ok... sooo...

I have a severe fear of abandonment, due to events from back in 3rd grade.
I way in a bit of a toxic "friend group", and it makes me think all my friends think im really annoying, and secretly are trying to get rid of me every chance they get. :}

I only had 2 friends growing up. They were twins, named Stella, and Juju. Back then I was Undiagnosed wth autism and ADHD. Bc of this, I got in trouble A LOT. Every year, at about the same time, a new person would become a part of our friend group. Every one in the friendgroup would start excluding me. My mom would always help me, and they would start including me again, but the same thing would happen he next year.

Back then, i never thought anything of it. it was prob bc, as i mentioned b4, these were the only friends i had ever had. I had no clue this wasnt normal. Looking back on it though, i realized... they all hated me. They all thought i was super annoying, and constantly tried to get rid of me, but i was too naive to realize it.

Because of this, I now always worry that my friends secretly hate me... fun ;} :thumbsup:
Recently, my "friend" Cloe, told me... She doesn't actually consider me a friend :*>

so now i just feel like everyone secretly hates me, and is just lying to me :D

I have no friends, and i've never had anyone consider me their closest friend. The only person to ever make me feel like i'm their first priority for even a second... lives in the uk, and we'll never actually meet irl, EVER.

I also feel way too self-conscious to ask anyone if they wanna be ther fren.

PLS PPL!! i follow very few ppl, so if im following u, i prob think ur super cool, and rlly wanna be ur friend!!!! PLZ BE MY FREN!!!!

@ASTRO- @Sable_TheGreat ig...

ppl can comment now. srry im taggin u sable. u prob dont rlly know me, ur just the only person online...

its fine :3

oh my god thats.. im so sorry this is happening to you i dont hate you theirs nothing to even hate your awesome!!!!
You did NOT deserve that! You are amazing in every way!
I know exactly how you feel... whenever i do a small wrong thing and my friend doesnt start talking to me again i get real scared

BELEVE ME girl i would take a bullet for you your one of the best besties ive ever had!!!! You do not deserve any of this!!!!
You are amazing!!!! I will always love and care about you girl!!!! You might have some toxic friends but that doesnt mean you dont have good friends too!!! If i ever meet that group i will beat the life out of them>:(((

Oh no :[
I have a simaler experience from when I was in 4th grade :/
I also struggle with having frens that dont consider me the higest priority in a freind group, or even 2nd, im just constantly a backup...