ya'll i cant believe how far the jar insecurity thing went like i started the wholeee trend it's amazing!
I feel special :sparkles:

wait thats so cute

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
I could tel u here ig

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
So i told u abt me coming out right?

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
Ahh idk i just have trauma now..

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
Nothing is the same

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
I have trauma from the experience..

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
So, i came out to my parents and everything went downhill-

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
Like my mom manipulated me, and called me a sin, nobody understood, my dad didnt understand, i was depressed the whole week.
My mom think's it's a phaSe, and im gonna meet my girlfriend and regret it all. blah blah blah

all that has left trauma, and everytime i try to go to sleep those negative thoughts come at me, and it makes me not feel right..

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
its alr
but yeah, everytime i try to be happy it haunts me
i guess i just... hate myself, or her for what she said
makes me feel i did something wrong, im only valid to my friends and my girlfriend.
They accept me for wanting to be trans and genderfluid and as3xual
but not my parents, it's a hard topic
i don't wanna tell them again

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
Idk but she definitely forced the sh!t into my head so much i cant get it out.
but
i still love women
i'd still kiss this girl,
i'd marry this girl
i'd fight for this girl

and i'd fight my whole life to be a male
and that sh!t hurts when she blames it on the ppl i hang around
like discovering your s3xuality is from bad influencers?
nah it's called someone giving you an extra hand to find your inner self.

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
You do?

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
Yeah, your right..
my gf said it's because i wouldn't be her daughter anymore..
that's why it's hard to accept
worst part is she doesn't get the fact i've hidden everything about my s3xuality up until that point
cause she kept saying "i never saw the signs"
well no duh you didn't? i hid it very well. cause i knew damn well you'd be a fu-cking jerk to my face

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
I've never had a close relationship with my mom...
or my dad either
we used to be, but we drifted apart so much since i was a kid. we disagreed, they abu-sed me. i was treated unfairly, they control most of what i do, and when i finally got a chance of freedom to just something innocent
they took it away forever.

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
Yeah..
idk how i got the courage to even tell them
just a secret i've kept for years
something i wish they understood.
i saw other ppl come out
i just wanted to know how it would go
it all went downhill..
ppl tell me if i stop venting abt it, the pain will mend
but i hate keeping stuff in.

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
Me aswell??

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
I bet your parents love you!
they just aren't good parents... they probably dont understand parenting as well as they should
parents are supposed to support their child
not degrade them and make them count down every second until they move out.

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
Dude, exactly.
Like everytime i tell my mommy mental health she don't understand.
every single fu-cking day, i go through this h3ll. (srry for cussing-)
and when i try to communicate she blocks out what im saying and lectures me or makes an excuse.

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
Mom my*

not mommy HELP

@Empty_Cheese_Can25
I know...

bye!-