I was tryna help and slowly guide her (?) into the right thought process and STOP STALKING YOU SINCE THATS SUPER WEIRD and she BLOCKED ME I didn't DO anything :sob:
And I usually js know if I'm openly able to talk to them about everything, and if I can share my interests willingly. I also know it if I want to spend every minute with them, and I can't stop thinking abt them and if they like me back.
Usually I fall out before I muster up the courage to ask them out.
Blu asked me out surprisingly enough :sob: @citruslotion
Why are they called Saint Motel? The band formed in southern California in 2009. In an interview with USA Today, Jackson, the lead singer, said the name Saint Motel was the blend “of a few different names we were working with, and the two words just lined up, almost like a slot machine.
How old is Saint Motel? Saint Motel was formed in 2007 by pianist/vocalist A.J. Jackson and classically trained guitarist Aaron Sharp, who met when they were both film students at Chapman University in Orange, California.
Saint Motel (stylized in all caps) is an American indie pop band from Los Angeles, whose music has been described as everything from dream pop to progressive indie.[1][2] The band is composed of singer, songwriter, and producer, A. J. Jackson (lead vocals, guitar, piano), Aaron Sharp (lead guitar), Dak Lerdamornpong (bass) and Greg Erwin (drums).
Omg the other day some weird ahh kid was placed next to me because I'm a good student and he's not and the teachers a bit-
Anyway he kept touching my hair and m o a n i n g and I got really uncomfortable so I told the teacher and he told me to get over it so then when I sat back down the kid said I was gay for tattling and I said hell yeah I'm gay and he went 'oh' silently and we haven't spoken since :skull:
OH NO THE MINUTE THE WORD GETS OUT ABT ME DATING BLU
THE ENTIRE SCHOOL TURNED ON THEM
AND tHEY CAN'T FIGHT FOR THEMSELF
SO I'M SITTING HERE BEING "BIG BOY" AND "MISTER HERO" STEPPING UP FOR THEM BC THEY CAN'T LEARN TO IGNORE SO THE MINUTE THEY TRY TO FIGHT BACK THEY SAY SMTH PPL COULD USE AGAINST THEM AND YK-
ALSO THATS AWFUL I WONT SAY ANYTHING This lesbian couple at our school got beaten up once and it was so bad that one had to be hospitalized and the other is my friend and she was/is so traumatized that she got an ed and had such bad anxiety that sometimes she couldn't sleep I hate ********** so ******* much, I don't even understand it. I'm sorry you and Blu have to go through that.
Remember that the only people who matter don't care and will love you and Blu unconditionally no matter what. And if you ever need to talk, I'm here :D
I LITERALLY AM WILLING TO EMBARRASS MYSELF AND WET MY PANTS IF IT MEANS I DON'T WALK INTO THE BATHROOMS CZ I FEAR WALKING INTO THEM CZ ISTG PPL ARE PLOTTING TO AMBUSH AND BEAT ME TO DEATH @citruslotion
I'ma be honest, of all the parts of my transitioning journey so far, I loved the Name part the most.
I was sitting there, and my top five choices were
Micah Miko Arlo Indy Danté
It was sm fun to go through the names with my friend and have some help with it, we ended up narrowing it down to those five, then after a week or two I narrowed it down to Arlo and Micah.
So I'm gonna take a break, my E.D got worse and so has my mood, I yelled at my dad (which I never do) and the plane ride over was really scary (I've never been on one before) and now like every time I'm standing or something the ground starts rising and sinking but only for me and I get a headache.
Anyway yeah I'll be back probably soon and I just thought I'd lyk even if you don't care, and if I'm not back soon I'm probably dead or in a mental hospital so yeah bye
ALR MY LIFES SHlT Now I'm on halfbreak Hopefully Maybe Idk I need to vent if you're ever available :sparkles:
Also I trust you enough To tell you That My name's Jaylee So yuh Also I hope your life gets better :sparkles: You deserve it :sparkles: You're amazing :sparkles:
LMFAO MY MENTAL HEALTH APP KEEPS TELLING ME I HAVE SEVERE DEPRESSION EVEN THOUGH I DON'T FEEL BAD AT ALL :sob: SAYS TE SAME W/ SEVERE ANXIETY WHYYY @citruslotion
I have the very random urge to explain how I accidentally made all of my ocs have traits like mine, however I feel like it'd be annoying- @citruslotion
Dude don't even worry about it I annoyed the f4ck outta my dad when I was little I made a town I guess they were my ocs? I made a town and people out of cardboard and paper :skull:
HOLY **** I'M ACTUALLY PROUD OF YOU FOR SOME REASON
I feel so bad cz with most mental health stuff, I can help ppl through, but when it comes to anorexia and (the other one that starts with a b omg-), I have no idea how to help, bc in the ways that I tried, I hurt ppl even more and-
I just got back I don't recommend It was fucking HELL THEY MADE ME EAT SIX FUCKING TIMES A DAY SIX FUCKING TIMES
Btw I'm taking a three day break THEN IM GOING BACK OML FML
The whole thing was so distressing!!! I swear I have PTSD
SORRY FOR RANT BUT NOW IM MORE SUICIDAL AND I TOLD MY DAD (we're allowed one call a fucking day with fucking peoples watching our every fucking move) SO HE MADE ME SWITCH HOSPITALS HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY THIS PLACE IS BETTER I JUST MISS MY STUPID OLD LIFE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Comments
11 Mar, 2024, 1:15 am
WAIT YOU KNOW SAINT MOTEL?
