the fact that i think about being assultd like that often actually disgusts me. i want to shove all these feelings deep inside and never think about them again.

"oh u just went thru smth traumatic" ITS STILL NOT OKAY.
"its just hormones" HORMONES ISNT WANTING TO TOUCH YOURSELF EVERYDAY.

I HATE THAT I FEEL LIKE THIS. I WANT TO BE NORMAL.

i shouldnt be admitting this on a drawing app.

look at what unrestricted internet access and being alone on a school bus will get u!! /neg

hey im the same way and i understant hlw difficult it can be but its not your fault

kaspw r :( i understand how yout Feel. it will be okay!
ummm i went Through somethimg similar,, i fejt like i HAD to be s3xual with my partneer everyday or else idfeel nothimg . i used it as a way to distract mysejf from my real problems bcauseThats all i knew what to do. i got into Real..y.. weird stuff, bt it got bettwr once i was able tl express mysejf and gwt awayrom tjise things. i knowwe arent clseo, bbut you seem like a great perswn who houldnt b gong through thus . im here for yuo!

you shouldnt be puting all these burdens on yiur self your still a great person!

you ccant shove tjose feelings away . yuo HAVE to confrontthem or else the urges will just get worse ad wrose until,you,cant control it . again,if you needro talk to nyoen i undeestand an im here

@randie is right you cant shove it away

@randie @--SOLAR--
ur both right.

still, im a minor. it isnt okay.
the fact that i actually romanticize being assaultd like that makes m feel like a monster. its a traumatic experience for a lot of people.

i feel sick whenever i think about that stuff or even try some of said stuff sometimes.

it makes me kinda hate myself.

i shouldnt romanticize being assaulted or rped. its a fcking horrible thing to do.

ive donw it too. Uergghgh i cannot believw i am saying thws! ive romanticized disgusting tyims and felt like gabage aftewards too, you just . its a normal response to trauma, you just have to know its wrom and you wwill never actualky do it . sorry if tis dowsnr help i hhavenr dealt with my stuff nvolvinb this cometekg yet . but if you wann gte anything ff y9ur chest ill listwn

yes it is but, i want you to understand this, this isnt your fault, as people we enjoy plesuare- happyness- and that may have made you feal that way..... i do to... but you cant say youre unacceptable, because you are, youre great! so try alking to a PROFESSIONAL mind you professional adult like a *********, if they cant help they will know who can.

therap-ist *