ive literally stated multiple times i dont want you gone

@channyloverslover you will enjoy it there willbe peace it will be good you will be happy

how ure are my friend

@channyloverslover 8, i swear i ann9y you lke five tijijes a day

when? i cant remember one time youve annoyed me. i find you really fun and nice to talk to. if i didn't, i wouldn't be trying to stop u from doing this. look back at my messages, our chats, you can clearly see i love talking to you because i love you so much riley

@channyloverslover shut up my eyes watered

please stay for me. you mean so much to me riley, you make me happy everyday. sometimes i could be having a bad day from my parents but when i sit down and joke with you it always seems to brighten my mood. you have no idea how much you actually mean to me

@channyloverslover im sorry

please, try to stay. you said you was going to try and get better for me right? what happened to that?

@channyloverslover well i promised someone id get better but just when i was just starting to stay clean for like a month they left :joy: :joy: history has a way of repeting itself i dont know why i told you id get better for you i knew it wass kind of a lie but i wanted you to feel better since i know how horrible i am and how me being like this must make you feel but yea sorry im like this !!

riley why would i leave you? do u genuinely think im like that? ill tell you again, the ONLY reason id ever leave you is if my parents found out I was online. thats the ONLY reason and it wouldn't even be my choice.

@channyloverslover because everyone leaves and half the time its usually my fault

i really dont get why ure doing this, su|cide survivors always say they regret it, every single one of them

i would never leave you willingly

@channyloverslover i know i wont survive this time

please riley, you will regret it. what will i do? dont say ill get over it because too many people are dying in my life. my grandpa died like a year ago, my auntie is dying with cancer and barely has a week left. i dont want you to leave me aswell

@channyloverslover you can pretend i didnt **** myself and that im fine and that i just left colours or you could lie to yourself and keep saying ill come bac one day and then,it will feel like yiu have somethng to look forwards to thats what id do anyway i think

if you **** yourself, i wouldn't do that. youre not me. i would go completely insane thinking about what couldve happened if i couldve saved you. i would never think that because i dont think id have the guts to even go out colours without getting sick to my stomach

@channyloverslover its not like i havent tried to stay

its easier to stay alive than to commit

@channyloverslover why is ir

i know ill die this time

because when youre alive, you have friends, family, hobbies, places to visit, food to eat that you haven't tried yet, more people to meet and more exciting things. when ure dead sure all ur problems will go away but what about the things you value?

@channyloverslover i dont value alot im sure i could get over it

What about me? What about diana What about your cats? What about your sister and aunt? dont you care about any of them things?

@channyloverslover i do care

then why wont you just stay

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@channyloverslover i dont know im sorry i know its selfish

please riley i love you

i love you so much

@channyloverslover i ruin everything

you make everything better for me

you are everything to me

@channyloverslover im sorry

please riley

@channyloverslover im really sorry i dont know how to tell you how sorry i am

please

just tell me you wont

@channyloverslover im not gonna make promises

i really dont want you to die riley please just try

@channyloverslover i have tried

try again please, your life haven't even started yet. imagine the things that will come your way. imagine how great it will be to travel the world or get a job you want when ure older, imagine what ur art will look like when ure older, what ull look like. isnt it exciting?

@channyloverslover not really

no no id honestly kms too if you did

@channyLOVER301 whzts the point in yu doing it if i do it im only an online friend

i would want you to stay with me to comfort me @channyLOVER301

but youre one of my closest friends

riley i dont have any friends irl anymore and u are so much more than that im sure diana would agree

my friends irl are so ****

i have to go

i agree channy