im gray! :D
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kk, ill make my version!! and u'll duet it!!! trust it can b our pfp :nail_care: @LemonadeSundae

yay!!

so basically i still like u. its been hard 4 me to get over u. trust me im trying but its hard. i still think abt u and shi. its just i cant man. i cant see u on here anymore without feeling upset. i literally want to cry everytime i see u. ik its not healthy but i cant help it. so i just unfriended u bc i could see u online without crying. so no i havent moved on. im trying. i really am but its hard. so yeah thats y. its basically bc i cant handle seeing u, or anything without feeling like I

did something wrong. like i feel like everything was my fault. that I wasnt good enough 4 u. and u honestly moved on so quickly. And yes, i was lying to u when i said i had a tiny crush on u. im still inlove with u. idk what to do with my feelings. im trying, im trying but its hard. you made me feel wanted, yk? i finally felt like i wasnt a burden, i wasnt annoying bc i had u, yk? i loved u bc u were sweet to me. idc if u were different from me, I. Loved. You. but uh yeah. im sorry. i just-

Couldn't do it anymore, yk what i mean? i cant talk to u. i just cant, bc it hurts, it fücking hurts bc i lost u. ik it been almost 2 months since shi ended, ik. but i cant help it. uh yeah. after u, i dont even wanna date any1 anymore, bc i cant. i literally cant. so uh yeah, take that information as you will. idc.

im sorry. im so fücking sorry.

@FuseTheProtogen

dem. pooks. listen to me. i dont wanna trauma dump but like..short story is ive never had a stable family and im constantly bouncing between or losing parental figures. im used to people not wanting tobe with me, so when we split i was...i man i wasnt happy about it by any means but

i was at least able to like...drag myself onward and try to move on. honestly tho? i do miss you too. a lot. like... a LOT

oh? well tbh it really did hurt me when u already moved on. bc i felt like i wasnt enough, yk? i get it tho. i just couldnt force myself to move on from u. @FuseTheProtogen

like...idk i kinda like wanted to,send you an invite ortwo in fortnite, there was an emote i wanted to send ya, but...i was worried itd be weird if i did

oh you said something sorry i was typing i didnt see

but no i never wanted to move on, nor did i want you to. i was just...good at it, if that makes sense? i still think abt you all the time

nah i would had been confused and shi if u did lol

also i feel just super fücking anxious rn talking to u.

i get it tho dw. um yeah. now u know im still madly inlove with u and literally cant move on
JUST TELL ME TO KMS GODDD RAHHH /jk (thats a joke i make all the time with my friends, it basically a inside joke. i just cant say it too loud in front of teacher or ill go back to psychiatry hospital 0_0) @FuseTheProtogen im making jokes bc idk im anxious rn? idk my hands r shaking like crazy tho

@SillyLilGooberDemian i get it, im a lil nervous too...um...just take a deep breath bean, its fine. i..dont wanna tell you to do anything tho, i get told to do it too often and its almost happened so.,.maybe keep that inside joke inside it's friend circle if thats okay ;w;

but..yeah..um..if you wanna like..get back together or something, i wouldnt object or anything... (im downplaying my obvious raging desire to get back with my darling baby boy im sorry im just nervous)

nah thats fine i understand dw ^^

btw not rn, bc well ur in a relationship and i rather not. bc im not poly @FuseTheProtogen i never had been

ur okay, im nervous too, bro, im dying i need air. im just so damn anxious

@SillyLilGooberDemian well...about that...we arent official, or exclusive...viv said they had been crushing on me for a while and i didnt really wanna keep missng u so bad, so i just..kinda hoped dating them would help, it didnt really tho...were more like close friends than anything, we never really talk or anything. i was actually planning on just asking if we can let the inevitable happen while were still kinda happen, so...im not really taken i guess...

oh- im sorry so ig we both been having relationship problems lately, i havent even tried to actually to talk to any1 tho. bc like it wouldnt help. uh so um maybe figure out what u 2 r. and uh ill get back to u, yk? but my irl friend kinda dont like u bc how things ended. probs bc i was super upset when i told her what happened. but yeah. @FuseTheProtogen but i dont wanna date rn, bc well yk. maybe soon tho? bc idk emotions r hard :sob:

btw whats thw invet whatever that word is.

