''Another one.'' -DJ Khalid

@SunLight00000025
lol, i had to make that reference

@Alex_034 XD yup.another one u.u

3 now XD

:3 <333333

@SunLight00000025
yes, since we are certified yappers! :triumph:

@Alex_034 we areeeee XD :laughing: :laughing: :laughing:

i can yap abt impressions i do ,vrchat,SAMS

@SunLight00000025
i can yap about anything and everything! :triumph: especially yap about you lol :heart:

@Alex_034 aww same <33333

ur my SuperStar!! <333333333333333333333333

ref from security breach but u are my cute superstar :sparkles:

@SunLight00000025
you're my superstar too! :smiling: :sparkles:

@Alex_034 :sparkles:
tonight im gonna get to talk to u aslong as i want! and until u go sleep XD

im also gonna be rping on vrchat using the emergency phone bc i miss it lol

gonna be in the daycare >:3

@SunLight00000025
ooh cool! and yippee! :smiling:

@Alex_034 yeeee!

when we grow up im gonna buy u a vr and me one at some point (i have 1 but its shared,i play rec room on it,rec room is free and on switch too-) but ten we could play it together :3

@SunLight00000025
ooh, that'd be fun!! :laughing: :sparkles:

@Alex_034 yee!! :sparkles: i have solar avi and eclise,bloodmoon,earth,moon,sun XD >:3 all my favortes ready for rping

@SunLight00000025
nice! im just starting to download rec room! :smiling:

@Alex_034 OMGGGGGG YAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
means i can hug you in vrrrrr!!

@SunLight00000025
yeah! i'll brb so i can get everything set up. stay here tho so i can tell you when im ready! :smiling: :sparkles:

@Alex_034 i will!! :sparkles:

@Alex_034 are u done setting up? i can tell u my user or u can tell me urs! :>

@SunLight00000025
yep! all done! :smiling:

@Alex_034 whats ur name on it?

@SunLight00000025
Alex_034 lol- same as this username

@SunLight00000025
what about yours?

ill friend u rq!

@Alex_034 i frq u on both my accs!

@SunLight00000025
alright! sounds good!

@Alex_034 if u want we can go talk on there since I'm in the car and it doesn't have any delays in telling me when u text XD I downloaded it on the phone and using bars to play it

@SunLight00000025
alright! i'll be right on then! :smiling:

@SunLight00000025
i would never leave you, no matter if you say so. I love you and care for you, okay? You mean the world to me and we deserve to have each other. :heart: No matter what you say that is negative, i would never in my life think about leaving you. :heart:

@Alex_034 aw... thank you baby. <333 u mean the world to me and i will Never leave you. <33333333333

@Alex_034 if ur on im sorry.......... :broken_heart: im so so so sorry if i offended you... i never meant to... i love you sm.....

but you can leave if you want to.... its okay......... :broken_heart:

@SunLight_Alex059Alt
i don't wanna leave you, i swear... you didn't offend me. my mom came in the room and my switch almost got took. i still love you.

@SunLight00000025
i swear, you mean the world to me and i love you. please don't go...

@Alex_034 i got off for awhile im sorry... im sorry i screw up..... im sorry i left the app and u thought i was leaving you.... im sorry... im sorry im sorry please still love me... :broken_heart:

@Alex_034 i would never leave you... im more scared you would leave me.. :broken_heart: :sob:

i hope u got good sleep teddy bear. <3

@SunLight00000025
i did get good sleep, thank you. i just had a nightmare that you would leave me... :broken_heart:

@SunLight_Alex059Alt
i still love you, i just thought you didn't love me anymore.

@Alex_034 I would never I'm sorry I made u have have a nightmare.. :'(

I wouldn't ever leave you.

