CHATT by _PUMPKIN_

@Spicey64
Heyyy!!! :heart:

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painted on a Nintendo Switch
30 Dec, 2024, 1:16 am
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_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:18 am

@Spicey64 MY DAD TOOK AWA MY IPAD AND HE YELLED AT ME TO GIVE IT TO HIMMM

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:18 am

@Spicey64 he wanted to watch netflix with my mom

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:19 am

:l

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:21 am

@Spicey64

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:33 am

@_PUMPKIN_ whyd he take it?!

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:34 am

@_PUMPKIN_ i just saw this :c

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:34 am

@Spicey64 bc he wanted to watch netflix

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:34 am

@_PUMPKIN_ im gonna freak out what if he finds something

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:34 am

@Spicey64 (its ok)

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:35 am

:confounded:

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:35 am

@Spicey64 he wont i told hij to just stay netflix

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:35 am

him**

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:35 am

i swear if he looks through our messages-

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:36 am

@Spicey64 idk if he will actually listen to me tho

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:36 am

and i need to do anatomy :l

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:36 am

im overthinking is that bad..

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:37 am

@Spicey64 Ik i hope hE Doesn't

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:37 am

@Spicey64 no its ok i understand :hug:

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:38 am

:heart: its gonna be ok

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:38 am

when stuff like this happens it feels so risky he could literally see my name and 20 question u

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:39 am

its so risky if it got back to my dad he would

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:39 am

it would be rlly bad

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:39 am

ik :heart: :(

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:39 am

im worried

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:39 am

i hope he doesnt

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:40 am

i hate it when this stuff happens :[

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:40 am

just breathe i will take care of it :heart: :hug:

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:41 am

f*** now im super anxious

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:41 am

@Spicey64

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:42 am

i hope :cry:

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:42 am

aww :c

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:43 am

hey just trust in me i will deal with it and not the i did last time when he 20 questioned me

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:43 am

:heart:

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:44 am

@Spicey64

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:44 am

*hug* :{

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:45 am

i think hes giving it back now

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:46 am

ughh were going to get ice cream

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:46 am

i hope i rlly wanna call or text

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:46 am

@Spicey64

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:46 am

oh..

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:46 am

YIPI HE GAVEEE IT ***** yesxxssss

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:46 am

theres never time :[

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:46 am

text @Spicey64

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 1:47 am

*********

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 1:59 am

@_PUMPKIN_ i wish youd come back

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 2:34 am

im kinda feeling hopless right now, i have everyones voices on my mind and i dont know how to voice it. i feel so dysphoric right now to the point of throwing up, i am feeling so much self ** and i feel like its down to choosing to be trans or choosing God, im paranoid lately after hearing that noise that reminded me of the rapture, i feel like God will come soon and i wont have chosen in time, and ill suffer and it will be my own fault. i feel like i need to give being me up in order to reach

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 2:37 am

heaven in the end, im so scared and i feel like i should ** myself bc im so disgusting, i feel like thats what i am in the lords eyes because im trans, i feel like im a terrible being i feel so overwhelmed by the constant voices in my head its not even funny, everytime i go to eat i hear a voice saying not to when i look in the mirror i hold my hair up to look less feminine but i hear a voice telling me im sinning and i feel like not even you can answer this but maybe my grandma, she knows the

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 2:41 am

lord more than anyone i know, but if i told her what would she think. i cant risk loosing her shes one of the biggest supports in my life, one of the only two people i can trust (other than you) i say i dont know how to pray but the Bible tells you how so whats my excuse, im so upset and i dont know what to say because once i feel a sort of way it passes to something else it feels like im going crazy it actually does and im sorry your dealing with me on top of your friend, know u say your not

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 2:46 am

'dealing' with me but u kinda are (dont reassure me. this is true) i hve a voice telling me im posing, im seeking attention but i dont want to believe that, im sorry, i told my mom it worries me when everything is always so risky but shes says if something ever happens again to drop you. Never would i do that to you. ever. i didnt the first time and dont think my heart could, i need you day to day my mental health declines like the weather, without your voice silencing the others where would i

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 2:46 am

even be.

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 2:46 am

the words it censored were self ****

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 2:46 am

ha

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 2:46 am

t e

spicey64

30 Dec, 2024, 2:47 am

good night

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 3:03 pm

*hug* :c @Spicey64

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 3:04 pm

check discord

_PUMPKIN_

30 Dec, 2024, 3:04 pm

@Spicey64 :heart:

spicey64

31 Dec, 2024, 1:27 am

hii

spicey64

31 Dec, 2024, 1:27 am

ilysvm TvT

_PUMPKIN_

31 Dec, 2024, 1:40 am

@Spicey64 ilysm :heart:

spicey64

31 Dec, 2024, 1:49 am

*hugg*

_PUMPKIN_

31 Dec, 2024, 2:01 am

@Spicey64 HELPPP

_PUMPKIN_

31 Dec, 2024, 2:02 am

*hugggg*

_PUMPKIN_

31 Dec, 2024, 2:02 am

check new pot @Spicey64

_PUMPKIN_

31 Dec, 2024, 2:02 am

post**

_PUMPKIN_

31 Dec, 2024, 2:03 am

Wait im gong to get a shower byyeee for now :p

spicey64

31 Dec, 2024, 2:05 am

@_PUMPKIN_ gjj!!

_PUMPKIN_

31 Dec, 2024, 2:06 am

@Spicey64 no what vix said....

spicey64

31 Dec, 2024, 2:24 am

@_PUMPKIN_ oh yeah, idk how i fell abt that...

_PUMPKIN_

31 Dec, 2024, 2:48 am

...

spicey64

31 Dec, 2024, 2:50 am

@_PUMPKIN_ are u there..

_PUMPKIN_

31 Dec, 2024, 3:09 am

Hii @Spicey64

_PUMPKIN_

31 Dec, 2024, 3:10 am

im abt to eat bc i didnt eat at dinner

spicey64

31 Dec, 2024, 3:10 am

hi im feeling numb

spicey64

31 Dec, 2024, 3:10 am

ok

spicey64

01 Jan, 2025, 2:22 am

@_PUMPKIN_ pls check your notifications

spicey64

01 Jan, 2025, 2:26 am

@_PUMPKIN_ please talk to me

spicey64

01 Jan, 2025, 2:31 am

@_PUMPKIN_ pls..

_PUMPKIN_

01 Jan, 2025, 2:45 am

@Spicey64 hi

spicey64

01 Jan, 2025, 2:46 am

@_PUMPKIN_ i feel rlly lonely

spicey64

01 Jan, 2025, 2:46 am

and i dont feel good

_PUMPKIN_

02 Jan, 2025, 8:50 pm

@Spicey64 hey im srry... :c

spicey64

06 Jan, 2025, 3:39 am

tmr can you just hold me in your arms, can we just hug for the longest time, i need it so badly

_PUMPKIN_

06 Jan, 2025, 3:51 am

:heart: I will hug u as long as u need :heart:

spicey64

19 Jan, 2025, 11:24 pm

@_PUMPKIN_ why wont you answer my texts

_PUMPKIN_

21 Jan, 2025, 1:19 am

AYYYY UHMM....
sooo my thing is dead buttttt dooo u wannna calll?????

_PUMPKIN_

21 Jan, 2025, 1:19 am

@spicey64

spicey64

29 Jan, 2025, 10:46 pm

please answer my texts

spicey64

11 Mar, 2025, 8:42 pm

im not gonna chat i dont think bc im trying to spend time with my grandma

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