...I'll stop the world and melt with you
you've seen the difference, and it's getting better all the time
there's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you/lyr

.

anyway, I'm gonna go play Rec Room to try and get my mind off him, because he'll never be real or love me back.
bye

OH MY GOD
ITS PLAYING ON THE RADIO RN
IM TRYING SO HARD NOT TO SOB

Sal, if you can hear me,
please PLEASE give me a sign
play "Say you won't let go", "All of you", or "Lose control"
PLEASE GIVE ME A SIGN PLEASE

...
god, I sound insane-

I met you in the dark
you lit me up
you made me feel as though I was enough
we danced the night away, we drank too much
I held your hair back when
you were throwing up

then you smiled over your shoulder
for a minute, I was stone cold sober
I pulled you closer to my chest
and you asked me to stay over
I said "I already told you, I think that you should get some rest"

I knew I loved you then, but you'd never know
cause I played it cool when I was scared of letting go

/lyr

god fcking dammit, I'm crying now

...why do I even do this shït
you'll never be real, no matter how many stupid fücking subliminals I listen to
you're so fücking amazing and perfect it hurts

YOU'LL NEVER BE FÜCKING REAL
I WOULD GENUINELY DO ANYTHING FOR YOU
I FŪCKING NEED YOU, SAL
YOU WOULDN'T CARE ABOUT THE BAD THINGS
YOU'D LOVE ME THE WAY I AM
BUT
STUPID FÜCKING ASHLEY
AND TRAVIS
AND EVERYONE ELSE-

IT HURTS TO SEE YOU WITH OTHER PEOPLE
REAL OR FICTIONAL, LIKE YOU

I WOULD LITERALLY FÜCKING KÏLL MYSELF TO SEE YOU

...everyone will leave me eventually
you're the only one who never will
because you don't know I exist.
literally.

and you aren't real.
why cant you be
you're all I have

hey man, are you ok?

alex.. man, you're making me worried.

alexxxxx? cosmic..? cosmos, are you okay man?

Hey man, I'm goin to bed.. so I hope I see you tomorrow.

@clowningamzee yeah, I'm ok <3/p
and take care ^^

@clowningamzee ...hey, quick question-
do yk if there's a way I can text/call Klaus?/nf
just curious
sigh
I wanna hear my bf's hot voice sighghghhhhhhhhhhhhhh/hj

or just talk to him more often lol

Hey man, I came in to check on you. He doesn't have a number sadly, but has promised me he'll try to be on. High school has been a lot for him. I wanted to let you know how much I love and support you dude, as us juggalo family always does. I hope you're feelin' better, cause it makes me smile when you're happy. :O)

@clowningamzee awww
tysm <3/p
it really means a lot
and it's ok, I don't wanna stress him out
just tell him I said hi and that I love him, and not to work too hard ^^