@SillyLilGooberDemian no its...its fine...i uh..forgive me, brain damage from the accident, but why'd we break up again?

invet word?

but i would like to start talking talk to u again, if u like um, if u want u could readd me on switch or just turn on ur status on ur acc so my other acc can see, bc i do have u on my other nintendo acc, daisy/Daizy name basically

inevitable! that word

i forgive u. dw.

ur words, not mine, "we're too different" and uh "not good enough for u" and uhhhh this 1. "its not you, its me, and ur friends dont like me" and i do have the screenshots if u want what u actually said. btw i sc everything, every convo bc idk. im special. i feel like i have to. plus we technically did break up if we werent actually tg, (sadly :c ) @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian oh..yea...that was during then wasnt it...umm iwas probably just in a dark place, i didnt really mean much of that...apart from ur friends liking me, you said that and i kinda felt i wasnt good enough bc of it

Mannnn personally, i love them but fück them, yk, i cant let them control my left, ima abt to b 16, i need to start thinking for myself and not to please others, yk? i want to b my own person, i do not wanna b controlled no more. i been wanting to tell u how i feel bc i literally think abt u everyday(i cry every time i do, but that unrelated :D) but um i really have missed u, more than u could have know. @FuseTheProtogen

also that above ur comment was supposed to say didnt. even tho we werent tg, i did wish we were

@SillyLilGooberDemian ye i guessed that typo...but like...im feeling better, way healthier..seems you're better off too now (congrats on that btw)...soooooo nothings really stopping us from dating?

hah nahh my health got so much worse since u left. so much worse @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian im guessing its my fault? ;w; im sorry bean...

i havent relapsed dw dw. but yeah, i readded u on switch btw. um plus im not ready 4 a relationship yet bc uh yeahhhh.

i never wanted to hurt you, or anyone..idk why it keeps happening i just wanna do something good for once :sob: i love you...

nope. my daddykins told me to kms sooo and gaslighted me after he told me @FuseTheProtogen my life has gotten sm worse.

i...sorry if that's too soon, but..i do. a lot. too much.

just...hang in there...i gotta go...

nah, iget it, dw, i also hurt u too. i am taking full reponsibty for that. @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian no its fine...i shouldnt have uh...done something or another. its never ur fault, its probably just something i did

same here...um yeah. i love u too but i cant with relationships rn...alright? but its not ur fault @FuseTheProtogen

ik but it wasnt urs either fuse, u were going thru something, i understand that and listen. I. Do. Not. Blame. You. @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian but..what if i cant help but blame myself

tbh i was also planning on quitting colors. bc i felt like there was no need to even b on here if i wasnt with u yk? @FuseTheProtogen also my inactive post says more abt u. uh yeah i did go inactive bc i couldnt do it anymore. theres more on my vent if u wanted to read that too.

@SillyLilGooberDemian do YOU want me to read them? if not ill just...respect your privacy for now...

also i was just a lil angry on the inactive post

for now? lol. go ahead. i mentioned them for a reason @FuseTheProtogen

i didnt see that. also u shouldnt blame urself when u did nothing wrong(bro w t f, im doing the exact same thing, why am i talking :skull:) but fr dont blame urself, u were in a bad headspace, and i WILL. listen, NEVER. BLAME. You for not being in a good headspace, mk? @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian nah its my fault i should be punished uwu (sorry i use freaky humor to cope sometimes)

lol nah dw. its okay.

but ill never blame u as i said fr. DONT MISTER >:( /jk @FuseTheProtogen

my heart racing bro, im still anxious, god damn, its been almost 2 hours or hour idfk

@SillyLilGooberDemian nahh pin me down and teach me a lesson...ive been a bad boy -//w//-

man im into some weird men, lol @FuseTheProtogen idk how to react. i havent been talking to no1 like that ever since u sooo idk how to react.

