WAIT I JUS DID MY MAKEUP W ACTUAL COLORED PENCILS AND MARKER
WHO IS THIS HANDSOME BÏTCH IN MY ROOM?
GODAMN KEEP ME AWAY FROM THA COLORED PENCILS

or maybe it's just a sign that my ugly äss needs to wear makeup

dude ur post is pointing at my new drawing ****

also plz dont say my actual name i get embarrassed when i see my actual name and my 3 bfs can only use my actual name

@_kyoo
i would really appreciate that.
school's alot, and my parents can't even seem to think positively of me. i feel like a pawn in someone's game, i can't even control my thoughts. i'm getting pressured to do things by my 'friends', none of them care. not when it matters, i even spent a whole night venting to my friend about my attempts and SH and i just got a ''real'' in response.
WANNA KNOW WHAT'S REAL ____?
MY ******* EMOTIONS

phew, sorry dude

@_kyoo
i'm really sorry that happened. just know it Isn't your fault, i know how it feels to think that you're the problem, that for some reason i did something wrong, it isn't you
just wanna let you know. kyo seemed really nice and i'm sorry he passed
it's a pleasure to meet you. i'm trexton
i really appreciate you.

i guess u could vent to me if ull feel better!

you can vent to me as much as you want, i really care about you. id also be up for just friendly chats, if you'd like <3

@_kyoo
happy early birthday!!!!!
i'm gonna be here all night, feel free to chat with me anytime!

@Mellowyellow24 @CroftersLover
thank you both so much! i'm feeling a bit better but i really appreciate it.

that's great to hear <3 been worried about you :(

@_kyoo
11:02pm!

@CroftersLover
thanks! no need to worry, i'll figure it out somehow!

@_kyoo
i've been doing bad on grades, i used to be a grade-A student, but i've dropped down to more of a C average. the pressure got to me once really bad, and i almost jumped off a building, i would've if my neighbour handn't have came out at the time he did.
THEN THERE'S DRAMA

so one of my 'friends' basicly told a whole group chat who i like, so i've now been accused of trying to break the guy and his lovely gf up, that same friend is always making the drama, and braging about SH

@_kyoo
so now insults are flying round the groupchat bout how she cüts herself and needs to dië, i literally can't with school anymore, it's too much, i wanna slam my head through the drywall and jump off a cliff thinking about it, it's miserable

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3 well if it makes ya feel better ill always be here!

@_kyoo
thanks, this honestly made me cry
i'm not joking i'm literally in tears rn
thank you so much,
it's been a while since alot of people genuinely cared about me

@Mellowyellow24
it makes me feel much better, thank you!

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3 yw!

@_kyoo
nobody's ever told me that.. thank you so much

@_kyoo
my dad drinks ALOT, although he's never 'drunk' around me, i'm still worried for him, he's smoking and vaping alot, and i know it isn't my buisness but, i don't want him to do dumb shït like my uncle.
he can never see the good in me, all he see's is a dissapointing 'daughter'
i'd prefer to be called his son, but his side of the family isn't too supportive

my mom always works, she never has much time for me but she still loves me, i feel trapped in this cycle
like it's in-escapeable
1/2

@_kyoo
im uncomfortable around my stepdad
he's a nice guy but i'm generally afraid of the things guys have done to me, i don't want it to repeat
i can't stay in this life
i need to change
i always get judged by all parents except my stepdad, he's more gentle about confrontation, i love him but the thought of what he'll do terifies me
he makes me uncomfortable sometimes, not knowing why or what he's doing
all my parents except him tell he to try harder
i can't
i went past my limit
i broke my soul

*me

@_kyoo
i'm currently genderfluid
i know, i just feel
weird
i feel almost nothing,
i don't know what's wrong with me
i'm safe at home, but i don't feel that way. i imagine people loving me, i get happy
but when it happens, it's worse, my brain thinks i'm back where something bad happened, even though i'm alright

@_kyoo
it blurred the word, what was it?

@_kyoo
oh, no i do not, all of mine cancel :sob:

@_kyoo
okay!

will do! promise me you'll have fun? and happy birthday!!

@_kyoo
it's a pleasure!

Ur nawt fat-
i betchur handsome/beautiful irl :pray:/p

and you can vent/share ur troubles w/ me if needed </3

@-_CosmoC4t_-
thanks dude :heart:/p

exercise is good my friend just came back from the gym

yeah, and i talked to kyoo yesterday abt what happened with her brother so im always here to vent to.

youre not fat at all! youre yourself, and you will get through this. ive talked countless people out of commiting and i will be here for you.

