why didn't i stop them...

why does it keep happening when i try to tell them not to...

the adults don't give a fūck about it...

"Oh, well... at least that wasn't me!"

IT WASN'T MY FAULT THEY HURT ME LIKE THIS AND USED ME!! :sob: :broken_heart:

THEY USE ME LIKE SOME KIND OF TOY.

ONE THAT HAS TO BE BRUTALLY FORCED TO DO THINGS FOR THEIR PLEASURE.

I CAN'T STOP THEM.

WHY CAN'T I STOP THEM...

Hey, let me tell you something, call the police this is ***********, and please dont end it all, you have talent and have people who care and love you, so understand that your life is worth living, you are doing great

@Alex_034 hey hey hey hey hey! deep breathes okay? im her3 if u need to vent ik u said you cant fight back but if thy bite you give u h!ckeys ect. do it back teach them a leason
dont think u cant vent to me alr?

need someone to blame? blame me not yourself!
wanna shout? shout at me!
im here always and forever and am now flying to there houses to chuck em out a window

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

But when i try to stop them, they don't listen.

the adults couldn't care less.

NOBODY CARES OR LOVES ME.

so why live...?

@-_SUN_-
i could never blame you or shout at you.

im the one to blame. for EVERYTHING.

wťàf?! that's actually so rude and terrible!

@Ashy-Lif3

and they won't stop.

they constantly do this to me.

and my stupid āss can't fight back.

@Alex_034 please dont say that, you are a great person, get those thougts out of your head, you are perfect the way you are, your so called "friends" are just stupid people, and i care, i care about you and your mental health, so just please dont end it all, everything will get better, so keep living

@Alex_034 record it if u can then show an adult

@Ashy-Lif3

i tried.

they say "You guys are just doing regular kid stuff!"

They DON'T believe me.

@Alex_034 no you are not at fault! u never will be! id rather you blame me then get told your gone!
i care abt u no matter WHAT talk to me okay dont end yourself because of them because i cant be here without my colorslive friends k? just relax im here for you

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

but when i tell someone, THEY DON'T BELIEVE IT.

THEY SAY IT WAS A PRANK.

I'VE HAD ENOUGH AT THIS POINT BECAUSE I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT ANYWAY.

@Alex_034 ømfġ,these adults today dont believe us anymore,it was one thing in their day but now,they dont believe us

@-NOT_A_GEEK-

They've done this for a while and beat me up if i try to stop them.

I come home everyday to try and cover up the marks they engraved into me.

I can't stop them.

I just can't.

@-_SUN_-

it didn't happen to you though.

it happened to me.

THEY USE ME ALL THE DAMN TIME.

AND I TRY

AND TRY

AND TRY

...but nothing works.

@Ashy-Lif3

yeah. they will not do anything.

they don't give a fūck about the situation.

like they 'have their OWN problems'

@Alex_034 Hey its not your fault, this whole area comments are filled with people who care about you and want you to be safe, i would be there and protect you if i could, so call the police they would belive you, its their job to, your "friends" are h4rras1ng you and thats illegal

@Alex_034 fr! like,Linda, your middle school crush friending u on facebook isnt important, [name] just got beaten up

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

but it seems like the people in my school don't CARE.

they never listen.

they listen to others but not me.

i hate this.

i hate it all and i wanna be free from it all.

but i can't.

this was what i was destined to.

being constantly hurt and assulted.

@Ashy-Lif3
yeah.

@Alex_034 ik this sounds bad but....threaten them or tell the cops or whatever catch them on camera do it back anything to stop them
just dont for the love of god dont end it okay? we need you we love you we cant loose you.... especially @/SunLight00000025

@Alex_034 No its not. you are talented, and those stupid "friends" you have are just b1tches,

@-_SUN_-

they were telling me that they were the horrible one.

i love them.

i care for them.

just let them know for me.

that i do.

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

is it true though...?

i get BEAT THE FŪCK out of every day.

and nobody is willing to help me.

@Alex_034 I-i will just dont leave us okay? we need you

@-_SUN_-

please tell them.

i need them so much.

i'd d!e if they left.

but im still in pain.

@Alex_034 ik your in pain and i will tell them u love th3m i'll do anything u ask of me
if you need to vent more do so i'll listen

@Alex_034 You ARE talented, your "friends" are just rats, dont end it all, you have people who care about you, we may not be confirmed colors friends but i will always care about you, so stop dening that people dont care about you, you are a great and wonderful person and dont let anyone or yourself tell you otherwise

@-_SUN_-

thank you.

please let them know.

i cut myself.

im bleeding everywhere.

help...?

