it feels like no matter what. im stuck in this infinite, brain eating, rabbit hole. i want to cry forever. i want to feel the eternal agony my ruthless, crybaby self deserves. if i just had shut up none of this would be happening. i would be happy if i just shut my füçkìng mouth. i want to rip my skin off and feel free from this never ending guilt i leave behind me. but that will never happen. and w3 will all be dead in 80-90 years. whats the point of everything. i want to forever be dead. #vent