im so scared i cant handle change but everything is changing, moulding into something new around me. i cant keep up, no matter how hard i try everything changes yet everything stays the same. everything is gone but is there in front of me all at the same time. everything feels so different, and yet so vaugely familliar in a way i cant get. its so fast and gruelingly slow at the same time. maybe one day, things will finally change for the better.