@Alex_034 OH GOD NO POUR WATER ON IT RN GET DETOL OR WOUND SPRAY AND SPRAY THE S_HIT OUT OF IT THN WRAP IT UP
oh god....no no no no no no no

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

that helps a bit.

thanks.

but i still have to go to school.

and deal with them in my classes.

the teachers ignore me.

when i try to tell them.

@Alex_034 i swear im dieing that im not there to patch u up im so sorry just wrap it up if you have a burn kit use all the disinfection stuff from is a gauze
no no no ni not again

@Alex_034 please dont hurt yourself clean the blood off with water and disinfect the woond, we dont want you getting sick

@Alex_034 dang your teachers are assh0les

@-_SUN_-

but why...?

they aren't here.

i can't.

im getting blurry vision.

my heartbeat is fast.

i don't know what to do without them.

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

i can't.

the pain is too much.

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

and yes, they are.

@Alex_034 please answer im worried qbt keep me updated okay i'll sty up all night even though i hqve a gymnastics comp if it means you have someone to talk 2

@Alex_034 i doesn't matter if there no there! please!! for me fix up your arm

@Alex_034 please stay with us for me, @-_SUN_- , and the rest of your friends sake

@Alex_034 i cant lose another

@-_SUN_-

it hurts.

im bleeding more.

i can't call 911.

i don't have a phone.

im home alone.

what do i do.

@-_SUN_- @M1CR0W4V34BL3

my loved one, @/SunLight00000025 isn't here.

i need them.

please, i can't do this alone,

@M1CR0W4V34BL3 @-_SUN_-

im scared.

i need them here.

please. i can't without them.

@Alex_034 your not alone i swear! tell you neighbours! anything to get help use the emergency phone in your house

@-_SUN_-

we don't have an emergency phone.

@Alex_034 WERE DO I FIND THEM??? I DONT WANT YOU SAD

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

idk, go to their acc.

go to one of their posts.

and then say sonething.

i don't know.

@Alex_034 ask around for help please dont wait seak medical attention from neighbours

@-_SUN_-

i tried.

none of them are home.

@Alex_034 scream anything to draw attention
stay with me staunch the wound with a towel for now okay??

@-_SUN_-

okay.

i'll try.

@Alex_034 thank u keep me updated okay?

@-_SUN_-

i can't scream.

my throat is cracked up and dry.

my throat is bleeding.

@Alex_034 your partner is on thats good

@Alex_034 SH1T SH1T, grab some pots and make noise with them

drink water. relax deep breathes
go to anyones house knock qnd ask for help or start a dog barking that will draw attention

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

nobody can hear me.

i tried.

didn't work.

im feeling lightheaded now.

@-_SUN_-

nobody is home.

i ran around my neighborhood.

i almost fainted.

no one there.

@Alex_034 I gtg but lay down somewere, like a couch

@Alex_034 sit down relax a-and drink water eat plain bread have u wrapped up your arm?

@-_SUN_-

yes.

but it's bleeding through.

i can't eat.

@Alex_034 do u have a rope or a turnakit?

@Alex_034 Do you have water nearby?

@-_SUN_-

no.

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

yes.

but i can't drink it.

my body won't let me.

@Alex_034 Put pressure on the woond

@Alex_034 With a towel

@Alex_034 okay im panicing now get a clothe tie it tightly above the wound it will stop the blood flow and stop the bleeding

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

that hurts.

too much pain.

it makes me cry even more.

@-_SUN_-

it's not working.

im trying.

i need them here.

please...

@Alex_034 im trying there not in there on break
tie it tighter till it feels weird it will stop the bleeding in 10-20 minutes and boy do i know whqt it feels like to be bleeding out

@Alex_034 It will hurt but it stops the blood flowing out your arm, also drink water it helps replenish your lost blood

@-_SUN_-

they texted me on the chat though.

i saw it.

they are here.

just tag them on their posts a ton.

please... i need them.

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

it's not helping.

water tastes like my blood.

im dying.

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

it feels like im dying.

@Alex_034 im trying i promise i always fail this stuff oh god brb im gonna spqm them

@Alex_034 your not dieing i promise drink the water idsm if it tastes lik blood chug it

@Alex_034 please dont say that, and ill help with getting them here

@-_SUN_- @M1CR0W4V34BL3

im trying my hardest.

im staying alive for them.

i just feel like i can't.

im drinking water now.

it's kind of helping.

