goodnight

hellooo!! i hope your okay!!
- try listening to music it can help distract you
- go for a walk/run (if you can)
- try to write down how your feeling, and then rip up the paper (that usually works for me)
- use ice cubes/ a red marker instead of something sharp to mimic it

i hope that at least kinda helps :] and if you ever want to talk you can come to me <3

@_Rain-Eyes_ Thank you, you are amazing <3/p

@Broken_Crown of course <3

@_Rain-Eyes_ Hey, when you have a moment or two can we talk?

@Broken_Crown of course!! theres a chance i wont see your messages bc i wont be awake, but when i am ill check as soon as i can!!

@_Rain-Eyes_ So, heres the thing abt my birthday, a few years ago some things happened w/ a family member. I hate being reminded of it. If I try to tell my family I'm not okay w/ celebrating my birthday today they just tell me 'to get over it'. I've been trying to get it through their heads that just because It isn't happening anymore doesn't mean I'm not affected by it anymore. I'm honestly afraid that today will get to be too much for me: I have really bad panic attacks

I've been trying to tell them that it can effect my health, mental and physical, but they won't listen. I want to be angry t them for it but all I have is fear. I don't know what to do. I've heard them talking about putting me in a hospital bc apparently I'm acting like a 'lunatic'??

I've done some things, mostly to myself, but I've never done anything to them. I've never done anything to be put away like that.

I really don't know what to do.

And why force me to celebrate something that forced me to give up my childhood?? how lowly do you have to think of someone to make them do smth like that?

sorry, Ik this is really weird

@Broken_Crown im so sorry you have to go through that :( (im sorry im not the best at giving advice :sob:) is there anyone you know irl that can help??

@_Rain-Eyes_ [no you're good :)
I think my bf and his family could help?? I'm just afraid to really reach out abt whats happening :'D

@broken_crown i think it'd be good to talk to them!! They could help you get out of the situation youre currently stuck in :]

@_Rain-Eyes_ Okay, I'll try to talk to them abt it, see what I could do. thank you :'D

@Broken_Crown of course!! i hope it went/goes well!!

@_Rain-Eyes_ Hey I wanted to tell you that it well. There were some other things I didn't tell you that I told my bf. he and his family have gotten dhs involved since Im considered a minor still. I'm staying w/ my aunts and I just wanted to say thank you. I havent had someone tell me to speak up abt it before and I was kinda doubting you tbh, but it helped. it really did, so thank you <333/p

@Broken_Crown im so glad to hear that!!! and im glad i could help <3 /p