alie your feelings are totally valid and it's ok to feel like your not normal. You're experiencing this for the first time and it's confusing because ur trying to find out where you fit in life, but there's no one else like you so you don't have an example of where to go. You are a normal person, you have interests and hobbies and it's confusing because this is all new. There's a lot of things you never had to think about and go through and it's scary. You're not a horrible partner you're doing amazing and i wouldn't perfer anyone else. I love you so much its ok to miss me every moment you breathe (it kinda sounds like I used chat gpt I didn't I'm not stan trust)

anytime!!!! also yummy now i want smores lol

I'm sorry that the fireworks are scarying you they're terrifying sometimes

@sillyz_143
GAHHH THANK YOU SM GIGI dude im writing ythat down AND screenshotting that you're the sweetest, most beautiful, most amazing girlfriend icould ever ask fer ilove you sm <33

@sillyz_143
also when yer talkin ta me text me on my watch fer the rest of tha night imma go out soon apparently an i dont have any Internet in tha car <33