I had to eat but if ur on we can talk? ^ ^ I wanna talk to ya cause I miss ya :sob:

@Alex_034

@SunLight00000025
i'm gonna be offline most of today but i can talk on rec room rn

@Alex_034 thats okay baby i love u sm <33333

i hope ur days been good

@Alex_034 i hope u still love me teddy bear.. <333

@Alex_034 i wont be on tonight cause sabbath and weathers suppose to get bad... love u <3

@SunLight00000025
my day has been good, i still love you, and also, love you too. :heart:

@Alex_034 thats good :'3 <3333

@SunLight00000025
my mom just decided to plan a 'friday funday' so i was offline most of the day lol- :laughing:

@Alex_034 ah i bet it was awesome XD

i dont do no fundays. we do go to parks tho,sometimes XD

@SunLight00000025
yeah, my mom just took me to a vr arcade so i just hung out there for a while, then got a pedicure. the ''usual'' in our family lol :smiling:

@Alex_034 cool lol! :>

<33333333333333

@Alex_034 cool lol XD
:>
<333333

@SunLight00000025
oh, did u see the new pic i made? ^^

@Alex_034 mhm! ^ ^ XD

@SunLight00000025 A Song For You.
♪I wish that I could hold you in my arms and tell you how much i missed your embrace, because now my heart is broken sine i can't see your face. I wanna hear your kind words, to know that I am safe again. I'll love you now, later, even later, and later then. Please, don't leave... i need you here with me. It'll break my heart if we don't have our sympathy. If you left, my heart would be left alone, broken and shattered, like a weak bone.♪

@SunLight00000025 *continue*
♪I love it when you say good night, makes me feel like i might, find a way to be with you, and together, we'll be two. We were meant for eachother so, please baby, don't go. If you were to leave me, my life would be messed up so... If you're here to take care of me, i'll just show you I can be, be the one to keep you safe, protected in my warm embrace. If you sing this song w/ me, we'll be together, finally! Not irl but on colors live, just to show you that ur mine.♪

@Alex_034 aw <3

and someday ill be able to hug u irl. but until that day comes ill be here,with you. <3333333

i love u sm i cant put it into words.

@Alex_034 10 more minutes and ill be back on,i pray ur safe love <3

@Alex_034 missed u today..hope ur safe... <3

@Alex_034 love i hope ur doing alright :(

@SunLight00000025
i'm doing just fine love, how about you?

@Alex_034 better now that i know ur okay :'3

@SunLight00000025
im glad! ^^

@Alex_034 yeah i got sooooo worried :sob:

@SunLight00000025
same i was so freaking scared...

@Alex_034 same :sob: im so so soooo glad your alright..

ilysm <333

@SunLight00000025
ily 2! ^^

@Alex_034 :love_letter: _^_

@SunLight00000025
yippeee *jumps into the ceiling*

@Alex_034 AGH- :worried:

:gasp: XD

@SunLight00000025
erm... i think im stuck. can u help? *legs wiggle cutely*

@Alex_034 *pulls your leg gently* :sob:

@SunLight00000025
*falls*

*grabs you before you hit the floor* ARG- heavy- *falls aswell* XD
im not strong for a girl T.T

@Alex_034 i hope ur doing good love u <3333

@SunLight00000025
*peter griffin death pose*

im doing good, ily2

@Alex_034 :>

<3333333

i love my teddy bear sm~

i want cuddles u.u

@SunLight00000025
ily2 and SAME- *snuggles you cutely*

@Alex_034 oooo snugglessss *gives you tight gentle cuddles*

@SunLight00000025
*dramatically faints*

@Alex_034 ARMEVEJFKGKEGJFKRKTDFMWJJFMJFMJF DONT FAINT!! :sob:

@SunLight00000025
i almost did lol- *faints*

@Alex_034 JFNEJSKFJJFJMFEJTDO<JFWMFJJJJJSMF

*dramatically flops on the ground pouting*

my cuddles make people pass out :sob:

@SunLight00000025
*uses robux to revive* yo what's good? im back :sunglasses: :sparkles:

*still dramatically pouting*
ill just unrevive you if i give cuddles,which means i cant ever again because i dont want you unrevived

@Alex_034

@SunLight00000025
nuh uh

@Alex_034 yuh huh.. :sob: i dont wanna make you pass out *i say still pouting on the floor*

@SunLight00000025
*sits you up and gives you snuggles instead* i won't pass out, promise. *i say while smiling at you with a shimmer in my eye*

*i looks up at you and looks away* finez..

*gives cuddles*

comfortable.

