Sorry if i seem like an attention seeker. by H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

i need to sleep but the voices are very talkative. irdgaf if you like, it's not a vent :laughing: . also on that topic, may i vent to someone? if not that's alright! i'm just feeling like shït recently.
chose these colors cause they make the painting move like jello which brings back a memory-
:warning: EXTREME ULTRA YAPPING SESSION
it brings me back to when i was with my grandfather at like 5 or 7 and he went somewhere (no idea where :sob: ) and me and my cousin ate green gelatin and had 1/2

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22 Apr, 2025, 1:29 am
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H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 1:32 am

2/2 we had a view of a beach with waves that seemed to reflect yet contast the sunset which was a mix of pinks, oranges, and blues in higher skies. the clouds shone like silver, and it was when i felt at home.

_-P01S0N_FL0W3RS-_

22 Apr, 2025, 1:34 am

you might be a system !!

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 1:35 am

@_-P01S0N_FL0W3RS-_ what's that?

_-P01S0N_FL0W3RS-_

22 Apr, 2025, 1:40 am

basically, systems form of headmates, aka "voices in your head", aka "DID". they form from childhood trauma, but i suggest doing your own research! ^^

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 1:43 am

@_-P01S0N_FL0W3RS-_ i will do some research on that!

-_CosmoC4t_-

22 Apr, 2025, 1:45 am

This doesn't make you an attention seeker. An attention seeker example: *ventin to one of my bfs* Him: *interrupts me* My family hates me! *lie* And i was ***** when k was 5 or 6! *lie*

He's terrible, he gave a letter to one of my friendship siblings after he was broken up w/ and it was changing my siblings words of a vent, into his own. And on the back it said: "-logan" logan was scribbled off, "-the person nobody cares abt.." LIKE DUDE- SŤFU

-_CosmoC4t_-

22 Apr, 2025, 1:45 am

@CosmoC4t

r @ p ē ď

eulogistical

22 Apr, 2025, 1:46 am

just saying im a system and just hving 'voices in your head' does NOT make you one, that can fs just be intrusive thoughts. You need to have switches, or at least co-con, and other dissociative symptoms to have DID/OSDD/P-DID

nickitay2017

22 Apr, 2025, 1:56 am

gn @JustAHuman

--ROXY--LALONDE--

22 Apr, 2025, 2:26 am

Question: why does vent art look so GOOD? i wanna like vents but i don't wanna be meann

Chiefalicious

22 Apr, 2025, 2:59 am

yeah, you should maybe ask a psychiatrist or something to see if you might have did or some other disorder (dont self dianose gang!! :pray:), hopefully they stop soon for you though /gen

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 8:06 pm

@eulogistical im gonna get a proper diagnosis (if i am a system) when i finally get therapy

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 8:06 pm

@_-KARKAT612-_ no idea :sob: you can like ths if you want tho!

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 8:07 pm

@Chiefalicious dw! i'm see if i actually have it when i get therapy!

eulogistical

22 Apr, 2025, 8:49 pm

mhm yeah but fyi getting diagnosed with DID/OSDD is apparently super hard. i'm not diagnosed cause im not in a safe environment to get help, but also don't go into it thinking you have DID cause its rare and chances are you probably don't. again: just hearing voices doesn't mean youre a sys, do real research. not whatever half-assed webmd search most people seem to do

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 9:34 pm

@eulogistical okay! i'm checking official medical websites!

eulogistical

22 Apr, 2025, 9:41 pm

okay good! ^^

nickitay2017

22 Apr, 2025, 10:32 pm

hi are u ok x @JustAHuman

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 10:35 pm

@nickitay2017 mhm! hbu?

nickitay2017

22 Apr, 2025, 10:43 pm

hey i still hear voices in my head i and i am 24 in 8days i haven't got a therapst and i am doing just fine xxx just listen to the voices and get to know them thats wat i did and one a month they come back just to check up on me try doing wat i did xxx friend @JustAHuman

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 10:45 pm

@nickitay2017 you okay? i'm here if you would like to talk?
also happy early birthday!