@SillyLilGooberDemian maybe i should talk to u...hop on fortnite >:3

kk 0-0 @FuseTheProtogen

oh- i just remembered, i deleted fortnite, um ima redownload it for u @FuseTheProtogen

also u should star me or wtv its called on switch bc star and y not @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian ill do it in a bit :3

kk ^^

i have been told this 10 this month bc itc black history month. my friend darren, he's funny asf. he literally did the fist thing and said "happy black history month, black man. I love you black man" and he's been doing it everyday, soo should i be scared :laughing: @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian ima take away ur month and paint u white, or make u painturself white at least... (not in a potentially twitter triggering way, i mean covering u in boy milk :3) again, bein freaky bc im too awkward and nervous to do anything else sorry

MK BC I WAS FINNA SAY, R WE TRYNNA WHITE WASH ME AGAIN? i actually have been called the hard r on this month b4. 0-0 @FuseTheProtogen i got a lot of racial trauma too. also GUESS WHAT IM STUDYING TO GET A CAR OR PERMIT SAME THING THOOOO

@SillyLilGooberDemian OOO CONGRATS IM SCARED TO DRIVE

SAMEEE IM TERRIFIED :D also i gotta apply for another jobby job bc arbys aint calling my daddykins rn -_- @FuseTheProtogen

give me a min @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian yikessss i dont work im just trying to learn some freelance skills

@SillyLilGooberDemian i showed u the stuff im makin in blender right owo

no? @FuseTheProtogen

i also have to get a job, i aint got a choice. @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian oh ummm do u have youtube on ur switch or anywhere really

mhm? @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian search for 'thegreenestaxolotl'

U CAN ANIMATE???

also until like ur lil thing with um vix is over i dont think ill b dating u, mk? ima go watch all ur vids on my tv tho <3 /p also if u got any social media, such as snap, facebook or insta, lmk or any social medias at all. lmk, ill make a acc just 4 u ^^ @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian yea, i got insta its in my bio :3

also yt wont let me change my user, its from 6th grade :sob: @FuseTheProtogen

kk ill add u. wait i can do a face reveal thru there. the pics r from last year tho :c @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian theres another way, do u have a privae email?

u should already know. but yeah i dont got a phone tho. @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian i...i cant read social cues can u just say yes or no .w.

i do BUT i dont have a phone, mk? i use my tv for all social media, i can basically only text u thru insta bc my gmail dont work on my tv. mk? @FuseTheProtogen

ik ur irl name bc u used to know my email.

@SillyLilGooberDemian OHH RIGHT OK NVM SORRY

again, brain damage...

its okay dw lol @FuseTheProtogen I LITERALLY HAVENT HEARD UR VOICE IN SO LONG UNTIL I WATCH UR ONE VIDEO BASICALLY DOING A BOOK REPORT

@SillyLilGooberDemian IT LITERALLY WAS A BOOK REPORT we had to make vlogs about a book we were reading for class and i chose to animate mine

it was really well made, i liked it :D i thought the lil music was silly and cutesy @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian noooo youre gonna make me flustered meanie

WHAT??? IM JUST STATING MY OPINION, CAN I NOT DO THAT ANYMORE :< /jk @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian yea no more opinions -w- /j (btw thanks for the tone tags)

tone tags?? w t f is that??? im confuseddd @FuseTheProtogen also fortnite should b done by 2nite ^^ if u wanna play tomorrow.

@SillyLilGooberDemian ye tomorrows fine! tone tags are like /j or /srs or /***

ohhhh mk, i always do. @FuseTheProtogen i didnt know they we're called thattt

@SillyLilGooberDemian its what i call em...

ohhhh cutesy!!! :D @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian istg i WILL be zesty if u dont stop making me flustered

IM NOT DOING ANYTHINGGGGG :sob: IM JUST BEINGGG MEEEEEE @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian ik you just have that effect on me -w-

oh- still? thats crazy lol /jk @FuseTheProtogen i need money!!
ARBY PLEASEEEE ACCEPT ME ITS BLACK MONTH! PLEASEE

i fr need a job :c

@FuseTheProtogen

what happened with vix???