@SunLight00000025
*chuckles slightly and continues to snuggle*

well, i have to go for the night since i have school tmrw... i'll probably be back on at 5pm tho, ily and gn! ^^ :heart:

@Alex_034 okay ilyt gn! <33 get good sleep!! <33333333333333333333333333

@SunLight00000025
same to you, sunshine! :heart:

@Alex_034 I hope ur having a good day wuv! <33333333333

@SunLight00000025
I am!! ^^ *tackles you gently to the ground with snuggles*

@Alex_034 UR HOMEEEE EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! <333333333333333333333

*snuggles back* :3

@SunLight00000025
yep! im here now, wuv! :heart:

@Alex_034 YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :>

@SunLight00000025
seems your feeling a bit energetic today, eh? now that im here? ^^ :heart: bc I AM TOO!!!!!!

@Alex_034 YUPPPPPO I HAD ABT- 10 NOTIFS TODAY IN ALL,MAYBE LESS,I WAS BORED

@SunLight00000025
yeah, school was really boring today... so yeah! ^^ also, can i ask you something?

@Alex_034 sure ^ ^

@SunLight00000025
i wanna post something but i can't think of anything to draw... :sob: could you give me some ideas? theme is me and dandy ofc lol :smiling:

@Alex_034 you carrying the dandy? XD

dandy give u cheek kiss? idk :sob: i suck at suggesting stuff XD

@SunLight00000025
those are really good ideas!! ^^ any more? (i need the information lol- :laughing:)

@Alex_034 uhhhhhh ',:

trying to sell u stuff? XD

@SunLight00000025
i like it!! very good :thumbsup:

@SunLight00000025
i gtg for the night but ily! ^^ :heart: ttyl!

@SunLight00000025
hey so i have a question for you... and i'm just curious...

@SunLight00000025
I was wondering if... would a straight person perhaps date a person who identifies as a male but was female at birth? THIS IS JUST A QUESTION, MY CHRISTIAN FRIEND NEEDS ADVICE- :sob: sorry if this question makes you uncomfortable... :disappointed:

@SunLight00000025
it's just a question because my friend is a straight Christian and a person who identifies as a male (but was female at birth) asked them out. If we put this in a scenario between me and you... would you still date me if i was the person who asked you out or n-no...? :broken_heart: Remember: just a question!! ^^

@SunLight00000025
I don't wanna ruin this relationship or the other one with my friend if anything happens or if you got uncomfortable... :disappointed:

@Alex_034 it just depends on how they believe. I believe that I need to date strictly males. Because that's how I view the subject. It depends on what they believe. If you were a female at birth I am sad to say I probably wouldn't. Because that's how I view it. I mean.. if I wanted to have kids,how would I? This is just the way I view it. They could be different. I'm sorry if this doesn't help.

I'm sorry for my answer to that question... but I was lesbian once. And I changed my view points I'm not against people who are gay or lesbian. But I'm straight. And to me it's wrong to date the same gender but I ain't judging others who do. Because that would be me being a hypocrite. Because I was once in that crowd.

I know you don't identify as either and sometimes I wonder what to say because I am used to saying gf or bf. But I just call you my partner because you don't identify as either which makes me confused at times. T.T @Alex_034

@Alex_034 im home ^ ^ :3

are u upset with me..?

@Alex_034 wuv....?

ik ur offline but please..please come tell me if ur upset... please,just a answer....

:> they're at school and I'm sure we wrecked this relationship like always.
We suck.

And they'll text or not in abt 2 hours. :3

We gave horrible advice didn't we?

@SunLight00000025
ok! ^^ i was just wondering. thx! i'm not upset or anything, i promise...! just have to tell my friend this. which im nervous about lol-

@SunLight00000025
now my friend says the other person could get surgery to make themselves a full-on man, would they still be dateable to my friend? My friend is also straight btw. ^^

@SunLight00000025
and i'm not upset, my switch times are just stricter now lol- I still love you. :heart:

@Alex_034 to me it would still be a no because,they're a female at birth. They can't have kids after surgery. Most people who have transition surgery kill themselves.. its just sad.. and I couldn't go through that..