11 Mar, 2024, 1:15 am
LIKE THE BAND?
11 Mar, 2024, 1:26 pm
STOP WAIT WHAT
@citruslotion
11 Mar, 2024, 1:40 pm
I HAVE TWO OF THEIR ALBUMS ON VINYL OFC IK THEM :sparkles:
@citruslotion
12 Mar, 2024, 12:11 am
NO WAY
12 Mar, 2024, 12:11 am
HOW
12 Mar, 2024, 12:11 am
BRO NOBODY KNOWS THEM WHAT THE FRICKITY FRACKITY
12 Mar, 2024, 12:22 am
Yeah I'm following you just because of that, hope you don't mind ^^
12 Mar, 2024, 6:03 pm
IDM AT ALL OMG
I LOVE SAINT MOTEL
I GOT MY FRIENDS ADDICTED TO IT
THEIR SUPERFANS ARE A LITERAL CULT :sparkles:
@citruslotion
12 Mar, 2024, 8:26 pm
I'M JOINING THE CULT
I'M IN NOW
WHATS YOUR FAVORITE SONG
12 Mar, 2024, 9:12 pm
LMFAO IDK BETWEEN
TO MY ENEMIES
BENNY GOODMAN
VAN HORN
OR LIKE
GETAWAY
OR
AAAA TOO MANY
@citruslotion
12 Mar, 2024, 9:28 pm
OOH VAN HORNS GOOD
12 Mar, 2024, 10:09 pm
HBU!?
@citruslotion
12 Mar, 2024, 10:20 pm
UH
WELL IDK
BUT!
I like:
-Slow Dance
-For Elise
-Bullet
-At Least I have Nothing
And right now You're Nobody Till Someone Wants You Dead is stuck in y head
12 Mar, 2024, 10:20 pm
my*
12 Mar, 2024, 10:20 pm
Hm Slowly Spilling Out is good too
12 Mar, 2024, 10:21 pm
OH
YOURE NOBODY TILL SOMEBODY WANTS YOU DEAD
IS THE LYRICS I F*CKING
LIVE
BY
@citruslotion
12 Mar, 2024, 10:24 pm
THEN THE LIST IT GROWS AND GROWS AND GROWSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
AND GROWWWWwWWwWwSSsS
12 Mar, 2024, 10:27 pm
UNTIL IT TURNS TO EVERYONE YOU
know :sparkles:
*insert the most adorable piano bit i've ever heard*
@citruslotion
12 Mar, 2024, 10:29 pm
*for real*
12 Mar, 2024, 11:00 pm
Now you got Destroyer stuck in my head
12 Mar, 2024, 11:00 pm
Help
12 Mar, 2024, 11:03 pm
Lol
I DESTROY THEM :sparkles:
@citruslotion
12 Mar, 2024, 11:05 pm
I DONT BREAK HEARTS
NO THATS NOT ME
I DONT BREAK HEARTS
I DESTROY THEM
12 Mar, 2024, 11:09 pm
I feel like My Type is overrated :/
It's kinda....
Not
Giving
Nontoxic
Like imagine dating someone because of their looks! Is that I real thing??
12 Mar, 2024, 11:36 pm
Yes.
It is.
Sadly.
But, who WOULD??
It's all abt personality, personally.
and if their looks happen to look okay, then yay, bonus?
@citruslotion
12 Mar, 2024, 11:53 pm
Literally! All the books are like:
'Becky saw Joshua and thought he was so HOT that she ran and kissed him and yay now they're married with 482791938929435799284 children!'
13 Mar, 2024, 12:06 am
LMFAOOO
FRR :sob:
@citruslotion
13 Mar, 2024, 1:58 am
'They bonded over grandpas and their shared love for toes!'
13 Mar, 2024, 10:50 pm
:fearful:
@citruslotion
13 Mar, 2024, 10:51 pm
WAIT WHAT'S THAT EMOJI
13 Mar, 2024, 10:53 pm
: fearful :
@citruslotion
13 Mar, 2024, 10:57 pm
:fearful:
Do you want to be friends?
14 Mar, 2024, 12:10 am
I don't have space in my bio, but sure!
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 12:13 am
YAY NOW I HAVE TWO FRIENDS
And that's ok!! I like your bio
14 Mar, 2024, 12:13 am
Ty ^^
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 12:17 am
Sorry if this is personal but why did you apologize to Azura?
14 Mar, 2024, 12:20 am
I was blackmailed again :skull:
@citruslotion
If you read it very sarcastically, you'll realize I couldn't care less about her emotions at ALL.
14 Mar, 2024, 12:21 am
Oh dang. Yeah she seemed kinda.......... a$$holey.
14 Mar, 2024, 12:22 am
SHE'S WHAT ME AND THE SILLIES AND MY IRL FRIENDS HAVE DUBBED
AN
ASSCRACK
SNAPCRACKLEPOP:sparkles:
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 12:24 am
SHE INDEED IS AN ASSCRACK
I was tryna help and slowly guide her (?) into the right thought process and STOP STALKING YOU SINCE THATS SUPER WEIRD and she BLOCKED ME
I didn't DO anything :sob:
14 Mar, 2024, 12:27 am
OH MY GOD SHE BLOCKED YOU TOO!?