@SillyLilGooberDemian oh we're separated again :3

oh damn sorry gangy :c @FuseTheProtogen

y??

im nosy, leave me b >:( /j

@SillyLilGooberDemian well it just wasnt really working out i guess :0

ohhh mk mk. sorry dawg :c @FuseTheProtogen u'll find some1 if thats what u want/hope for.

@SillyLilGooberDemian kinda have owo not gonna say who yet tho until theyre ready

oh?? WELL do ik them? @FuseTheProtogen

also turn on yo status >:D

@SillyLilGooberDemian i think u do!! also NO NEVER MWAHAHA

:0 PLEASE TELL ME WHOOO @FuseTheProtogen

DO ITTT PLEASE PLEASEEEEEEE @FuseTheProtogen

im literally begginggg

@SillyLilGooberDemian hmmm what do i get for telling

idk a pat on the back and go job? /jk

idk fr wtv u want ig @FuseTheProtogen

hmm nah i want to be called a good boy and get treated as such uwu

uhh mk weirdo lol /jk mk sooo who is it! @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian wont say uwu

BROOOOOOO PLEASEEEEE @FuseTheProtogen

is it some1 in yo bio? @FuseTheProtogen

(my wifi was out for an hour+)

BROOO IM BEING LEFT ON A CLIFF-HANGER :sob: @FuseTheProtogen

i got a feeling its milo ngl

@SillyLilGooberDemian not mio, not in my bio

IDK THEN :sob: @FuseTheProtogen

chat is it me- jk jk uh idk fr ngl

@SillyLilGooberDemian im in their bio tho! :3

BRUH THIS ISNT HELPING @FuseTheProtogen uhhh could ik the name

shadow?? @FuseTheProtogen

i actually made them unfollow my comic acc bc they supported trump or some1 with a similar name did. @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian nope, not them and i love trump!! he's so fanficable with trump x biden stories (dw i dont support him hes just entertaining)

oh real shi. who is it @FuseTheProtogen

COME ONNN ILL DO ANYTHING WELL THERES A LIMIT BUT ILL BASICALLY WILL DO ANYTHING IF U JUST TELL ME WHOOO

@SillyLilGooberDemian promise not to harrass them?

BRO WHAT AM I GONNA DO?!!! @FuseTheProtogen idc its ur love life

im not mad just surpised u said that bc im not that type of person and yk that

@SillyLilGooberDemian alright u freaky dingus, its LolbitLMAO

IM NOT FREAKYYY IM SPECIALLLL :sob: also who? @FuseTheProtogen

yea idk who they r. @FuseTheProtogen

DONT TAG THEM GOOFY!! THEY'LL KNOW @FuseTheProtogen

BRO ME AND U FINNA SQUARE UP STOP ITTTT /jk @FuseTheProtogen they dont need to know im a nosy lil fück. also im over u btw :D it took 2 whole *** months (not including December) to get over u

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@SillyLilGooberDemian well uhm...good job? forgive me, i genuinely have no clue how im supposed to reply :sob:

i Wouldn't know how either. i just felt like that needed to b said. @FuseTheProtogen

also i got anxiety tics :sob:

how to**

@SillyLilGooberDemian awww ive had thse for yearsTwT

oh! i had them for basically 3 years but they started getting worst bc im freaking tf out every damn day. i almost pull out my hair everytime ^^ (idk i just start pulling at my hair when im stress i been doing that since December and idk y) @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian jeepers, should see a *********. it helped me some :3

*********

theraplist

*** why is that blocked

my parents took me out so i couldnt tell the ther a pist that they told me to kms sooooo @FuseTheProtogen

@SillyLilGooberDemian ohhhhh thats...concerning...dont get md but im gonna kindly dissasociate for a minute until i feel calmer :3

ok sorry that was a massive lore drop anyway lol sorryyy @FuseTheProtogen