i just,, idk i just feel like im such a bad person. i lose my temper too easily im . im just like him. oh my god im just like him

im yell at people too easily i get angry too easily i get annoyed and everything is too loud too bright too much and i cant help it

does that make me bad ?

im nothing but a burden all i do is hurt people :joy:

also guys um ignore me im having one of those moments again dont even worry haha :joy: lol :joy:

i cant even do anything right either. wheni try to make people happy i mess up i make too many mistakes

I can honestly relate, my struggles are something that has heavily weighed on me and i know its not my fault im severely depressed but i constantly antagonize myself, even more so after attacking my mother

i do hope you feel better soon

@MOEoverload thank you so much like genuinely. please know it isnt your fault, but even so still apologize. i try to do so with all the people i've hurt.

why am i even still alive ? therws no point i just make everyones life hard so i should end mine

dont say that.

why not ? its true.

its not ! you're worth it, people love you, keep going kyle. we all make mistakes sometimes.

but i make the most.

people have done worse, you're truly a good person. its not your fault, please dont end it.

i'll try

why the hell am i talking to myself oh my god am i going insane????????
though this is one of my coping mechanissms lol im kind of my own therāpist is that like :joy: is that weird guys :joy: :joy:

i like pretending im different people, its actually kind of helpful ! is that weird slash gen... i just do it to help comfort me kinda let m explain. so like basicaly for some reason my personality can change really quickly. its easier to seperate those personalities into different people and i like. talk to myself as if they were having conversations. sometimds i do that and give myself imaginary therapy sessions, it genuinely helps !

its what i have to do. keeping my emotions and thoughts repressed all the time is tiring, and the only person i can really talk to is myself. :3
though lately i've been trying to get better at reaching out, and i actually express my emotions sometimes ! i almost cried the other day and im hapy bc i kind of forgpt how to cry lol

anyway yeah. also um not that anyone cares but after yapping, i feel a lot better
also is the different people coping mechanism thing weird um. guys like i genuinely need to know am i just mentally ill or is that an ok coping mechanism

i'm gla you're feeling a bit better now :heartbeat: /p