WHAT HAPPENED

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@staryzx ??

talk to me .

oh okay so basically what had happened was ..

the first thing, i have a friend, (my crush also) and she is white and is rather alternative.. she wore a suit to our year dance and the same suit top to our graduation. my mom thinks she is butch and 'weird' and thats also because she is white. so two days ago my mom went thru my phone (which is monitored so i dont really do snything so bad) but she came to the conclusion that all my white friends are weird and that i have to cut contact with them

and i cant be friends with them anymore, especiallythe friend mentioned

the second thing..

you know in the back of a car, where there is a pocket in the back of the seat? (for reference this car is new) i had put a water bottle there, because there was no space for it, it was an honest mistake and i though putting the bottle there was a decent idea. so one day we were all in the car and i went with my dad to the market. my mom went in the backseat to look after my siste while we were gone. so while my dad and i were in the market, she called and started screaming

about the water bottle.. and we left the market nd went back to the car and she started yelling about how i never think kr use common sense and all of that.. anther reference, i get quiet when im being addressed about something ive done and i dont take yelling well (obv trauma) and i just stayed silent .. i was internally calming myself down because i wasvery angry, not that she was telling me what i did wrong, but becase she was yelling about it.

so when we got home (like 5 min later) i go into the shower and try to bathe and also make my apology! but my mom barged in mid shower and ******* started screaming and asking why i didnt apologize, so i said give me a minute! (also i was actually breaking down in the corner of my bathtub while she was yelling at me full on crying and sobbing and blubbering) and she stated getting even more mad and ssying that i get like this over the smallest things

and i really didnt want to ss anything else because.. does she realise the reason i get like that is because she is yelling at me and making it seem like a way larger situation?? so she leaves and then not even a minuite later she comes back and pulls the curtain and yells at me to get out ghe shower (ive only been in for 4/5 minutes..)

anyway she took my phone idrc about that but id mention that @staryzx

im mad cuz i cant play cookie run kingdm
om :disappointed#broken_heart: ( /hj )

ugh ignore how the emojis didnt register

oh are u ok?

@staryzx yeah lol im chill

k i want to be okay :pray:

@staryzx thanks