parents just don't get it... i feel the same way as you...

i feel like I've been living under a rock for all my life

@_-foxylily-_
isolation is good to a point
isolated from the world n ppl dat aint ur fam for yrs. . . .yeah no, dats leaving alot of emotional damage, just damage in general

socializing is both the problem n answer in my situation
i used to be like sethos
a social butterfly

your very right... I've never had friends or ever acquaintances, really, except for family. i don't even know why, except for the fact that i used to get sick REALLY easily... then the p4ndemic started... and im homeschooled... i can sorta remember going to church, usually sitting next to my sis, because my mom had to help everyone else... and she was busy too, so i never really had anything explained to me, and it was kinda scary, honestly. i just stared at a weird-looking-at-the-time CONT

stained-glass window... idk y im saying this rn even... but there were 12 people in our family at the time, most with down syndr0me, so it was utter chaos... then my brother was born, so everything was just going nuts... that's when we stopped going to church. (the crazy walk across the cross-walkless street from the parking garage there was also very difficult) we NEVER went to midnight mass on Christmas or anything, i didn't even know that was a thing until recently. i never had communion

either. im actually really afraid to, if i ever do, bc of confession... i have a LOT of stuff hidden... i don't know what the heck would happen if anyone ever knew... yeah... but anyway, im just exactly what you described there, unfortunately. idk what I'm gonna do when the day comes that i have to pay for something...

@_-foxylily-_
heh so we r more similar than i thought
when we went to church, is get in n get out
my parents always say "u dont need friends"
after being locked up i realized dat yeah, u actually do
as for the hidden stuff, depending on what it is, i dont think it should be bad
i hide things even now, but in reality is just something innocent, like a pretty Kaeya, or my chats w Vero, heck my emails from my cousin n my big brother
anoter thing is m sketchbook
to me it just seems like a-

invasion of privacy
its nothing bad but, i still dont want my parents to see, cuz its something private
my mom has recently been making me pay for things
its embarrassing cuz i was rlly clos to just breaking down infront of the clerk...who was waiting for me to give her the money
n the she asked me a question
"what happened to u? u werent like dis before"
. . .
4 yrs of isolation n absolutely no social interaction w ppl
dats wht happned
u dont expect someone to change???

ofc people change after that, she should realize that. what she shouldn't do is put you on the spot to pay 4 stuff like that. that's just plain rude. as 4 the hidden stuff, that's completely fine, It's really innocent. i hide my sketchbook all the time now, it started when i was drawing a basic female body, and my brother saw, and immediately grabbed it and ran to my mom to show her how 'discusting' my 'naked women's b00b drawings' are. i was ruined inside. ofc she went nuts. told me to keep CON

drawing 'nice animals and nature stuff, your so good at those things' yeah well maybe i want to draw people. sometimes i think about showing her some of my more manga-style art, but she doesn't like anime, or manga, or anything like that rly CONT

she'd probably scr3am if she saw genshin, she thinks anything anime or Manga-ish is automatically r1squé, so i never get to show her that i don't draw b00bs all day, and yeah. the end.

@_-foxylily-_
dats nuts
boõbas r part of anatomy
n yeah, sometimes u have to draw the person naked to understand it
draw wha U want, not what others want
art is an expression, if they dont like it, then its none of their business to linger w ur art
ik as a child, u would like to show ur parents stuff
n it hurts when ever they criticise, or insult it, or get the wrong idea
its a part of u
i understand
they shouldnt tell u what to draw

if they dont like anime
big deal, they have their own interest, its noting more dan an artstyle
its just Japanese cartoon
my bothers r always telling me to draw more girls
no.
i draw what i want
n if u see, som of my pretty bois look like girls, n often critisize how they always look like girls
yk what, i realize dats just my life
ppl think im a boi
so
my bois w look like girls
if they dont like it, idc
the onlything i agree w is....
they need more muscle

if they dont like anime artstyle
or exaggerated boõbas
then create an artsyle, they cant say its anime, sure it my be inspired by anime, but its not
ik parents want to protect their children n all
but, sometimes is a lil too much
i was homeschooled to be away from woke influencers at my school
it was find, but the cost was loneliness n social anxiety
n my total view on the world
u draw what u want
but cuz of them, be careful
humans takes alot of practice, n sometimes some features may be

exaggerated,it wont look, pretty sometimes, or correct
but who cares
its part of the learning process

ur not doing anything wrong, ur just learning art n how to express urself

ur so supportive, ty.

@_-foxylily-_
no problem
im always here for u hun :purple_heart:

^ ^

i g2g, unfortunately

good luck

i get it. ive been homeschooled since i started 5th grade (im in 9th hasnt been that long ig.) 5 years and the only time we r in public,supermarkets and restraunts. then we go to our grandparents house and church and thats it (unless we go to my non bio sibs houses to hang out.) but its kinda lonely and i get the worlds a rough place,irl and online,but still. im very socially stunted (said my aunt) and im bad at talking with strangers. T.T
not online ofc- well if i text-

but srry for ranting i hope ur having a good day so far!

@SunLight00000025
ig dats what it is
isolation is no good
i used to be such a social butterfly
now i cant even look at a person

same.. :'(
i miss being a social butterfly. idk how to be one again tho. heh so i tend to make friends online and spend alot of time online talking to them.

@SunLight00000025
i think once ur out there n time passes u get used to it
like exposure therapy or somethig

maybe. ive noticed myself kinda talking to ppl a bit more recently. i talked to my new docter i just met the other day. i talk a bit more confident when im telling waiters my order lmao
its so hard to tell ppl what u want when ur very socially awkward- :sob: :sob: :sob:
but getting better i think!

@SunLight00000025
somedays u feeling it, other days not so much
my first reaction of seeing someone (a neighbor) is still to hide as fast as possible
its a lil awkward when my parents catch me hiding from em. . .

yeah,my neighbors i dont see much- the houses arent right beside our house