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 10:45 pm

*.

nickitay2017

22 Apr, 2025, 10:47 pm

thanks u for the birthday wishes i am just happy that u are my friend xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx @JustAHuman

nickitay2017

22 Apr, 2025, 10:51 pm

at 12:10 am in the uk i will be going to sleep at that time its only 23:51 in the united kingdom

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 10:52 pm

@nickitay2017 okay! sleep well!

nickitay2017

22 Apr, 2025, 10:55 pm

i am realy sleep now so i will come back on here at 9 or am in unitedkingdom time witch is London time zone gn @JustAHuman my friend xxxxxxx

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

22 Apr, 2025, 11:09 pm

@nickitay2017 gn friend!

nickitay2017

23 Apr, 2025, 8:57 pm

hi sorry i was out all day today i was doing something at the owners bar for st gorges day i was raceing some kids then on the way back on the race i had a big fall then i rested up in my caravan then i spent half hour in the arcade then came back to my caravan had my tea then now i have gone to bed to watch lion king 2 simba pride how was u day today xxxxxxxxxxx

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

23 Apr, 2025, 9:19 pm

@nickitay2017 good! i hope you're okay!

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

23 Apr, 2025, 9:20 pm

@nickitay2017 how was your day?

nickitay2017

23 Apr, 2025, 9:49 pm

i am just a bit sore but i think i will be ok i wont know until toz in the morning ok xx

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

23 Apr, 2025, 10:24 pm

@nickitay2017 okay! i hope you feel better!

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

23 Apr, 2025, 10:53 pm

@nickitay2017 ? what?

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

23 Apr, 2025, 10:59 pm

@nickitay2017 nope.

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

23 Apr, 2025, 11:03 pm

@nickitay2017 i mean i know how but i don't.

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

23 Apr, 2025, 11:06 pm

@nickitay2017 (respectfully) i don't feel comfortable having this conversation.

nickitay2017

23 Apr, 2025, 11:08 pm

ok

nickitay2017

23 Apr, 2025, 11:11 pm

i understand

nickitay2017

23 Apr, 2025, 11:33 pm

i just delete my bad messages ok i am sorry ok

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

23 Apr, 2025, 11:35 pm

@nickitay2017 it's alright! i just don't feel comfortable on that topic y'know?

nickitay2017

23 Apr, 2025, 11:43 pm

i know but i dont wantto get band from this chat x

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

24 Apr, 2025, 12:17 am

@nickitay2017 okay!

nickitay2017

24 Apr, 2025, 12:36 am

i am sorry if i made it arward i hope this dosnt make us not friends i still want us to be friends still x

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

24 Apr, 2025, 1:05 am

@nickitay2017 we're still friends!

nickitay2017

24 Apr, 2025, 10:30 pm

how are u today

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

24 Apr, 2025, 11:21 pm

@nickitay2017 good! hbu?

nickitay2017

25 Apr, 2025, 12:20 am

ye today is the day that i might be getting a drone from the prize stand in my caravan park its 12000 i have 2262 tickets i will have lots today me and my dad are going to be getting more tickes today and we are cashing in all my tickets xxxx

nickitay2017

25 Apr, 2025, 12:46 am

gn @JustAHuman

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

25 Apr, 2025, 1:04 am

@nickitay2017 nice!! hope you sleep well!

nickitay2017

25 Apr, 2025, 11:12 am

hi

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

26 Apr, 2025, 3:13 am

@nickitay2017 hello!

nickitay2017

26 Apr, 2025, 2:42 pm

how are u x

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

26 Apr, 2025, 3:55 pm

@nickitay2017 fine.. hbu?

nickitay2017

26 Apr, 2025, 8:44 pm

ok now that u are online

Moongust123

24 May, 2025, 11:58 pm

@H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3 Have you tried blasting music in your car of with headphones on? just not to loud with the headphones we dont want you to go deaf

H0W-TH3-ST4RS-SH1N3

25 May, 2025, 2:31 am

@Moongust123 yep! it works pretty well! i find that watching movies in the background also helps!

Moongust123

25 May, 2025, 12:27 pm

for me my ears ring really loud so i either cover my ears or sometimes i listen to music to drown the ringing out

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