@9_0F_SPAD3Z
thanks, life is just difficult right now
really difficult

im always available if u want to talk to or vent

@BrightheartXmisty
thanks, same thing here.

wanna chat

@BrightheartXmisty
sure! how are you doing?

good

i had my 1st ever dance exams today

@BrightheartXmisty
that's good!
how'd you do?

dunno yet, results come back in 2 to 3 weeks

@BrightheartXmisty
i hope you did good!

same

i dont know what the results r gonna be like cos its my first time

@BrightheartXmisty
i couldn't dance if i tried :sob: :pray:

im sure ur good

i do cheer, street and tap

and contemporary, during free time

@BrightheartXmisty
thanks!
that's really cool!

i know

whats happened with u latley

@BrightheartXmisty
not much, drama's A LOTT though.

what's up with you?

not much

just chilling and watching this spiderman animation on disney+

its not bad

@BrightheartXmisty
nice!!
i went to big air today! it was fun

whats big air

@BrightheartXmisty
a trampoline park, it's fun

like gravity

@BrightheartXmisty
not sure what that is bit probably

*but

trampoline

in the spiderman animation im watching, Dr Octopus has taken over Spidermans body and i cant wait for the fights

:spider:

@BrightheartXmisty
cool!!!

i know

do u kno2 marvel

@BrightheartXmisty
kinda, not good though

js sayinb, you're way too nice :sob:

@channylover303
thanks? :sob:
i honestly can't be mad at people. not easily at least

I can tell lol, but its a good way to be :)

@channylover303
thanks :)

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3 im here how can i help

@J-bakugo
not sure how you can help.. but thanks for offering, i really appreciate it

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3 np

oh, thats okay

i love marvel

sorry, i had to go to bed (i go by uk times)

@BrightheartXmisty
ah, did you sleep good?

yea

im on the way to a moterbike track to meet up with my stepdad and brother

i got my stepdad malteesers for fathers day

@BrightheartXmisty
nice!!

yea

did u get ur father figure anything

@BrightheartXmisty
i made him pancakes and got him a card!

thats nice of you

@BrightheartXmisty
thanks!

ur welcome

ive been grounded (by my adopted mum/dad on here (dont ask, i got bored)0

no idea what im grounded from yet

@BrightheartXmisty
why'd you get grounded?/nf

dunno

i let my friend post something on my account (they pretended th3y hacked it)

@BrightheartXmisty
ah.

yea

im banned for 3 days from fanfictions :sob:

@BrightheartXmisty
i make so much fanfic no lie :sob:

what fan fic

@BrightheartXmisty
just some in my notebook :sob:
i don't post any, but its weird

i like weird, tell me mor

@BrightheartXmisty
it's basically where someone falls into mha, gains a quirk and defeats all for one

i dont know mha

@BrightheartXmisty
it's a really cool anime! i highly recommend it

okay

whats it about

@-Riri_and_Jiji-
hello!!

@BrightheartXmisty
it's about being a transfer student!

@-Riri_and_Jiji-
i'm alright! how about you?

@-Riri_and_Jiji-
that's good! any plans for today?

okay, sound interesting

have u seen Blood of Zue

@-Riri_and_Jiji-
nice! i'm just gonna be cleaning and doing crafts today

@BrightheartXmisty
i haven't. sounds good though!

it is

watch it asap

@BrightheartXmisty
will do!

good

there is blood

@BrightheartXmisty
:thumbsup:

when i get home, ima put my spiderman animation on

peter got his body back

@BrightheartXmisty
nice!!

i know

now the avengers have captured

@BrightheartXmisty
ooooh!

i know

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3 yes, you can vent to me, always!

@-shiromi-chan- thank you!

hey u can always vent to me

@SunLight00000025
thanks.
it's nice to have you back on colors. :heart:/p

tyy! :heart: /p

@SunLight00000025
how've you been? :3

been alright sorry for late response, its been busy.

few ups and downs lately.

wbuuu???

@SunLight00000025
it's alright!
life is honestly wonders without this app if i'm being completely honest. i'm staying on here for a small group of people, but not anything else
my art sucks, the drama is INSANITY, and when i log off and look at life, it's amazing.
i've got great irl friends
my mom is getting more time off work
i'm heading to a new grade soon
and i've got a small chance with my crush
i've found myself
and this app seems to blur the image i see of myself.

that is so true.