i was so close to achieveing what i want, yet even if i really got what i want, it won't matter, i wont feel the happy i want... other people are why i don't feel like i matter, why my dreams wont come true, and this painting wont matter, honestly me feeling depressed wont matter, i feel depressed without reason, so i don't act depessed, i act fine, but on the inside im not, evreything about me is not fine. i don't know what to do now. my parents might even get a divorce, that will be fun.