thers a fyvking moth in my room

i am the moth

also please dont

@skulI i swear im so close to tryung again if oen more thing goes awry in my life thats it :joy:

please try to stay for me

@skulI i dont really see the point in staying

you mean so much to me . to be honest , i dont have many friends irl . youre the only thing giving me hope , i love talking to you , i love the way you talk to me and i dont know what id do if all of that was just gone one day .

@skulI im sorry im not better

you dont need to be better . youre already perfect just the way you are . you matter so much , you dont even realize it

@skulI if i was perfect i wouldnt be like this

no no riley please stay with us

like what ? youre amazing . many people like you , if u weren't good then why dont i hate you ?

@channylover301 im trying but even when i try my best i always ruin everything

we all make mistakes

@skulI normal is what i want to be

you are normal to me

@channylover301 my biggest mistake was not jumping off a bridge two days ago !!

wdym by normal

@skulI im anythung but normal if i was normal i wouldnt think like the wsy i do or fee the way i do and if i was normal id be happy

@channylover301 i dont want to be like how i am i want to be a normal person with a normal life

but you can change things, its not worth ending your life because of it

good things happen , if you ended it . how would that makes things better ?

@channylover301 i cant change a neurological disorder

you need to be patient

@skulI life is terrible

ending it would just pass the pain onto others . ending it is pointless , you gain nothing from it .

@skulI people would get over it eventually

i wouldnt

i would never get over it

no , death is forever . itll just flicker in the back of my head how i wasnt able to help you . pain is always temporary , please stay , itll get better soon . i promise

@skulI everyone always says that and then they leave and then things get progressively worse and worse

@channylover301 you still have all of your other friends i dont get why i matter so much

its because you make them SEEM WORSE . you always focus on the negative things in life instead of the good . take a look around . youre alive , ure surrounded by people who love you , even if they leave , thats just so more amazing people to come through your way .

@skulI yh

@GrellSutcliff because apart from channy, all my other friends are áss. you and channy are the only friends i actually like and want to talk to

please try and change ur lifestyle . sleep earlier , eat regularly and i PROMISE your mood will get better .

@skulI its not easy for me to do that

@channylover301 youll easilly find someone better than me just look harder for people

but i dont want to

id rather be friends with you

then do it one step at a time . challenge yourself everyday . set alarms for when u should sleep or eat maybe that would help

@skulI it sounds likw too much effort

@channylover301 yea becuz everyone enoys convining their friend to not end it all

well sometimes you need to put in effort to achieve things u want

i wouldnt just leave a friend because their mental health is ****

@skulI what if im tired of wanting to get better and i dont want to get better anymore

@channylover301 alot of people have ditched me because they couldnt cope with me having bad mental health

you cant just give up . pull urself together , otherwise nothing is going to get better . if you end it , matters will only be worse . do u not enjoy talking to me ?

well then they were toxic and fake, i wouldnt do something like that. id want to try and help you

@skulI i do

@channylover301 ok

then youll stay . if you die , youll never see anyone you love again , youll be dead . how would anyone want that ? its not going to fix or make anything better .

i know its hard but please try and get some sleep tonight

@skulI i guess

@channylover301 im not tired

youll feel better , your body needs it

when people leave you , it doesn't help does it ? only makes things worse like you said .

maybe later then

@skulI yea i guess

@channylover301 ill sleep tomorow

good night

theres people shouting outside my window agin

@skulI goodn8ght

listen to music or something to drown the noise out

@channylover301 i,have noise cancellation headphone things its fie ill use those

thats good

do you want me to stay or do you want some time to yourself ?

@channylover301 i might gget a drink it miht make me fall asleep

@channylover301 i dnt 9,mind you can stay if you want

okay goodnight

@channylover301 goodbye

i'll wait until my battery dies

nvm gn

@channylover301 ar eyo going

sorry :sob: im back, i cant sleep

my neighbours are being too loud

@channylover301 its fine i thought tou left for good

hello