My 2 year anniversary by XxWingsxX_
September 9th, 2021. That was the day I realized it wasn't simply a 'phase' anymore.. I had no way of expressing my confusion, my fear, or even my (forgive me-)... shame. I found colors a few weeks later and joined 2 months after. I've come to terms with myself since. Rough times. Sobering memories. Advice? Never take the process of finding yourself lightly. The most dangerous thing to play with isn't always fire or sharp objects... It may just be your identity... #justmewings
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09 Sep, 2023, 8:20 am
I didn't re-surface to get all weepy and 'woe is me'. This is a very important day in the history of my life, and I felt the need to acknowladge it. I will honestly say that this day isn't a very happy day for me due to the painful memories it brings back, but it is a day for me to remember that being honest with myself, was better than simply sitting in denial like I had done for 2 years.
09 Sep, 2023, 8:25 am
I can honestly say that I was probably never default. I had developed those feelings at a very young age, and it never really left me. Even when I said I was "straight" I realized that I didn't experience attraction like many other people do. So I did everything in my power to "create an identity that wasn't exactly gay, but that I was comfy with". Spoiler alert: That shxt DID NOT work.
09 Sep, 2023, 8:29 am
I did some research at the time, and came to the conclusion that I was demisxual. Idk how the hell I thought that it didn't make me "qu33r" per se. Ig because I wasn't really attracted to anyone in particular. Ofc that changed. So at first I'm like: Omg I'm pan-. Later, did some more research: Omg I'm Omni-. Later that same october: OHHHHH! I'm Abro! Ofc!
09 Sep, 2023, 8:36 am
It wasn't until september of 2022 that I realized that I no longer understood my own AGAB [assigned gender at birth]. I struggled with that A LOT, and finally- aside from my neo-pronouns- I became comfortable with "they/them". I still prefer they/them but I'm able to accept he/him and she/her depending on the circumstances.
09 Sep, 2023, 8:42 am
My journey of qu33rity- is weird- but- hell- Who I am now- is who I will be unless I go though another life-altering change. All I can say to anyone reading this is: don't give up on yourself. Nothing is permanent. Everything changes. And If nothing lasts forever, how much more so will the hurt you may feel about your changes now? gn y'all :heart_decoration:
09 Sep, 2023, 11:24 pm
I love you wings its nice seeing you alive take care of yourself im so proud of you and how far you've come you're doing great :heart:
10 Sep, 2023, 9:28 pm
@CallieFerociousBeast *hugs tight* Thanks for bein' there for me. Ly too pooks /p :heart_decoration:
10 Sep, 2023, 10:21 pm
*hugs back harder*
and np i'm always here for you :peace