I don't even know what to say.

I can't think of anything.

I can't even comfort you.

But.

I'll miss you.

Please stay.

Come to Idaho or run away.

I will gladly help you if you come to Idaho.

Just-

Make sure to notify me.

I just want to make sure your okay.

But I don't want to turn this into my own vent or wutevs.

So please..

Just notify me if you run away..?

@-CosmoC4t- it's not your fault.. honestly i just feel like a waste of peoples time. i cant even feel emotions anymore. what use am i to this world?

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

You're use to me.

You were finally one of my friends, online or not, that helped me instead of hurting.

You may not even realize how much you have helped me.

You saved me from my first cut.

Saved me from my 7th attempt.

And saved me from so much more.

If you're close to Idaho, run to there.
Or travel for as far as you can.

I'll be there, waiting if you do.

@-CosmoC4t- i cant even really run away.. i love part of my family.. i have no idea if i'm close to where you are. my mind trains itself to do this. there will be more helpful people than me you'll meet. i have no set purpose in this life. i'm wasting away.

No, there will not be.

You are saved in my brain and heart.

My irl friends dunt even give a fxck abt me.

Sure, i do have many online friends.

But YOU and only YOU are the one i have been true to.

Idġaf abt wut my irl friend group does to me.

I come on here,

check every single day.

To see if ur on.

i do cme to check my notifs and respond, but that's jus to be polite.

YOU are who i wait for, who i want to talk to.

Families ard important yes, and you love them and they love you.
But

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

If they dont realize ur suffering and can't help.

They aren't real family.

Don't do it.
Please.

Ik we've never talked, u probs don't even know me, and i don't know u, but i refuse to let this happen without me atleast trying to help.

Life is tough,
Life is unfair,
ik that.

You may think nobody loves you,
But I can assure you that ppl do.

There are ppl who think abt u everyday. Even if its just online, theres ppl who like u.

I'm running out of room, and words of comfort, but please just don't do it. Please.

:worried: please listen to cosmo cat and sunny, life is such a beautiful thing and theres so much more to enjoy :pray:

@Chiefalicious not much in mine. there's people who care, but i don't care about myself. I've been trained not to care.

@-CosmoC4t- i'm glad i provide said comfort, but i really can't stand living any longer

@Sunny12 i understand that, but i don't want to live much longer, i want to die, i have reasons to live but i'd doubt they'd understand..

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

Hm.

Well..

Then I can't stop you.

I tried, and failed.

But we all do that.

As long as I see you in heaven/afterlife.

Then I won't follow in ur steps.

But, still.

Thank you for being one of my greatest friends.

I'll miss you ya little gremlin.. :}

@-CosmoC4t- gonna miss you too..
i'll spend tomorrow thinking about life. then i'll decide.

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

Okay.

But make sure to acknowledge that ily bestie <3

what...? please dont my love why?
1 because i love u
2 because your my everything
3 because ill miss u

@_0g_PAPER_bag_ ilyt.. i've died inside.. there's a time where the outside has to too.. i'm still thinking about it though.. there's a tiny bit of life inside of me still, i promise i'll try and reconsider.. i'm trying to get better.

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3
You don't have to talk to them.
You don't have to talk to anyone.
You can write it down, draw smthing abt it, anything may work. Its better then holding it in.

You still have so much to live for, superstar.
Don't end it all, please. Theres gonna be bad parts in life, but many good ones to. Your gonna meet new ppl that u may like, and they like u (as friends or sum).

Just don't take ur life.
I will comment as much as i need to get u to stop.

@Sunny12 i've tried writting it down and i even have a whole venting book, but it isn't working too well.

@-CosmoC4t- i decided to live a little longer. listen to a song, visit my dad, and enjoy life with the people i love. i have set my date for after school's out. there's only a short time left, so i'm going to enjoy it.

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

I hope you enjoy the time you have with everyone.

Especially me and ur partnerz <3

(mostly ur partnerz-)

@-CosmoC4t- i'll enjoy so much time with you and jy partnerz >:3
(also wanna play acnh w me?)

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

I'm glad ur gonna stay longer.
I will sit and talk until u decide to actually stay.

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

acnh?

@-CosmoC4t- animal crossing new horizons :3

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

htf do u play online- :skull:

@-CosmoC4t- you go to the airport and open the gates, then somehow give your friends the code- :sob:

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE-

WE CANT SHARE IT-

UNLESS-

I share my email to u :eyes:

YES IT HAS MY LAST AND FIRST NAME-

DUNT STALK ME BESTIE-

wait.. do you have google on thy phone?

@-CosmoC4t-

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

i have gmail on my tablet, actually

@-CosmoC4t- i've got an idea! (if you're up to play acnh)

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

sure!

@-CosmoC4t- soo.
you load acnh on your switch/device you're playing on currently, and (if you have one) you go on the cl website on a device, log into to thy acc, and share the island code! i only have one device i can play cl on because my parents have no idea i post on here-

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

i can do that! ( i think :skull:)

i can try lol

@-CosmoC4t- yay!

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

fxck it didn't work >:(

@-CosmoC4t- it's okay! we'll find a way some day!

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

:sob: oki-

(but i jus kinda wanna share my email but dunt- HELP- :sob: CUZ ITLL REVEAL MY REAL NAME-)

@-CosmoC4t- you don't have to if you don't want to! if you do though, you might wanna say it on an older post of mine/urs so nobody stalks you- :sob:

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

imma share it- (if i remember bc my timer is at 1 min- :skull:)

BUT DELETE THE COMMENT WHEN U GET THE EMAIL-

@-CosmoC4t- okay!

@Sunny12 i can't promise anything, but i'll try my best!

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3 thank you.
Your perfect in everyway.
Whatevers wrong it'll get better.
Your awesome <3/p

No.... dont please... i care about you too. im always here and i'll be less happy knowing one of my friends ended themselves. Im here.. :hugs:

yes, listen to cosmo kat and the others!!! what made you think this? if your comfortable with sharing why im here.

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3
I know we haven't spoke in a while but, I just want to say I'm sorry you feel that way. I wish I could help, I really do, but I'm just over here and you're over there, and life gets really hard at times but kys isn't really a good idea. I have attempted a few times, used the safety pin necklace, i broke it, tried again, then regretted it. I don't want you going through the same as I have and regretting everything later. It may seem like the solution, but trust me, it isn't.

I can't change your mind as I am useless at doing that, but all I can do is be here to support you. You have been a great part in my life, i would hate to have you go just like all the others. Your choices are yours, but no matter what, I will always be here through your troubles, ups and downs, always here if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, and just here to be that supportive person you may need.
Love you, my dear friend :heart: :sparkling_heart:

@_s3cr3t_sc3n3_k1d_ thanks.. honestly, i'm going to try to stay alive for summer. i'm gonna make a safety pin necklace now. i'm gonna keep a promise that i won't kms. thanks for being here for me, i really appreciate it! :heart:

@Sunny12 thank you!

@9_0F_SPAD3Z i promise i'll stay alive for as long as i can! honestly it's kinda complicated though..

ok.. ill support you any way i can.