you plan everything out picture perfect, hope the present will be too and you figure everything is working out at last. like youve won your mental battle. however you havent. because before you know it, your everything feels gone. limbo, balance. its always a job and takes everything of you. no.no.no. because its sudden. no plan nor comfort welcome in the gruesome,horrific, frightening reality. but shove it down because you cant cry.

my thoughts, as of now.
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