@SunLight00000025
they... die?

@Alex_034 well most times.. because the medicine to get theyre hormones changed mess with them and they end up commiting...

@SunLight00000025
well, my friend would never commit! i know that for sure! ans if i was a female and wanted to get surgery, i wouldn't commit either... because i have people (you) who care about my existence. and i care about everyone elses! i wouldn't want to lose anyone... :broken_heart:

@SunLight00000025
*and

@Alex_034 i just said alot of people do,not everyone.

and my parents would never allow me to date someone whos trans.. because they dont support it,but they dont judge others actions.
but my mom says i need a strong man who will fight with me because im mean and soft people cant handle it.

and fighting is part of any relationship sadly. if u dont fight it is basically a dead relationship :sob: thats what ive been raised to know. you fight it out,and feel better after.

i gtg. be back when i get home :sob:

@SunLight00000025
oh... alright.

@Alex_034 ig I'll check in cause I'm using the old phone tho might be 20 minutes before I text again. :skull:

But thats my opinions on that subject- in sorry I can't help any other way. :sob:

@SunLight00000025
that's fine.

@SunLight00000025
i have to go though. might be on later tonight at 8-ish, maybe, maybe not. love you. :heart:

@Alex_034 okay babe! Love u! <3333

@SunLight00000025
:heart:

@Alex_034 im home XD

@SunLight00000025
hey, im back till 8:45. wanna chat?

@Alex_034 sure XD

@SunLight00000025
So... what would you wanna talk about? *also, don't mind the pic i posted... i was feeling a bit coo-coo in the brain :flushed:*

@Alex_034 its alright XD

uhmmmm hmm ',:

how was ur day? ^ ^

@SunLight00000025
fine. annoying friends as usual. and you? ^^

@SunLight00000025
(im getting a ton of hate on that pic now... :disappointed:)

@Alex_034 (one sec ^ ^)

@SunLight00000025
ok... :disappointed:

@Alex_034 whos hating on it? ^ ^

im gonna have a little chat with em :>

@SunLight00000025
it was -Petey- who said 'yeah, no.' it made me cry... :disappointed:

@Alex_034 did u delere the comment? i cant find it :sob:

@SunLight00000025
yeah, because i didn't want it to stay on there... :disappointed:

@Alex_034 alright babe. *hugs*

its alright// :sob:

@SunLight00000025
i just didn't want any drama bc i had a stressful night last night... :disappointed:

@Alex_034 its alright ^ ^
ur okay

@SunLight00000025
i don't feel... okay. :disappointed: :broken_heart:

@Alex_034 i know.. wanna talk abt it.?

@SunLight00000025
sure... :disappointed:

@Alex_034 go ahead babe <3

ill try my best to comfort you any way i can help. <33

@SunLight00000025
ok so... i had to bring my mom to the ER last night, we got there at 10, she didn't come out of there until 12am. I had a ton of mental breakdowns and panic attacks but she's okay... i'm still not. I thought that I was going to lose her... :broken_heart:

@Alex_034 do u feel comfortable sharing what happened.? if not thats totally fine.

im sorry that happened to you.. if it had been me i would have been a huge wreck.. but look,you Could have. its always a possibility. but shes alive. and thats what matters,not what could have happened. @Alex_034

this is gonna be a question ur gonna get p!ssed abt,warning.

what if she Had d!ed? where would she have gone? i believe heaven because i believe in christ,what do u believe would have happened.?

@SunLight00000025
idk what would happen... i'd probably kms.

@SunLight00000025
probably... if i was really REALLY sad. but... i'd pray that she would live a better life in heaven.

i know.. because you love her,just like i love my parents.

and i pray you would have both gone to heaven,a place with joy and not pain. i believe yall would have,but it didnt happen. and ik i sound all christiany and u might find it cringe. but where do we go when we d!e?

emptyness?

would you rather,emptyness or no pain and sorrounded by joy? for all of eternity.

im not forcing my religion but i love you and im speaking from my heart because when we d!e i want us together.

and i want your mom ur whole family,to be happy.

we live on a fence. we can either go to the beautiful side or the horrible side. im not trying to scare u wuv <3 i love u with all my heart.

and if u wanna leave after i finish you may..even tho it will hurt. i just want to share with you. we will all be judged in the end. which side of the fence are you on? (no not accusitory dw babe) but look,if she had d!ed..she would have went to heaven. this life is a test. for afterlife.