SHE BLOCKED LIKE 453.75 PEOPLE ISTG :skull:
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 12:28 am
.75 :fearful:
SHE UNBLOCKED ME BECAUSE I 'apologized' I KINDA DIDN'T BUT SHHHHHH
14 Mar, 2024, 12:28 am
OMG MY SNAILS ARE MOVING NOW THAT IM PLAYING SAINT MOTEL ARE ANIMALS ALLOWED IN THE CULT
14 Mar, 2024, 12:56 am
I THINK SO
MY CAT MEWED IN PERFECT PITCH TO THE
"HOOOOOOOOORRRRN"
IN VAN HORN ONCE SO :sob:
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 12:59 am
WHAT THE FRICK THATS AWESOME
I'm allergic to cats so we can't have any :/
14 Mar, 2024, 7:54 pm
YOURE .MISSING OUT
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 8:31 pm
THATS WHAT I SAY
14 Mar, 2024, 8:31 pm
ALSO I THINK IM LESBIAN
14 Mar, 2024, 8:33 pm
YASSS
@citruslotion
I've never met a friendly lesbian woman before my gosh-
14 Mar, 2024, 8:33 pm
Why thank you
14 Mar, 2024, 8:35 pm
Help my friend thought I was/all his friends were ***** and deleted her account randomly now I'm sad
R.I.P @/-Ayami- :(
14 Mar, 2024, 8:37 pm
her not his
14 Mar, 2024, 8:37 pm
HAPPY NATIONAL PIE DAY
14 Mar, 2024, 8:39 pm
Dzayum.
AND YIPPE CELEBRATE WITH A PIZZA OR SMTH OR OTHER
IDUNO
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 8:41 pm
I ATE PIE ALREADY :D
I read dzayum as gymnasium
14 Mar, 2024, 8:52 pm
:sob:
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 8:55 pm
My snails are cuddling <3
So cute
How do you know if you have a crush?
14 Mar, 2024, 9:05 pm
Me personally? I can't stop doodling them.
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 9:07 pm
And I usually js know if I'm openly able to talk to them about everything, and if I can share my interests willingly. I also know it if I want to spend every minute with them, and I can't stop thinking abt them and if they like me back.
Usually I fall out before I muster up the courage to ask them out.
Blu asked me out surprisingly enough :sob:
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 9:08 pm
hMMmMMMmmMM
Relatable
14 Mar, 2024, 9:17 pm
Sorry if I'm creepy or criny or clingy or annoying :sob: I like having friends
14 Mar, 2024, 9:17 pm
Like a lot
14 Mar, 2024, 10:32 pm
I don't wanna sound like Azura when I say this, but
SPLATOON 3'S SOUNDTRACK HITS DIFFERENT
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 11:09 pm
SHOULD I LISTEN?
14 Mar, 2024, 11:11 pm
YES, BUT START WITH THE TURF WAR BATTLES FIRST.
THEN GO FOR ALTERNA'S LEVELS
THEN GO HIT DEEP CUT
THEN YOU CAN TRY FOR SIDE ORDER'S STUFF, BUT IT'S NOT AS APPEALING
@citruslotion
14 Mar, 2024, 11:25 pm
hUh :sob:
14 Mar, 2024, 11:25 pm
LEMME GOOGLE IT ONE SEC
14 Mar, 2024, 11:26 pm
WAIT WHA
14 Mar, 2024, 11:30 pm
Ok wait so Google shows 'Tableturf Battle (Last three turns) Splatoon 3'
Is that it?
14 Mar, 2024, 11:36 pm
IT DOES-
14 Mar, 2024, 11:39 pm
THE BEGINNING TO DABREAKER ANTHEM (skipped around cuz I'm impatient) SOUNDS LIKE THE INTRO TO BULLET :sob:
14 Mar, 2024, 11:43 pm
Blu followed me? :0
15 Mar, 2024, 12:00 am
YEP.
AND YEP.
THEY STALK ME CZ THEY WANNA MAKE SURE I'M SAFE :sparkles:
or they are scared
idk
idc
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 12:01 am
WOW :sparkles:
15 Mar, 2024, 12:03 am
IKR?? :sparkles:
:sob:
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 12:04 am
THATS SO PREPPY
NOT CREEPY AT ALL
15 Mar, 2024, 12:04 am
What did I just say-
15 Mar, 2024, 12:05 am
HAH
NAH IM SCARED FOR MY LIFE WHEN THEY STALK ME AND COMMENT ON MY OLD POSTS :sob:
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 12:07 am
LITERALLY ME WHEN I MEET SOMEONE NEW /hj
15 Mar, 2024, 12:09 am
LMFAO FRRR
@citruslotion
Also-
I'm sorry you had to witness not only me talking in third person but also me in a dress
i realize looking at it hours later, it's weird.
it's me dressing drag (??) and i usually don't :sob:
15 Mar, 2024, 12:10 am
It's fine :sob: Sorry if I was rude
15 Mar, 2024, 12:11 am
You weren't, but Blu also texted me a bit ago and asked me if I was "slightly more mentally ill than usual? :sob:"
Then I realized :sob:
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 12:12 am
OH :sob:
15 Mar, 2024, 12:26 am
MY DAD HAS A BF
15 Mar, 2024, 12:27 am
OH SLAY :sparkles:
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 12:28 am
IKR AND WE'RE GONA HAVE DINNER SOMETIME OVER SPRING BREAK
15 Mar, 2024, 12:28 am
Which is so far away for me :sob:
15 Mar, 2024, 12:28 am
FUN!!