@Alex_034 thats good

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

i still feel pain.

it won't go away.

ow... it hurts a ton.

@Alex_034 good keep drinking the water and then try eat bread

@Alex_034 just stay with us ok? We need you and your partner does too

@-_SUN_-

i tried and it came back up.

i can't.

@Alex_034 do u have calpal? nuerofon? panadol? any sort of painkiller

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

im trying my best.

they said that they were the horrible person.

and i got sad.

@-_SUN_-

no i don't.

@Alex_034 were did they say it?

@Alex_034 just keep drinking water and putting pressure on the woond

@-_SUN_-

in a private chat.

idk if you'd be allowed to look though.

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

im trying.

it's still bleeding though.

@Alex_034 u can trust me

@-_SUN_-

can i just tell you?

they say that they love me.

then they say that i deserve better.

they say they are jealous of my comfort character.

i don't wanna lose them. :broken_heart:

@Alex_034 @-_SUN_- brb ill go spam them to see

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

okay...

just not on the private chat please.

@Alex_034 dont worry you wont lose them

@Alex_034 i get it but th3y love you vry much a feel like they Don't deserve you

@Alex_034 i respect your boundarys and i wont go check there

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

are you sure...?

they said i deserve better than them.

that they are a horrible person.

they aren't.

i need them to know that.

@-_SUN_-

i've been trying to tell them how much they mean to me.

they don't listen.

and say they are a bad person and don't deserve me.

@Alex_034 tell them, tell them that you love them and keep reminding them

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

i do.

all day, everyday.

@Alex_034 tell them they mean the world to you and if they do anything to hurt themselves you will go crazy

@Alex_034 how is the bleeding????

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

still the same

@Alex_034 Sh1t, is the water helping????

@-_SUN_-

they say they'd d!e for me.

and i will d!e for them.

if it means that i d!e happy.

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

kind of, a bit.

@Alex_034 tighten the clothe above the wound

@Alex_034 thats good

OMG LOVE IM SO SORRY I ASSNT F ING ON ARE U OKAY? DID U TELL SOMEONE? GO TO THE HOSPITAL!

@M1CR0W4V34BL3 @-_SUN_-

im still scared.

the sight of blood is making me queasy.

@SunLight00000025
i can't.

im home alone.

hospital is too far away.

NO NO NO NO NO NO
DID I CAUSE SOMS OF THIS IM SORRY I AINT LEAVING IM SO SO SO SO SO SO OSI SICISI ISIIVEJ SORRY PLEASE BE ALR9GJT..... IM SORRY IM SORRY FORGIVE ME.. PLEASE.... PLEAS LOVE FIRGIVE MR..

@SunLight00000025

it's okay.

i forgive you.

im still in pain.

i think it's getting worse.

help.

it's getting worse.

i might faint from bloodloss.

im home alone.

someone...

help... me.

@Alex_034 hey im here its alright drink more water

@-_SUN_-

i try.

im throwing it back up though.

along with blood.

@Alex_034 u need help run to any nearby shop anything where people are clse to u

@-_SUN_-

it's too long of a walk.

i live in the middle of nowhere.

it'd take 30 mins to walk somewhere.

it hurts.

RUB TO A NEIGHBORS

USE THEYRE DEVOCE AND TELL

PLEASE LOVE.

@-_SUN_-

i can't call anyone.

i don't have a phone or watch.

no emergency phone either.

what do i do.

LOVE DONT D!E...

@SunLight00000025

none of them are home.

i feel queasy.

im home alone.

no phone or watch.

only this.

@Alex_034 i-i i dont know im out of ideas try find someone

YELL FOR HELP OR SMF

LOVE PLEASE ISTG PLEASE DONT LEAVE MD

@-_SUN_- @SunLight00000025

im trying my best, i can't think of anything.

im throwing up blood now.

im scared...

help me. please...

try swallow the blood when will your parents get home? try sleep

@-_SUN_-

i don't know if they'll be home tonight.

im panicking.

im having an anxiety attack.

help me.

@Alex_034 do u have any relatives? or people you know? go to every door look8ng for help

@-_SUN_-

im trying.

nobody is home.

no relatives i can contact.

try sleep for a bit i cant stay up its 12pm

@-_SUN_-

what if i don't wake up...?

@Alex_034 you will i promise on my life

@Alex_034 sorry for not talking for a while, I needed to go do smth but how are you feeling??? Are you feeling better?? Has the bleeding stoped??

@-_SUN_-

i hope so...

