pllease dont blame it on urdelf i'll cut them off its okits ok

everything was great just the way it was
i'll work to make it like that again its ok
please

please dont be mad at me

not when we just started talking again

that post prob isnt even directed towards me

im panicking

i jst get so paranoid and i srsly dont wanna lose them.

hey
it's gonna be ok
you can leave if you need to, but please take care
I care about you a ton, and whoever is causing problems I'll talk to personally (if possible) to make you feel better

@Cosmic_k1lljoy i'll tag u in a post,,.

ty for caring about me btw
ur literally one of the sweetest people ive ever met

and I know how it feels trying to keep everyone happy
I'm a huge people-pleaser
But I learned that there's a limit to what you can do and how many people you can satisfy
It can have an insane mental, emotional and sometimes physical toll and I don't want anything bad to happen to you

Aww, ofc
np
I look out for the people who mean a lot to me
and sorry for the whole ašs wall of text lol

i never said you have to cut them off
sorry that im ******* emotional but i cant help it ok honestly js ignore sht like that when i post it its normally a one time thing because i have angr issues and cant deal ith them

im sorry if im pulling the attention to me or wtv but im js tryna explain that i get ******* angry ometimes and that doesnt mean you have to ******* deal with it literally just ignore it ill feel better later

@BearTrap are u sure,,.

i jst wanna keep u happy u mean so much to me dude i dont wanna lose u

you dont have to ******* leave people to keep me happy **** you dont have to do jack **** to keep me hqppy because thts not your ******* job

@BearTrap BUT IT IS DUDE

ITS MY JOB TO KEEP U HAPPY BECAUSE IF I DONT KEEP U HAPPY THEN YOU'LL BE ANGRY

its my job
because

idk how to explain it. its just that i want to keep you happy no matter what. i'd literally do anything for u.

@BearTrap ily, man.

dont take that in a romantic way or platonic way or anything like tht. i just love you in a way that i care about you and i dont know what i would do if i lost u.

sorry for delayed response
doyou really think im that negative? I dont need othrs to keep me happy **** i thought i was doing pretty good with staying happy its trulynot your job to keep me jappy im nt saying this from a personal standpoint im deadass sayih its nobodys job.to, keepme happy other than myself its a,choice and its a choice you shouldnt make gbecause if keeping me happy makes you upset or ***** up your relationships then its not ******* worth it im ablw to keep myself content withou

without ******* up peoples social lives so i truly dont need you to. go out of your way for me i dont meed you leaving eerybody ele for me all i ever wanted from you was for you to be happy and safe and if im putting your happiness into question then i dont give a **** what i have to do i will not hesitate to leave if it means you'll be happier

im goihg to be upfront wit you, im ******* mentally ill and i need to get my **** together, amd that doesnt mean you have o ******* suffer for it. If i,am genuinely ****** up your life then please tell me because iwill fcking stop interacting. I dont give a **** what i hve to do becausw im so fuxking tired of ******* wih peoples lives js cause i dlnt,have my **** togwyhr so if im maing **** harder i ont ******* hesitate to leave. I apologize that ylu got dragged into **** thanks to me

@BearTrap please dont.

dontleave me thats th last thing i want im so sorry

please dont leave. thts the last thing i want.
ik this sounds childish but i just want everyone to be happy so we can all be friends.

please dont leave me

I didn't say i'm planning to leave you as of now, but i ws simply trying ti get my point of i wqnt to keep you happy across.

@BearTrap leaving either right now or later isnt gonna keep me happy. why cant u just see that i want u to stay. i dont want u to be mad at me. i just wanna hang out with u all day evryday as much as i can and jst be happy.

im happy whenever i talk and interact with u.

thats what makes me happy.

I need you to realize that despite that, I'm just ruining your social life and mental health. I want you to be safe and to be able to have friends and all of that. My mental issues are preventing that, and that's something i need to fix. You might be better off without me for a while

@BearTrap no
please

dude your not ruining my mental health im ok i promise
please

i'll draw stuff for u i'll talk to u just i'll do anything to keep u as my friend

dude i want you to just think for a second. Think of it from the view of a bystander. I got upset, and now you and cb's relationship is ruined. This happened already with Andy too. Who's fault it that? Mine. You dont have to do jack **** for me. Thats not what i want. I just want to stop messing stuff up.

@BearTrap me and thems relationships arent ruined at all

just

please tell me when ur ready to talk to me agsin..

No Ethan, I need you to understand. I'm just hurting your other relationships. I wholeheartedly mean this from my heart when i say that I'm hurting you, and i want to stop.

ill b honest, i dont want to leave you either. I just want the best for you.
You probably won't respobd, so I just hope the best for you.