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 12:30 am
YES :sparkles:
When
is
your
spring
break
(curious no pressure)
15 Mar, 2024, 12:30 am
my school refuses to give us spring break
along with trans and lgbtqiaa+ rights :]
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 12:31 am
WHAT NO HUH
15 Mar, 2024, 12:31 am
Second one is more concerning BUT HUH
15 Mar, 2024, 12:32 am
:sob:
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 12:33 am
They let people bully us but the minute we fight back they get mad at US. :)
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 12:35 am
Omg what
Bro I would be calling everyone in the book
My dad, my grandma, Arianna Grande, Arianna Grande's mom, your mom, my dads boyfriend, this is 2024
15 Mar, 2024, 12:35 am
Uh... assuming you have a mom
I don't
15 Mar, 2024, 12:36 am
Sorry if you don't that sucks
15 Mar, 2024, 12:37 am
I do have a mother that is selectively transphobic (she doesn't support me but supports everyone else)
And a father that tries.
@citruslotion
so i'm good.
15 Mar, 2024, 12:37 am
I'm sorry that you don't... @citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 12:39 am
Oh man I'm so sorry, that really sucks. I guess it's a tad different when its your kid, but you'd think it'd be the opposite.
And it's fine, she was 4busive but I wish I had one, and I'm an only child so me and my dad had to figure out periods together loll
15 Mar, 2024, 12:41 am
ONLY CHILD!?
SAMMMEEEE :sparkles:
@citruslotion
IMAGINE HAVING SIBLINGS
I COULD NEVER
15 Mar, 2024, 12:42 am
I WOULD DIE
15 Mar, 2024, 12:42 am
Or k1ll them first BUT
15 Mar, 2024, 12:46 am
Same difference
15 Mar, 2024, 1:10 am
Help why does your bio say no b!tch
15 Mar, 2024, 1:12 am
Bcz I cant find The translation for "You are"
So I said
"no b0tvh"
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 1:12 am
Those are drastically different :sob:
15 Mar, 2024, 1:13 am
MY PHONE DIED :sob:
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 1:13 am
NO RIP PHONE :sob:
15 Mar, 2024, 1:28 am
да, конечно
@citruslotion
15 Mar, 2024, 1:40 am
Да сэр
15 Mar, 2024, 1:45 am
IMMA SEARCH UP SAINT MOTEL AND SEE WHAT POPS UP
15 Mar, 2024, 1:47 am
Why are they called Saint Motel?
The band formed in southern California in 2009. In an interview with USA Today, Jackson, the lead singer, said the name Saint Motel was the blend “of a few different names we were working with, and the two words just lined up, almost like a slot machine.
15 Mar, 2024, 1:48 am
Is Saint Motel still active?
Saint Motel is currently touring across 2 countries and has 16 upcoming concerts.
15 Mar, 2024, 1:49 am
How old is Saint Motel?
Saint Motel was formed in 2007 by pianist/vocalist A.J. Jackson and classically trained guitarist Aaron Sharp, who met when they were both film students at Chapman University in Orange, California.
15 Mar, 2024, 1:49 am
Saint Motel (stylized in all caps) is an American indie pop band from Los Angeles, whose music has been described as everything from dream pop to progressive indie.[1][2] The band is composed of singer, songwriter, and producer, A. J. Jackson (lead vocals, guitar, piano), Aaron Sharp (lead guitar), Dak Lerdamornpong (bass) and Greg Erwin (drums).
15 Mar, 2024, 2:34 am
IM WATCHING HEARTSTOPPER ALSO SORRY FOR SPAM IM BORED AND LONELY
16 Mar, 2024, 12:26 am
HI
SO
I found comments on one of asscracks posts
And someone called you a she
And asscrack said "Actually, he's a he now..."
I dunno if you care but that was like a decent thing to do
16 Mar, 2024, 4:04 pm
Oh, i know :sob:
@citruslotion
I'm pretty up to date w/ it :sob:
16 Mar, 2024, 5:40 pm
Is it bad that I just had like an entire dance party to Saint Motel
16 Mar, 2024, 9:00 pm
NOT AT ALL :sparkles:
@citruslotion
16 Mar, 2024, 11:09 pm
I KNEW YOU'D BE PROUD :sparkles:
Help I need to pack but like.... Idon'twanna
16 Mar, 2024, 11:18 pm
*helps*
There.