@SunLight00000025
yes, i still think that she will live a good life in the afterlife is she dies. :heart:

this is to test your faith when things are rough. my unborn sib d!ed and my pop pop last year both of them within 3 months of each other. and Not Once. did i turn away from god. he helped me heal. i grieved and he helped me And my family.yes sad things happen and at some extent god lets it happen to test our faith to him. god never wants those things to happen.it hurts him. but this is a broken world and the dev!l is evil.

@SunLight00000025
I have to go to bed now but I can talk tomorrow after 5pm. I love you so much, and I hope you have a good nights sleep. :heart: I'll be thinking about you all night and tomorrow. ^^

@SunLight00000025
and yes, the devil is evil. >:(

@Alex_034 she will babe. and ik yall dont know god. the way my family do. and maybe some day i can read the bible with you. you can choose to hate it. thats your choice. but i think by doing this god was testing you,and he uses all bad things for good hun. <3
i think he wanted me to share with you. the way i believe. i love u and ur family even if i havent met yall irl. and god was using this situation for something good. even if something had happened.

@SunLight00000025
Thank you, this really helped me. It made my day much better. I love you so much, and i'll ttyl. ^^ :heart:

@Alex_034 ofc babe ilyt have a good night <3 get good rest and ill talk to u tomorrow at 5! *hugs*

@Alex_034 hope ur having a better day then yesterday and before yesterday! ilysm <33

@Alex_034 I hope ur day at school was good,if not u can talk to me abt it ^ ^

@SunLight00000025
my day at school was fine! yet again... annoying friends lol- >:( How about you? ^^

@Alex_034 im good! just got home XD

T.T

they need to stop messing with u :sob:

@SunLight00000025
fr tho, they bother me 24/7 :sob:

@Alex_034 if i was there id politely tell them to go away before i grab a wacking stick.

@SunLight00000025
same but they would say something worse back :sob:

@Alex_034 i wouldnt care :3

@Alex_034 :>

me being the bigger person would just walk away and ignore the bullies :3

because they want to fight,i do not.

@SunLight00000025
they ain't bullies tho, just idiots lol- :laughing:

@Alex_034 fair but they act rude -,-

and im tired of em messing with my teddy bear 24/7

@SunLight00000025
*sigh* im used to it by now but they're getting more... sεχυαι, if ykw i mean... :disappointed:

@Alex_034 i do. and tbh id probably slap wm if i was there.

but god says to forgive 70x7 so i try my best to be nice :sob:
but if they dont stop,when i get my license ima go give em a piece of my mind.

@SunLight00000025
pls do lol, they are making me UNCOMFORTABLE!! :disappointed:

@Alex_034 I Will. because i dont want no one messing with you. <3

@SunLight00000025
thx, im bouta beat them up tho :rage:

@Alex_034 yeah, i dont want you to get in trouble :disappointed:
and in the end theyre gonna be judged by theyre actions by god. :thumbsup:

@SunLight00000025
yay :3

@Alex_034 mhm,so lets not start a fist fight cause we r gonna be judged for our actions too. :thumbsup:

ily :3 <333

@SunLight00000025
yeah good idea :thumbsup:

ilysm! ^^ :heart:

@Alex_034 ilysm id d!e for ya if i had to. <333333333

ur a amazing partner. <333 (I KEEP GOING TO SAY BF :sob: IM SORRYY)

@SunLight00000025
same :heart: and it's fine lol- enbyfriend is the non-binary term similar to bf and gf if you wanna use that! ^^

@Alex_034 ',: ef?

never heard of it before- :skull:

@SunLight00000025
well... now you have! lol- :laughing:

@SunLight00000025
it isn't ef either... :disappointed: it doesn't have the short term sadly-

@Alex_034 O.O

how will i use it in a sentence- thats a wierd word XD :laughing: welp

@SunLight00000025
whatever u can think of! ^^ i gtg now but ilysm! good night! see you after 5 or 6pm! :heart:

@Alex_034 oki ilyt! <3

@Alex_034 the game keeps erroring on here.. i might be on rec room when u get home.

