so, i got a crochet kit

and i was following to instructions
but i didn't know tf i was doing and couldn't rlly understand
and when i cant figure something out

cant do something

to the point i have to give up

i get EXTREMELY frustrated

to the point where i start crying and wanting to s/h or bite myself

idk why

either where when i was little, my mom would basically threaten traumatizing things to me and yell when i couldn't figure my homework out and shi

OR im just weird