@citruslotion
16 Mar, 2024, 11:44 pm
Omg tysm
16 Mar, 2024, 11:46 pm
Yw >:3
@citruslotion
Omg Asscrack's recent post and her own comments made me realize how fxcking weak-hearted she is :/
I was js genuinely curious abt how she was taking Unity taking a break and omg istg
:sob:
so so so so stupid
"the FlOwEr"
Lmaoo
16 Mar, 2024, 11:47 pm
Ope-
Lemme go stalk brb
16 Mar, 2024, 11:49 pm
LMFAO
@citruslotion
16 Mar, 2024, 11:50 pm
CRINGE
16 Mar, 2024, 11:50 pm
IM SORRY BUT-
:sob: :sob: :sob:
16 Mar, 2024, 11:51 pm
Nice Poetry, Jackasš. /nottowardsyouistg
@citruslotion
16 Mar, 2024, 11:56 pm
The glorious flower... I'm so depressed.... my rp buddy left me...
16 Mar, 2024, 11:58 pm
The glorious flower is gone
In the sky there's a fawn
17 Mar, 2024, 12:03 am
"Oh my gosh
my crush is gOnE"
ASSCRACK CMON YOU'VE SAID THAT NOW IT'S OBVIOUS YOU'RE FIXATED ON HER
MY POTENTIAL GOD
@citruslotion
17 Mar, 2024, 12:08 am
:sob:
17 Mar, 2024, 12:11 am
I AM LAUGHING CRYING AND CRINGING ALL AT THE SAME TIME
CRYING BC I WITNESSED IT
LAUGHING CZ I COULDN'T CARE LESS ABT HER BEING SAD
AND CRINGING CZ HER POETRY SUCKS AŠS
@citruslotion
17 Mar, 2024, 12:12 am
HELP SOMEONE OUTSIDE JUST YELLED UWU
KEEP IN MIND THIS IS A NEIGHBORHOOD IN GEORGIA THAT ME AND MY DAD ARE TOTALLY UNQUALIFIED TO LIVE IN
AKA IT CONTAINS RICH SNOBS
HELP
IM DYING
17 Mar, 2024, 12:12 am
STOP LITERALLY
17 Mar, 2024, 12:13 am
STOP I HAVE TO SIT NEXT TO PPL IN MY ART CLASS
THAT LITERALLY DO THAT
BUT
THEY THINK THAT I'M INTO THAT SH*T
SO THEY DO IT
ISTPG
WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE :sob:
@citruslotion
17 Mar, 2024, 12:15 am
:sob: :sob:
IKWYM PEOPLE BE SO WEIRD
YOUD THINK EIGHTH GRADERS WOULD BE MORE MATURE
IDK WHAT GRADE YOURE IN BUT
17 Mar, 2024, 12:19 am
SAME MAN, EIGHTH HERE TOO
MS IS JS UGLY TBH
@citruslotion
17 Mar, 2024, 12:20 am
WHATS MS
17 Mar, 2024, 12:20 am
OH MIDDLE SCHOOL
17 Mar, 2024, 12:23 am
Omg the other day some weird ahh kid was placed next to me because I'm a good student and he's not and the teachers a bit-
Anyway he kept touching my hair and m o a n i n g and I got really uncomfortable so I told the teacher and he told me to get over it so then when I sat back down the kid said I was gay for tattling and I said hell yeah I'm gay and he went 'oh' silently and we haven't spoken since :skull:
17 Mar, 2024, 12:33 am
LMFAOOO
OH NO THE MINUTE THE WORD GETS OUT ABT ME DATING BLU
THE ENTIRE SCHOOL TURNED ON THEM
AND tHEY CAN'T FIGHT FOR THEMSELF
SO I'M SITTING HERE BEING "BIG BOY" AND "MISTER HERO" STEPPING UP FOR THEM BC THEY CAN'T LEARN TO IGNORE SO THE MINUTE THEY TRY TO FIGHT BACK THEY SAY SMTH PPL COULD USE AGAINST THEM AND YK-
UGGHHHH
JS DON'T TALK TO THEMMM
KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUTTTTT
AAAAA
@citruslotion
17 Mar, 2024, 12:33 am
Oh my god I'm so sorry for venting like that :sob:
@citruslotion
17 Mar, 2024, 12:41 am
No no it's ok you can vent anytime idc
ALSO THATS AWFUL
I WONT SAY ANYTHING
This lesbian couple at our school got beaten up once and it was so bad that one had to be hospitalized and the other is my friend and she was/is so traumatized that she got an ed and had such bad anxiety that sometimes she couldn't sleep
I hate ********** so ******* much, I don't even understand it. I'm sorry you and Blu have to go through that.
17 Mar, 2024, 12:42 am
**********
17 Mar, 2024, 12:42 am
h o m o p h o b i a**
17 Mar, 2024, 12:44 am
Remember that the only people who matter don't care and will love you and Blu unconditionally no matter what. And if you ever need to talk, I'm here :D
17 Mar, 2024, 12:44 am
OH MY GOD.
I LITERALLY AM WILLING TO EMBARRASS MYSELF AND WET MY PANTS IF IT MEANS I DON'T WALK INTO THE BATHROOMS CZ I FEAR WALKING INTO THEM
CZ ISTG PPL ARE PLOTTING TO AMBUSH AND BEAT ME TO DEATH
@citruslotion
17 Mar, 2024, 12:46 am
DID YOU HEAR ABOUT THAT ENBY KID IN OKLAHOMA (I think-)
I CRIED
ITS TWENTY TWENTY FOUR
17 Mar, 2024, 12:46 am
2024
17 Mar, 2024, 12:46 am
I DID AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHY.
