I've no plans to be all social and shxt. I've done the "friend group" shxt and I'm damn tired of it. Although I had [and still may have-] some "feelings" for a couple people on here- In my real life- I could never sustain a strong and lasting relationship and I don't have plans to try any "One night" shxt either.

Sure- I'm gay- I'm like- the h◇m◇-est- h◇m◇53xaul you've ever know- but I don't have plans to start going to gay clubs and shxt- I don't fxck with 53xually active people who don't have a steady partner [to anyone who does this- this is my prgative- no judgment at all]. So yes- my social life is already non-existant-

I'd try keeping in contact with the fam, but they all b'tching about Mom not taking their bullsh't anymore, so they haven't called me or her in mf CENTURIES- [these hxes are LITERALLY all 60 or almost in their 60's like bxtch grow the fxck up-]

There's never a time where I don't feel alone. Now I just have to get used to BEING alone too. I have to find a way to get used to it because I sure as hell am not about to let myself NEED people. People are only gonna let you down. If you let Him, only God can make you not feel alone. At the moment- I don't feel too good about trying to run to him, because I'm not as zealous and pure as I used to be-

Idk- I'm tired than a mf rn- I'm going the hell to sleep. Night hos/lh

Nvm- Cain't sleep-

I feel like most of my friends outgrew me- which is embarrassing as hell because some of these hos are younger than me. I'm fxcking tired of people "outgrowing" me. It's about motherfxcking time I outgrow somebody- see how the fxck they feel about trying to be loyal to someone and they just ditch you like candy wrapper trash-

In all honesty- this is what normally deters me from making new friends. Hxes act like they too mf good for me after they get their fill of some pleasant company- Bxtch I'm not a motherfxcking toy to be played with. Be a friend- CONSISTANTLY- or don't fxck with me at all.

I'm sick of being deserted and I'm sick of feeling alone. I'm sick of old xss whxres playing games when they know damn well that they too motherfxcking old to be so damn stupid and petty.

I'm tired of my trust being broken and I become the bad guy when I finally become bitter about it. FXCK YOU- YOU STARTED THIS SHXT NOT ME..

@_R4ccOOn_ ykw.. Thank you... I really apreciate your words. I don't know what else to say...