sorry for any of my passive aggressive or asšhole behavior from a while back, even if its too little of a deal i still feel guilty for it. i used to think i was completely hopeless and id lash out or try to elicit negative attention from people because i liked the attention and adrenaline from it which would make me overstimulate myself, that or it was pure paranoia and i felt a need to defend myself when really nobody has been after me. im ashamed of it but i was struggling too much to realize