@SunLight00000025
oh, ok! that's fine.

@Alex_034 UR BACK :> its stoped for rn but it will continue i think :sob:

@SunLight00000025
ye, im back!! :smiling:

@Alex_034 YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

my switch is abt to d!e please hold :>

@SunLight00000025
:thumbsup:

@Alex_034 Back! :>

@SunLight00000025
yippee! ^^

@Alex_034 :sob: i gtg let it charge i gotta watch my sibs ill brb

@SunLight00000025
ok. :thumbsup:

@Alex_034 im back :sob:

i got a haircut :>

@Alex_034 im going on break for a minute..few days maybe.

@SunLight00000025
well... i'll miss you. :broken_heart:

@Alex_034 i cant date you anymore....ur a amazing person and deserve way better then i can give u..im gonna be on break for awhile and im jealous,and sucky,and clingy,anger issued.. and u deserve 1000000000000000000000% percent better then me.. and im stressed over alot of things rn..and lying and hiding stuff from my parents is making my anxiety and mental health terrible..

im sorry i couldnt be the right person..u will find them..and we can still be friends if u want to...i just cant date online.... i hope u understand... u can still use the collab acc if u want to..and block me...im sorry.... bye...

@SunLight00000025
no... don't go please... :disappointed: i still love you, and YOU are the one i deserve.

@Alex_034 I get jealous of ur comfort character,I'm so Clingy I'm jealous of it.

I'm jealous of others who have irl relationships.
I've never dated a non binary person so idk if it's wrong to or not... its very confusing bc in a way ur a girl and a boy but neither so it's confusing :sob:

And im stressed over stuff irl and stuff on here and I just don't know if I can do it anymore.... I have no earthly idea..... im sorry.... im sorry im a horrible person..

@SunLight00000025
listen. you are not a horrible person, and im the horrible on here. i love you more than anything and i'd die for you. you mean the world to me and my comfort character is just someone that stops my artblock. i love you. :heart:

@Alex_034 that doesnt make u horrible.. u should be able to draw dandy because they help you. and me getting jealous of it is stupid.. idkw i get that jealous.... im sorry my brains like this..ive been through...ALOT...of failed relationships so i cling and i get jealous and im scared and i stress and stress and have nightmares abt u leaving like the other day..

i always do this because its what im used to.. the constant fear.. the "they arent spending enough time with me they must hate me" the "omg are they cheating..?" the always telling them they can leave if they want to and to just tell me if htey dont like me anymore..

because im always ready and prepared for heartbreak even tho right after it happenes i hurt deep down..

@SunLight00000025
i would never leave you. no matter what. you mean the world to me and it'd **** me if you left. im a clingy person too and that's completely okay.

@SunLight00000025
that happens to me as well. :(

i cant control my thoughts and im just terrible...

im a horrible partner and a hideous human being and the more i share the more my partners dont like me..

@SunLight00000025
and all dandy does is get rid of artblock. you mean so much more to me than him.

@SunLight00000025
i love you... and i wouldn't hate you any less or at all.

also... i posted something on the alt account.

i love you. :heart:

thanks. for everything.

@Alex_034 IM NOT LEAVING COME BACK IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY..

@SunLight00000025

i nev3r wanted you 2 go.

i felt like i was about to d!e.

im still in pain from screaming.

pain from the abus3 that my friends gave me.

it hurts.

i feel like i might faint.

im losing more and more blood.

help me. please, @SunLight00000025.

@Alex_034 THIS AMIS ALL MY FAULT TELL SOMEONE A MEIGHTBKR AMYONE DONT DIE ON ME PKEASE DONT PLEASE GET HELP ANYWHERE PLEASE OLEASE OKSSE OKEAE PLEAEEOK A AODWKSOEK I MEED YOU I LOVE U I CARE ABT U U CANT

@SunLight00000025

but...

you said you didn't want 2 d8 me anymore.

and that hurts.

im feeling lightheaded.

