i was doing my daily "do i accually have bulìmia or am i faking it" type thing and doing those 'do i have an eating disorder' quiz and usually the answer it gives me is 'you most likely have an eating disorder' but today it gave me 'you definitely have an eating disorder'. look ik im literary diagnosed with bulimìa but that just made me feel terrible. i throw up my last meal when i feel guilty (i did it today and i feel like a piece of sh!t) and i overexersize and im terrible and dont even-cont-

-cont- get me started with SH. the amount of bullying ive gotten on my size can never surpass the amount i've gotten on my SH.

i've gotten comments like ''who are you??!? a fűcking psych ward patient!?!'' and ''do you think doing this to yourself will ever make you be liked by anyone? it just makes you look like an attention seeking whóŕè!''. i cant take it anymore and i wanna stop the overexersizing and the SH and the throwing up but i cant. i have to go out in public with bandaids around all of my fingers cuz i bite the skin around my nails so much that it has left indents and very deep scaring.

i want to be thin i really do i really do i just cant why cant i. and my therap!st makes it soooo mush better when they say ''i think your E.D. is getting worse again'' then proceed to give me the biggest bottle of SSRI's ever like thats gonna fix it.

why cant i ever be good enough? why cant i be pretty enough? why am i like this? i love how my older brother points out my insecurities like i dont think about them 24/7. like literary today when he went up to my nose and started trying to pick my blackheads out then he started saying ''you need a porestrip''. like thanks i didnt fùck!ng know Joseph.

i hate my nose. i hate my face. i hate my hair. i hate my weight. i hate my shape. i hate my size. i hate my habits. i hate my personality. i hate my teeth. i hate my laugh. i hate my voice. i hate how i look. i hate how i act. i hate myself. i hate my SH. i hate my bul!m!a. i hate my legs. i hate my arms. i hate my art. and i just looooove when my fücking brother points out each and everyone of them

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vent <3

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whats happening with you ? @RidleyXpride

why would you hate urself, 'cause of depression or not ? @RidleyXpride

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@RidleyXpride I'm sorry about your brother, I'm a bigger girl aswell, I think your perfect the way your made, I can't help much with words, but Your imperfections make you perfect and unique!

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