@citruslotion
17 Mar, 2024, 12:46 am
2 0 2 4
17 Mar, 2024, 12:47 am
THEY HAD SUCH A COOL NAME TOO
17 Mar, 2024, 12:48 am
Enby's have the best names :D
17 Mar, 2024, 12:50 am
FOR REAL
I'ma be honest, of all the parts of my transitioning journey so far, I loved the Name part the most.
I was sitting there, and my top five choices were
Micah
Miko
Arlo
Indy
Danté
It was sm fun to go through the names with my friend and have some help with it, we ended up narrowing it down to those five, then after a week or two I narrowed it down to Arlo and Micah.
Then yk the rest.
But fr-
@citruslotion
17 Mar, 2024, 12:52 am
Your friend's a real one :sparkles:
17 Mar, 2024, 12:55 am
Fr, Party's the best :sparkles:
other than Mel
ObViOuSlY
it was funny cz I told Mel and she said
"Didn't we have an OC Named Micah?"
and I said
"Yeah, but his was spelled /Mica/."
"Oh. That's so slay :sparkles:"
"Thank you :>"
@citruslotion
What is it w/ ppl being so silly these days :sob:
17 Mar, 2024, 12:56 am
Oop-
Is Mel the one that's on here?
17 Mar, 2024, 12:56 am
Marshmellow or smth
17 Mar, 2024, 12:58 am
Yes
Along w/ Party
@citruslotion
17 Mar, 2024, 1:02 am
Yess
Hey
DO YOU WANT TO BRUTALLY JUDGE AITA POSTS FROM REDDIT BECAUSE WHY TF NOT
17 Mar, 2024, 1:21 am
Come back I'm bored :sob:
17 Mar, 2024, 1:26 am
I GTG IM SO SORRY :sob:
@citruslotion
17 Mar, 2024, 1:26 am
NOO
ALSO THERES A PHOBIA FOR FEMALES PRIVATES HELP
17 Mar, 2024, 1:27 am
Can we talk tmrw? I like talking to you :3
17 Mar, 2024, 1:31 am
Theres also a fear of:
-poetry
-Fench people
-The color black
-Small things
-Stepmothers
17 Mar, 2024, 4:03 pm
TELL BLU TO RESPOND TO MEEEE
18 Mar, 2024, 1:24 am
HELP ASSCRACK MADE A POST ASKING WHAT WE THINK SHE SOUNDS LIKE AND I HAD TO REFRAIN FROM SAYING A *****
18 Mar, 2024, 1:25 am
*******
18 Mar, 2024, 1:25 am
B I T C H
18 Mar, 2024, 1:26 am
I HAD TO REFRAIN FROM SAYING
"A rubber chicken. Reflects how you look."
(I've seen her insta, it's worse than her heartbreak poetry and lineart combined :sob:)
@citruslotion
18 Mar, 2024, 1:28 am
I LOOKED AT IT TOO AND WAS SURPRISED SHE WASNT 30 OR 3
19 Mar, 2024, 1:10 am
Heyy Micahh
So I'm gonna take a break, my E.D got worse and so has my mood, I yelled at my dad (which I never do) and the plane ride over was really scary (I've never been on one before) and now like every time I'm standing or something the ground starts rising and sinking but only for me and I get a headache.
Anyway yeah I'll be back probably soon and I just thought I'd lyk even if you don't care, and if I'm not back soon I'm probably dead or in a mental hospital so yeah bye
19 Mar, 2024, 1:14 am
/vsrs (not being dramatic and like I said, idk if you care)
20 Mar, 2024, 1:22 pm
Aw shi't, I'm really sorry you feel like that. I'm also very sorry for my late response, life is living rn tbh :sob:
Good on you, realizing that it's time for a break. This place is toxic af and you have every right to take a break.
Ttyl Citrus.
@citruslotion
21 Mar, 2024, 12:01 am
ALR MY LIFES SHlT
Now I'm on halfbreak
Hopefully
Maybe
Idk
I need to vent if you're ever available :sparkles:
Also
I trust you enough
To tell you
That
My name's Jaylee
So yuh
Also
I hope your life gets better :sparkles:
You deserve it :sparkles:
You're amazing :sparkles:
Wow I feel drunk
21 Mar, 2024, 12:02 am
TIME TO SPEED DRAW UP PAST MY BED TIME
22 Mar, 2024, 8:30 pm
I'm alr, ty. Wbu?
@citruslotion
(moved it here lol)
22 Mar, 2024, 8:31 pm
(I was hoping you would lmao)
That's good :sparkles:
I
confessed to my crush
And now we're talking abt it
I'm ******* nervous
Help
22 Mar, 2024, 8:32 pm
HELP I JUST GOT A MESSAGE FROM MY SELF CARE APP SAYING YOU CAN DO IT WTH ITS SPYING ISTG
22 Mar, 2024, 8:33 pm
Eh, Idrk how to help you there, I'm sorry.