@SunLight00000025

this isn't your fault.

it's mine.

im horrible.

i deserve this.

all the abus3 from them.

all adults disbelieving me.

i deserve it.

@Alex_034 I WAS STRESSED I DO THAT ALL THE TIME BECAUSE MY THOUGHTS GET THE BEAT OF ME I F ING NEED YOU GO PLEASE FIND SOMEONE ANYWAOBE

IM SORRY I DID THIS TO YOU IM SORRY I SAID THOSE THINGS IM SORRY I FELT ALL THOSE THINGS HUST DONT LEAVE

@SunLight00000025

you are perfect.

im not.

this is why i deserve this.

i love you sm.

you deserve to live without pain. :smiling:

@SunLight00000025

i still love you.

i forgive you completely.

im just hoping i stay alive for now. ^^

please stay safe.

i love you.

i'd do anything for you, you mean the world to me. :heart:

@Alex_034 u better be okay.

@Alex_034 i love u and im sorry.. im sorry i caused this.. im sorry i wasnt there to help.. im sorry i was offline while u were suffering.. im sorry im a moron.. i love u.. please dont leave me.. please stay..please live... please come back to me... please still love me... please dont give up... i need u... <3

bro..... reading this hit hard....

@TigGEr4LiFe Its a private chat! LEAVE PLEASE. /nbr

i wanna sob so hard rn. :> MAKE ME FEEL WORSE THEN I ALREADY DO AND I WANNA KMS RN SO WHY!?

SOME PEOPLE DONT RESPECT NOTHING LIKE...... im already dying inside.... :broken_heart:

@SunLight00000025

im okay.

im out of the hospital.

please don't kys.

im fine and healthy now.

@Alex_034 im not..im here.... kind of in pain...ish...
idk..

@SunLight00000025

im also in pain.

kind of, not really.

im better now.

now that you are here.

@Alex_034 yeah..... :broken_heart: i read all the messages in that chat.. every last one.... and i kinda went..a little nuts.. and i rlly genuinly feel depressed..so im glad ur back... <3

@SunLight_Alex059Alt

im so sorry for making you scared.

i should have kept the pain to myself and suffered.

i hate making others feel bad for my problems.

i feel horrible for this.

why did i have to tell everyone...?

when i could have just suffered.

im so so sorry for making you feel this way.

@SunLight_Alex059Alt

i wanna cry.

i didn't want to feel this.

the abus3.

why didn't i stop them...?

my dumb self.

why?

@Alex_034 NAW U JUST GOT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL ITS NOT UR FAULT. I didnt want u to suffer alone!! i wanted u to tell me... i was offline... and i wish i hadnt been.. u needed support.... U DIDNT DESERVE TO SUFFER AT ALL.....

@SunLight00000025

it was my friends.

so called friends.

who beat and abus3d me.

every fūcking day.

like i was a doll for them to hurt and rip and tear.

until i broke.

and sat there as i cried myself to sleep.

@Alex_034 u didnt deserve that. and u need to tell the teachers. ur parents show them what they have done to u.. UR PARENTS NEED TO ADDRESS IT... :broken_heart:

@SunLight_Alex059Alt

teachers don't care.

didn't do anything but ignore me.

@SunLight_Alex059Alt

im scared.

to tell my parents.

@Alex_034 love,if u dont it will get worse... please.. :(

@SunLight_Alex059Alt

i'll try to.

@Alex_034 ilysm.. <33333 im gonna be worrying mysekf to death for a few days :'3

just rest,be safe,alert ur parents abt the situation,and yeah.. *hugs* (not to tight so i dont hurt ya) i love you babe.. im so sorry... <333

@SunLight_Alex059Alt

it's okay... ily2.

im still in pain, not a lot.

im getting rest and hydration.

@Alex_034 thats good,u need it. u need a ton of rest.

@SunLight00000025

yeah... :heart:

@Alex_034 i talked to the person who liked ur vent post. rhey havent texted back but i told them to unlike please and not to like anymore of u or my vents. :thumbsup:

ily <33

@SunLight00000025

thx... ily2. :heart:

@SunLight00000025

help. there's 2 people harassing me about my art.

