like what feels like all day but im still thinking about it

its so funny watching people around me change in their own little ways and how i changed myself to
accommodate that, only to go through like a ton of anxiety attacks that last for days on end w suicidal ideations just from being around them like! oh!
people can deny and deny and try to defend themselves but you cant,, erase proof?,,,, esp when i have at least three people to back up my reasoning because they did things 2 them 2 or saw