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Turns out the knife only went through my shirt but i literally dropped to the floor and cried. That was one of the scariest things ive experienced. Sadly, you all are the only people i told. My parents CANNOT know

Also, i guess im just struggling. My self-esteem is disappearing and my scárs are growing. I wish there was a way to commit sùìcide without pain.

im so sorry ur going through that!
im a coward so i wouldnt be able to.
and my mom said "it doesnt end the pain it gives it to others" and thats what i live on.

alot of ppl care about you and love you.

im here if u wanna talk friendo! <3/p

@SunLight00000025 oh God i've heard that saying a lottttt T_T I'm also a coward in doing so lol---

Like if i were to actually stàb myself id probably throw up lol

yeah. and we have a camera in the kitchen/livingroom so id be caught or i wear short sleeves so they would find out,we dont have bandages- so i cant rlly do anything. but i try to think positive! ^ ^

srry abt the saying! its just smt my mom told me so i stick with it lol

@SunLight00000025 no you dont have to apologize for the saying lol. I also tend to wear short sleeves when im alone but other times i wear long sleeved shirts. But it is getting harder now since we're going into summer where i am-

yeah i would die if i wore long sleeves in summer :skull: id prefer not dying by a heat stroke

@SunLight00000025 Lol fr

Is it ok if i vent to you? I dont rlly have anyone else-

yeah,ofc!

@SunLight00000025 Oml ty T_T

@SunLight00000025 So--basically my life sucks T-T
I dont rlly get why i'm like this though because i have a loving family like ive never been @bùsed but when someone raises their hand to me, i flinch-

same. i get that. loving family.
my dad left when i was abt 4 (?) and came back months later. his tempers enough to make u sick when u think ur gonna get in trouble. hes never put his hands on any of us or our mom but still a fear. we left him when we were- 8 i think and then he came back again,months later. i dont feel as connected with him.

but i do get that,pls continue- srry for interupting

@SunLight00000025 oh im srry you felt like that

its alright,pasts past. tho he has changed a bit and he hasnt left us since he still has a big fiery temper :skull: and im always there when they fight. they fought when the power went out. its just very nervewrecking and everytime we hear a door slam we think hes gonna leave. he slams those things hard :skull:

last year was rough,not bc of my dad,but bc of 2 loses in the family in a 3-4 month span.
anyways! enough abt me ^ ^
i just wanted to share similar experiences,u continue

@SunLight00000025 oh dang. Im sorry D:
I don't have anything else. So, if you want to vent you can :3

its alright lol,im fine! mostly.

i try to concentrate on the positive :sparkles:

there are a few things ive been through like physically bullied by 3 boys in k-1st it wasnt much of a impact but i do remember some of it.

ive been hacked on discord and blackmailed before :skull: that stays with me. and im scared everytime a hacker shows up on here so im to scared to tell them to go away. -,-

animals and the ground basically hate me. XD

im childish. T.T even tho im a teenager.

im awkward.

ive maimed the inside of my head (i think) bc i used to punch my left side of my head when i got angry and so it sometimes feels like pressure. started2 months ago and wer ginna ask the doctor abt it.
animals have given me scars XD

i get called ugly and fat sometimes :laughing: im good tho.

theres alot of stuff that happen,but everything gets better at some point. thats what u have to remember. :sparkles:

@SunLight00000025 how much we relate is insane bro

Just know that it'll get better. I believe you can do it. Youll push through life with no problems at all

i believe in u too! :sparkles:

with friends and loving people we get through all the rough patches ^ ^

@SunLight00000025 Real!!! Yk what ima add you to my bio if thats fine with you cuz youre rlly nice

yeah and ill add u to mine!

ur cool too :sparkles: :3

i hope ur having a better day today friendo!

@SunLight00000025 I guess you could say that lol

How are you?

im good ^ ^
we went out to eat lunch,and tonight im spending the night with my grandparents :sparkles: :3 so i get to stay up almost all night XD

@SunLight00000025 ooh man that sounds awesome

yeah,im gonna get on vrchat tonight using the emergency phone XD and rp :sparkles: i miss that app. sm.

@SunLight00000025 lol. well have fun :33

ty!! :sparkles: :>

@SunLight00000025 ofc :D