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 8:34 pm
It's ok :sob:
22 Mar, 2024, 8:34 pm
LMFAO MY MENTAL HEALTH APP KEEPS TELLING ME I HAVE SEVERE DEPRESSION EVEN THOUGH I DON'T FEEL BAD AT ALL :sob:
SAYS TE SAME W/ SEVERE ANXIETY WHYYY
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 8:35 pm
OH :sob:
22 Mar, 2024, 8:41 pm
I have the very random urge to explain how I accidentally made all of my ocs have traits like mine, however I feel like it'd be annoying-
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 8:43 pm
Dude don't even worry about it I annoyed the f4ck outta my dad when I was little
I made a town
I guess they were my ocs?
I made a town and people out of cardboard and paper
:skull:
So go ahead
22 Mar, 2024, 8:53 pm
Indy: TrAnZ, Buries pain
Tango: Trust issues af, Acts tough to try to protect the ppl he loves
Toadstool: The therapy of the group
Alloy: Forgets that they have an effect on ppls' emotions
Phantom: Intelligent but refuses to care
Genesis: HIGH CONFIDENCE, HIGH RIZZ LEVELS
Dreamcast: Goofy around friends, Serious around aquaintinces, doesn't exist around strangers
Venus: Sass
Wisteria: NO SENSE OF FASHION AT ALL :sparkles:
Fudo: Goofy, Actually folds corners of cards
Am I missing Any?
22 Mar, 2024, 8:53 pm
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 8:55 pm
High rizz levels LMAO
I LOVE IT
22 Mar, 2024, 8:55 pm
I relate :sparkles:
22 Mar, 2024, 8:55 pm
NOT TO THE RIZZ LEVELS BUT TO YOUR CHARACTERS
22 Mar, 2024, 8:56 pm
One sec I gotta check if I'm missing any :skull:
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 8:57 pm
Ok :skull:
22 Mar, 2024, 9:01 pm
I SWEAR I HAD AN OUTOFPOCKET OC SOMEWHERE
I'M VERY OUT OF POCKET WHEN IT GETS TOO QUIET ON CALLS
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:02 pm
I-
OK :sob: :thumbsup:
22 Mar, 2024, 9:03 pm
OH WAIT NO THAT'S INDY AND THE 453.75 MEMES I MADE OFF HIM :skull:
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:04 pm
OH NICE :smiley:
22 Mar, 2024, 9:06 pm
HOW TO NOT FIXATE ON REAL LIFE PEOPLE THAT BREATHE AIR LIKE YOU.
...
.
.
.
.
.
YOU DON'T :sparkles:
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:07 pm
WAIT WHAT
MICAH HOW DO YOU BREATHE???
22 Mar, 2024, 9:09 pm
THROUGH MY A$$- /vvvjk
I meant the not fixate on ppl part
you don't not fixate on ppl
it's bound to happen :sob:
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:10 pm
Oh I'm dumb /p0s
WHAT DID THE REST OF THAT SAY ONE SEC
22 Mar, 2024, 9:11 pm
Yes
Fixate
Fix ate
Fixing ate
Fixing eating?
BRO I WANNA GET MY EATING FIXED
22 Mar, 2024, 9:13 pm
If it makes you feel any better, I forget lunch and sometimes dinner.
That's not helpful is it-
I'm so sorry...
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:15 pm
No no it's not your fault, its my moms and bullies, and I ate TWICE today so I'm doing good for now :D
Also
*violently throws food at you*
Here
22 Mar, 2024, 9:17 pm
HOLY **** I'M ACTUALLY PROUD OF YOU FOR SOME REASON
I feel so bad cz with most mental health stuff, I can help ppl through, but when it comes to anorexia and (the other one that starts with a b omg-), I have no idea how to help, bc in the ways that I tried, I hurt ppl even more and-
Yk..?
I really wish I could help.
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:21 pm
Aw that's really sweet, I love that you want to help people
The only thing that really helps me is when my dad (I don't have much people I know irl) doesn't MAKE me eat
22 Mar, 2024, 9:22 pm
Also dym BED? :sob:
22 Mar, 2024, 9:23 pm
(binge eating disorder
22 Mar, 2024, 9:23 pm
)
22 Mar, 2024, 9:24 pm
No, it doesn't really matter, I just really care abt certain random people for some reason-
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:26 pm
Literally me to some homeless person who could be an asscrack
A dulpicate of Azura
Hmm y'know what
Why should she get a capital letrer name
22 Mar, 2024, 9:27 pm
She don't deserve it :skull: /nbrbutbeingrudetoo
Help am I using tone tags right??
22 Mar, 2024, 9:29 pm
LMAOOO
Me happening to get a scoop from blu on what she's up to:
Me:
WDYM THE PERSON SHE'S FLIRTING WITH IS YEL-
OH MY GOD.
Blu: YeaH THAT'S WHAT I MEAN-
Me: HM-
(I understand that Yellow isn't the color I own, however, I feel targeted and highly uncomfy w/ it :sob:)
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:31 pm
WDYM YELLOW
LIKE USER COLOR??
22 Mar, 2024, 9:32 pm
THERES A YELLOW USER COLOR
22 Mar, 2024, 9:32 pm
WHAT
22 Mar, 2024, 9:32 pm
BRB GOTTA STALK
22 Mar, 2024, 9:33 pm
I doodle myself solely yellow.