-xx_milo_xx- and Bloodbell are their users.

they are accusing me of drawing nsfw and unsafe art of dandy. pls help. :sob:

@Alex_034 IM COMING

@Alex_034 :sob: tag me

@SunLight00000025

raditude_'s latest post.

i don't wanna tag u in it tho.

@SunLight00000025

it'd be too stressful.

i thought i saw the devil..this morning...looking in the mirror.. drop of rum on my tongue..with a warning..to help me see myself clearer.. i never meant to start a fire..i never meant to make you bleed.......ill be a better (girl) today..

Ill be good ill be good..

and ill love (you) like i should..yeah..

ill be good ill be good,for all of the times..that i never could..

My past has tasted bitter...for years now..so i weild a iron fist,grace is just weakness..or so ive been told ive been gold ive been merciless.. but the blood on my hands scares me to death.. maybe im waking up..today..

ill be good ill be good,

and ill love (you) like i should,yeah..

ill be good ill be good.. (ill be good ill be good...)

for all of the life..that i..shut out..

for all of the innocent things that i doubt..

for all of the bruises ive caused and the tears..

for all of the things that ive done..all these...YEARS... no...

(yeah for all the sparks that i..stomp out..

for all of the perfect things that i doubt....)

ill be good ill be good,and ill love you like i should..yeah..

ill be good ill be good..for all of the times.. i never could..

for all of the times...i never could... :broken_heart:

pls im sorry for making you sad @SunLight00000025...

@dandys_world_123 get.out.of.my.private.chats.with.alex.right.now.

...

@dandys_world_123 these chats are ONLY for them. get out of em.it says ONLY alex,no one else.

SHUT UP I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT
HOW OLD ARE YOU ANYWAYS CUZ IM 19

@dandys_world_123
U R NOT. AND ITS CALLED PRIVACY FOR A REASON,RESPECT IT.

NO LITTLE ****

@-xx_milo_xx- k!ll me. pls.

@-xx_milo_xx- i..wanna..d!e....

hugs......please....... :broken_heart:

i wish alex was on...i want this to end but hes a liar and wont get outta my private chats i just.... im so depressed lstely.. past few days im a coward but i wanna harm myself..i scratched my arm so much they turned red and did it agsin bc i cant pick up a knife bc camera and im such a coward.. its building up inside i just need someone..... so.... bad.... :broken_heart:

@-xx_milo_xx- thank u.....sm... *hugs*
u dont know how badly i needed one........

ive been terrible ever since alex went to the hospital and it hasnt stopped... :broken_heart:

@-xx_milo_xx- <3/p .. :'( tysm...

im gonna make u smt. i feel like its needed.. u were here and u have been a big help....

i dont blame alex for not being here,theyre sleeping and they went to the hospital a few days ago,they need rest.

but im still making u smt. ty friendo.. :sparkles:

@-xx_milo_xx- its alright...
im sorry they just called u that.. :broken_heart:

theyre horrible ppl...

@-xx_milo_xx- yeah but it was still very mean..

@-xx_milo_xx- I gotta go sleep.. I'll make ur picture in the morning ^ ^ have a good day or night. <3/p

@Alex_034 look at the last think u said and read from there,it was a song.. <3 and uh drama happened. ima go eep. ily <3

@SunLight00000025 ur a big baby!!!

I'm glad they blocked me. I was so sick of it.

I hope u get on at some point.. I miss ya.. @Alex_034

It's been a day or more since u were on last.. and I feel very depressed.. and I had a song but I might have to send it again bc of drama...

@_-P01S0N_FL0W3RS-_ yeppers. :disappointed: this generation.

yeah...

yet another day of being glad to not be a gen alpha !!

@_-P01S0N_FL0W3RS-_ i wonder if im gen alpha- :sob:

nah,,

12 and over isnt gen alpha ^^

or was it 13??? unsure

@_-P01S0N_FL0W3RS-_ THANK GOODNESS :sob: i dont wanna be apart of that gen :disappointed:

it gets worse as the years go on

it really does,, </3

hi how are u are u okay?