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

pain hasn't stopped.

nor has the bloodflow.

im throwing up blood.

im too scared.

im home alone, no phone, nothing.

help.

@Alex_034 I hope your ok, I'm worried for you, keep updating us on how you are feeling, please don't leave this world

@Alex_034 we care about you, stuff may be rough but just know that I care about you, and other people do, so keep on living

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

thank you.

that helped a bit.

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

my parents just got home.

they are taking me to the Emergency Room.

please let the others know for me, would you?

wish me luck. ^^

@Alex_034 gl

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

i need them to know that im going somewhere safer.

please tell them.

for me.

i have to go now.

please tell them im safe.

@-_SUN_-

thank you.

could you let SunLight00000025 know?

i need them to know that im gonna be okay. ^^

@Alex_034 yup

@-_SUN_-

thank you. i appreciate it.

now im heading to the emergency room.

might see you tmrw. ^^

@Alex_034 cya! get well soon

@-_SUN_-

thanks.

@Alex_034 hope you get better! Wish you the best!

HOPE U FEEL BETTER SOON @Alex_034

*sigh*

@Alex_034 Hi! Are you better?

i hope ur doing okay love..... :broken_heart: @Alex_034

I just read back over this entire chat.. I am.......so.....sorry..... we were reading and I couldn't get on.......... i..I... didn't know u were going through all of this and im sorry I couldn't help you in ur moment of need..... I still love you to pieces and you need to live for me...please....im sorry I made you sad and caused this...im sorry I might have k!lied you....just.m.come back.... please.....

I'm sorry my mind got the best of me and I thought it would be best to push you away before I got to attached..... im already f ING attached.... If you d!e from this...idk what I'm going to do..... please....PLEASE.... don't d!e...... Im a f ING idiot....u did nothing and I thought to much..... im so stupid...... please.......

@SunLight00000025 @M1CR0W4V34BL3

im doing okay.

thanks for checking.

im still in pain.

just not a ton of it.

the doctor told me that i'll be okay...

just need to rest for now. ^^

@Alex_034 good....take everything easy...

@Alex_034 Glad you are feeling better! just please take care of yourself, ok?

@M1CR0W4V34BL3

i'll try.

thank you.

@Alex_034 im here for you now,please u need to do smt before they do it again.. if i was there.... :anger:

@SunLight_Alex059Alt

yeah...

i'm trying.

they're stronger.

smarter.

better.

@Alex_034 im so worried.... :broken_heart:

they Will go to far........ and i need u to be safe....

@SunLight_Alex059Alt

they already went too far...

@SunLight00000025

also...

who liked this...?

@Alex_034 hm. idk. but if i find em im ripping theyre fingers from theyre hands.

@Alex_034 ik they did. WHICH IS WHY U NEED TO DO SMT TO STOP EM.... :broken_heart:

@SunLight00000025

im trying... :sob:

they won't stop...

no matter what.

@Alex_034 tell ur parents,show what they did. if they dont believe you im gonna show up,at ur damn doorstep and kick all theyre ASSES

@SunLight00000025

i will tell them tonight b4 school.

it's hard to tho...

what if they think im lying...?

@Alex_034 hm..... well do u have any device like a voice recorder or smt? :sob: ik u prob dont but..

@SunLight00000025

unfortunately... no.

@Alex_034 do u have Any other friends that treat you normally..?

@SunLight00000025

yeah... but they're on a month long vacation.

hm.............. if it happens again...i hope u can get away but if it does... we just have t wait it out.. dont ever be alone with one of them.. stick close to the teachers or other students.. and when they get back,have them help you. use theyre phone if they have one.... if i was there i would punch all of em.... :broken_heart:

the pain.

it won't go away.

i wanna cry.

nobody cares.

nobody can stop them, not even the cops.

they told me that i was wrong.

said they were the good guys.

WHY DO THEY GET THE PRAISE?!!?

I GET TREATED LIKE SH!T ALL THE DAMN TIME.

BY EVERYONE.

IM SICK OF IT ALL.

just... let me cry myself to sleep.

and let this nightmare end.

@Alex_034 please live for me.. <3

@SunLight00000025

i will.

but it'll be difficult to deal with.

the CONSTANT suffering.

that they put me through.

the abus3.

the d3ath threats.

everything.

i'll have to deal with.

@SunLight00000025

i wish it could stop.

so i could live in peace.

@SunLight00000025

gtg. ily. :heart:

@Alex_034 ilyt <3

if it dont stop by the time im 17 im gonna go handle them. but yall are moving whenever ur house gets built so i hope thats before i turn 17..