I have colors set for everyone based on the vibe I get off them. It also helps me differ ppl from ppl
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:34 pm
Hm thats cool!
Girls begging for likes wth
What vibe am I? :0
22 Mar, 2024, 9:37 pm
That reminds me that I have :sparkles: synestheisa :sparkles:
22 Mar, 2024, 9:38 pm
You givin Semi-Diluted Seafoam.
Semi-Dilution: appeared in my life outta nowhere, ended up being friends
Green: Very upbeat, able to crack a joke outta thin air
Blue: Caring, Friendly
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:38 pm
AWWWW TYSM
22 Mar, 2024, 9:38 pm
I understand emotions and the color coordination w/ such emotions,
however mine are all outta whack lol
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:39 pm
Ofc :3
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:39 pm
I guess I did kinda appear outta nowhere sorrybouthat :sob:
22 Mar, 2024, 9:40 pm
Hmm nice
22 Mar, 2024, 9:41 pm
LMAO, Dw abt it.
Most ppl have color correlation by those standards, but the Sillies I purposely made us a rainbow cz yEs
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:42 pm
Hmm Imma look at the sillies acc
22 Mar, 2024, 9:42 pm
I LOVE THE ART THERE
22 Mar, 2024, 9:43 pm
Ty :3c
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:46 pm
Me thinking I'm lip syncing
Dad: WhY aRe YoU wHiSpErInG
22 Mar, 2024, 9:47 pm
FOR REALLL LMFAO
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:48 pm
I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST ME :sob:
22 Mar, 2024, 9:49 pm
NOT AT ALL :sob:
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 9:49 pm
:sob: :sob:
22 Mar, 2024, 9:51 pm
I HATE ORANGES AND LOTION
BUT IM SUNBURNT AND WE HAVE NO ANYHING FOR IT
AND ORANGES ARE LIKE BITING INTO A LIP
AND IM NOT A S3XUAL PERSON
22 Mar, 2024, 9:51 pm
HELP EW
22 Mar, 2024, 9:51 pm
ISTG IM GONNA DIE
22 Mar, 2024, 9:58 pm
:sob: I CAN'T RELATE
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 10:04 pm
:sob:
22 Mar, 2024, 10:04 pm
LUCKY
22 Mar, 2024, 10:07 pm
I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND NOW?
22 Mar, 2024, 10:23 pm
WOAG
CONGRATS!!
@citruslotion
22 Mar, 2024, 10:50 pm
I PULLED THE TINY BIT OF RIZZ OUTTA MY A$$
22 Mar, 2024, 10:50 pm
/hj
23 Mar, 2024, 10:48 pm
Hiya
So
I'm gonna go to a mental hospital :sparkles:
Hope it isn't hell
Bye bye for now
24 Mar, 2024, 1:41 pm
Oh, I'm glad you're getting the help you need.
@citruslotion
03 Apr, 2024, 10:19 pm
Hiii It's been a bit but I js wanted to lyk that
You are amazing :sparkles:
@citruslotion
08 Apr, 2024, 2:21 am
TYSM UR THE BEST YOU ARE TOO
I just got back
I don't recommend
It was fucking HELL
THEY MADE ME EAT SIX FUCKING TIMES A DAY
SIX
FUCKING
TIMES
Btw I'm taking a three day break THEN IM GOING BACK OML FML
The whole thing was so distressing!!! I swear I have PTSD
SORRY FOR RANT BUT NOW IM MORE SUICIDAL AND I TOLD MY DAD (we're allowed one call a fucking day with fucking peoples watching our every fucking move) SO HE MADE ME SWITCH HOSPITALS HOPEFULLY HOPEFULLY THIS PLACE IS BETTER I JUST MISS MY STUPID OLD LIFE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Anyway hru? :D
08 Apr, 2024, 8:44 pm
I'm great!
I know, that's why I don't want to go to a MHI even thought I need it so so bad :skull:
I have s/h or sooseeduh thoughts daily and it's to the point where I'm planning but holding back at the same time idek anymore
And school doesn't give a sh-t.
But I've been good, yk, other than that.
@citruslotion
Glad to know you're alive tho Istg I thought they did smth to oof you-
08 Apr, 2024, 11:36 pm
Keep holding back please you're great :muscle:
08 Apr, 2024, 11:52 pm
And thank you for caring, srsly it means a lot
09 Apr, 2024, 12:19 am
I HAVE IDEYAHS
1. I'm gonna convince my girlfriend to join >:)
2. Imma make a MTA tomorrow
3. If you want I can make us a chatroom
09 Apr, 2024, 12:39 am
YES YES YES.
Also I wanna tell yo smth so silly
@citruslotion
09 Apr, 2024, 12:56 am
Tell me smth so silly :3
09 Apr, 2024, 1:02 am
I posted abt it, you already saw it :sob:
@citruslotion
09 Apr, 2024, 1:03 am
OH OOPS :sob:
29 Jul, 2024, 1:06 am
Imagine bonding over Saint Motel-
Couldn;t be us *SOBS*
@citruslotion
29 Jul, 2024, 1:06 am
NAh, You're my pookie bro- Dw, not being mean
10 Aug, 2024, 7:32 pm
@-TZATZIKI- Fr could never be us